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“He loves me, he loves me not,” mahinang usal ko before I continue chanting and plucked another petals.
 
“He loves me... he loves me...” I stop.

I sighed at hindi na itinuloy ang pagpitas sa huling petal ng daisy. The last petal defines his feelings towards me. The victory wasn’t on my part, it’s always on him. 

A tear escaped on my eyes. As much as I would love the thought of him loving me back, but no! He’s deeply in love with someone else.

“What’s with my cousin? Why her, Race? Can’t you see my worth? Can’t you see how much I love you? Can’t you see that I’m head over heels to you, even you dumped me so many times? Can’t you love me, even just a little?Can’t you see... my sacrifices?” I desperately asked, followed by small sobs. 

God knows how I badly wanted to hug him tight. I like him, so much. Funny how I was fantasizing myself to be one of the Disney princesses and with one kiss and everything will be a happy ever after with him. But no, he is no prince nor I am a princess. I love him, while he loves my cousin so much. 

“Why her?” pumiyok ang boses ko sa tanong ko habang patuloy na namamalisbis ang luha sa pisngi ko. 

“Is it because she likes you, and you like her too?” patuloy ko, hindi matanggap na totoo ang nakita ko. I was trying so hard to accept this to myself, but here I am, still crying my shit. 

“I’m sorry, Wren...” tanging sambit ni Race bago tumalikod at dahan-dahang naglakad palayo.

I can’t believe this is happening to me! Why do I always feel that I am not worth to keep? People around me always left me in pain. Why do he always see her, not me? I’m always drowning from saving people around me. But who will save me then?

“Are you going to leave me just like that?” Horace coldly said and chuckle. I glued my eyes on him with my furrowing forehead, not thinking anymore if he is serious about what he’s saying. Napabuntong hininga nalang ako.

“It would be unfair of me if I’ll leave you without my reasons. But on the other hand, you don’t deserve it anyway. You don’t deserve any explanation, you, yourself know what you’d done that pushed me to walk away.” 

I heaved a sigh again and remain emotionless. 

“Til we meet next time, Race,” I murmured as I turn my back and walk away. 

I will find myself for I am lost. I will save myself for I am tossed. Because if I continues this dream I have, surely I’ll drown.

Baby, you’ll always be the reason for my giggles and laughs. The dried tears on my cheeks, my smile and sleepless nights. But you will also the reason for the ache of my heart, and why my chest hammers so hard. 


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Table of The Last Petal (Book#01 of Petal Doulogy)

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Volume 1