Dear Diary,
Life is too short. We can have second, third or as many chances in our lifetime, but we only get to live once.
Every moment counts. Every second, minute, hour, day, week, month and year matters. Today can never be replaced by tomorrow and yesterday cannot be undone.
GAGO's Lesson 101 no. 76: Enjoy your life to the fullest! Don't waste your time on things you cant change. Do something meaningful and productive.
There are tons of fish in the ocean. All I have to do is create and set up the perfect bait. Sabi nga nila, explore your options. Tinuon ko ang aking atensyon sa pag inom ng alak. Since I worked in the club, I have the unlimited resources of boost just enough for me to get drunk and forget all my worries at least for a moment.
GAGO's Lesson 101 no. 77: Be creative and resourceful. Kung magbibisyo ka, siguraduhin mo na kaya mong i-sustain ang pangangailangan mo. Bakit ka pa bibili kung mayroon naman sa paligid?
One busy night at the club while minding my own business. One chubby girl came to my attention. She ordered a couple of tequila shots and left. For some reason she got me mesmerized by her cute charm. O sadyang fetish ko lang talaga ang mga babaeng may malalaking boobs, balakang at hita.
I was staring at her for a few lazy minutes when she caught me looking at her.
"Deym, that was really embarrassing!" Napayuko ako sa sobrang kahihiyan at nagpanggap na nagtitimpla ng cocktail drinks para hindi naman masyado halata na wala akong ginagawa kung hindi ang pagmasdan siya.
"Hey, did you just starred at my rack?" her voice was really loud and arched an eyebrow.
"Yes, I did and I'm not sorry about it," I said it out loud. "Deym, Yujin, gago ka talaga 'bat ka umamin?" sa isip-isip ko.
GAGO's Lesson 101 no. 78: When caught in the act, stay calm and don't panic.
"Did you know, staring at a woman's breast is rude and impolite?!" she annoyingly said and gave me an uneasy stare.
"What's the use of wearing those revealing clothes if we are not allowed to appreciate it?" At pagkatapos ay inilabas ko ang pamatay na dimples ko sa kaniya. "Appreciative lang po akong gago este tao, ma'am," dagdag ko pa. Napangising gago na lang ako at bumalik sa pagkukunwaring nagtitimpla ng cocktail drink.
GAGO's Lesson 101 no. 79: If you don't want people to stare at you, wear something appropriate!
Ang dami kasi sa mga babae magsusuot ng plunging at labas cleavage, kapag tinitigan magagalit. Magsusuot ng maiksi at sexy na damit, kapag binastos mag iinarte. Para saan pa at nagsuot ka ng ganoon kung ayaw mo ng atensyon?
Her face turned red. Not in anger but in shame. Hindi naman ako masamang tao, sadyang gago lang. Nakaramdam tuloy ako ng konting awa. Slight lang talaga kaya kinuha ko ang jacket ko na nakapatong sa banko at inabot sa kaniya.
"Here, take it." She stared at me, confused. "Cover yourself. Baka mamaya pag-fiestahan ka pa ng iba diyan," 'pagkatapos kong sabihin iyon ay tumalikod na ako at pinagsilbihan ang mga nag aabang na customer sa bar.
"You're not a douchebag after all," she softly said with a sweet smile on her face. "I kinda like your style. Let me buy you a drink," she offered me and sat down on one of the chairs in the minibar.
How can I say no to that? Working while drinking, I mean this is the best job ever! We started a couple of tequila shots, then shifted to whiskey and when things got heated we decided to call it a night and go on our separate ways. Professional si gago kaya pagkatapos ko pagbigyan ang customer ko sa free drinks niya ay balik na ulit ako sa trabaho. Buti na lang mataas ang alcohol tolerance ko. Kung sa ibang tao iyan malamang gapang na siya at bagsak sa pansitan.
She is not the only customer who offered to buy me a drink. It's normal for our customers to do that especially to those who came there alone and looking for someone to talk to. Part of our job is to listen to their stories, complaints, sentiments and gossips. Happy or sad we are always there to listen to them. We don't just serve drinks we offer companionship and sometimes we became their outlet para mailabas lahat ng mga naitatagong saloobin.
It's been a long night. Kota na rin ako sa dami ng nainom kong alak at the same time, dami ng tips sa mga satisfied customers. Pagkatapos ko magligpit sa bar at mag ayos sa locker ay lumabas na kaagad ako sa club para umuwi. Grabe na kasi ang pagod ko at tama ko sa alak. I can tell that I already hit my limit, but still able to go home. Laking gulat ko nang pagkalabas ko ng club ay nakita ko siyang nag aabang sa labas. Nakasakay siya sa kulay green na Mclaren 570S.
"I didn't get your name," sigaw niya sa akin sabay senyas niya para ako'y palapitin.
Medyo tipsy na ako kaya dahan-dahan akong naglakad patungo sa kaniya. "That's because I didn't give it to you in the first place." I smiled at her and lean on her window to get a closer view of her car. "I knew you'd be back. By the way, Nice car," I complimented her while checking on her car's interiors.
"Cayle," she said. "That's my name. What's yours?"
"Nice to finally meet you, Cayle. I'm Yujin!"
"Ride with me," she teases me and starts caressing my hand.
"Nah, I had enough for tonight. My bed is waiting for me," pabiro kong sinabi. Ang totoo masama na ang tama ng alak sa akin. Konti na lang ay gagapang na ako pauwi.
"Okay, let me give you a ride home!" We had an awkward stare at each other, both are waiting who will make the first move. Until she breaks the silence, "c'mon, I don't take no for an answer," she insisted and opens the passenger door. I don't want to be rude, so I hop in her car and we drove to my house. The moment we reached my house, I politely thank her and went straight to my doorstep. Pagpasok ko ng bahay, hindi ko namalayang nakasunod pala siya sa akin at dire-diretso siyang pumasok sa loob ng studio flat ko.
"Ah, okay. Please, come in," I said sarcastically. "Can I get you anything?"
"Maliit pero pwede na," sabay hirit niya.
"Excuse me?!"
"I mean, iyong studio mo, maliit pero pwede na," natatawa niyang sinabi. "Ano ba kasi ang nasa isip mo?" dagdag pa niya. Dahan-dahan siyang naglakad papalapit sa akin at nang malapit na siya ay bigla niyang dinakma ang aking alaga. "Shit! Gising na!" tukso pa niya sabay himas. "It's bigger than I expected!" she said with a crafty smile.
"Stop it! I have no time to play games," mariing tanggi ko sa kaniya. Mabilis kong hinawi ang kaniyang kamay na nakadakma sa aking manoy bago pa ito tuluyang magising.
"Oh c'mon, Yujin, don't tell me you don't want this?" mapang-akit niyang sinabi habang dahan-dahan niyang binubuksan ang zipper ng kaniyang damit. "You and me, were just the same," biglang naging seryoso ang kaniyang tinig, mas lalo niyang inilapit ang sarili niya sa akin at tumitig sa aking mga mata.
"What do you mean? You're not making any sense." Napakunot na lang ang aking noo at nagsalubong ang kilay sa sobrang pagtataka sa sinabi niya.
"You can hide your sadness with your smile, drown yourself with liquor to wipe away your tears from your bad memories, but your eyes can never lie ---" She cupped my face and look straight into my eyes. "You're a lost soul just like me!"
The realization hits me hard like a bucket of ice-cold water. "Am I that too obvious?" I said to myself.
"Tulad mo gusto ko lang maging masaya kahit panandalian lamang," napakalambing ng boses niya habang dahan-dahan niya akong hinahalikan sa labi. "Stop depriving yourself of being happy. I know you want this." Kinuha niya ang aking mga kamay at itinapat niya ito sa kaniyang malulusog na dibdib.
Traydor talaga ang aking katawan! May sariling pag iisip ang aking mga kamay na kusang humihimas sa naglalakihan niyang hinaharap. Kahit si manoy ay sumasang-ayon at mabilis na nagising ng ipinasok ni Cayle ang kaniyang kamay sa loob ng aking pantalon na hindi ko namalayan kanina pa pala nakabukas ang zipper. Parang laking Quiapo ang babaeng 'to, walang nagawa ang chastity belt ko at mabilis niyang akong nahubaran nang walang effort!
Parang may kuryenteng dumaloy sa aking katawan ng himasin niya ang aking alaga. Kahit hinang-hina na ako sa sobrang kapaguran pero ang aking alaga 'eto at handang mag-tiktok pa. Bunga na siguro ng kalasingan ay hindi ko na napigilan ang aking sarili para pulutanin ang malusog na tilapia na nasa aking harapan. Buti na lang nag shower na muna ako bago ako umalis ng club. Mahirap na, baka ako pa masisi kapag nagkasakit siya sa bato at hindi niya matagalan ang itlog na maalat.
Sobrang bilis nang mga pangyayari at hindi ko na masyado idedetalye pa. Mga pre, sobrang lango ako sa alak unawain nyo na ang memorya ko ay may hangganan din.
In just one snap we both ended up naked in my bed. It was no surprise my bed was just a few steps away from the main door. I was too drunk to move a muscle. She, on the other hand, was too aggressive. She does all the works for me. All I have to do is show some support and behave like a good little boy. I can be submissive sometimes, but not all the time.
I can feel her tongue licking from the head up to the sensitive ridge of my manhood, her mouth slowly devouring the full length of it and her head moving up and down at a steady pace. Her mouth is so warm and her saliva is lubricating my dick making a satisfying slurping sound while she continues to suck the juices out of me. I can't help but to continuously moan out of pleasure.
I wanted to feel her wetness, so I maneuver her body and reverse it where our body is positioned at sixty-nine. I wanted to taste her sweetness. I spread her legs wide apart to expose herself from me, but she was too short for me and I can barely reach her. I don't want to interrupt her from sucking my dick. I can say she is one of the best dick suckers I ever have encountered in my life. I want to enjoy and savor this moment for as long as I can.
I reached out my hand to touch and gently caress her shaved pussy, it was so damn wet. Slipped my fingers inside her and her hips were slowly moving swinging it up and down while I continue to wildly fuck her with my fingers.
"Yes, Yujin, just like that! Fuck me with your fingers just like that!" She moved backward, now I can finally reach her.
I start to dig in her soaking wet pussy tasting her sweet juices while my fingers continue to fuck inside her. She closes her eyes tightly while making carnal moans and starts jerking on my shaft.
"Don't stop! So good, you make me wanna cum," she said lustfully. Her lips look sensual and intoxicating I can imagine filling her mouth with my cum. I want to save the part for later. For now, I want to focus on her. I changed my pace and move my fingers faster, lick and nibbled her clit until she finally reached her climax. She was about to give me another blowjob when I stopped her...
"Stop!"
She turned her head and look at my eyes briefly and said, "You don't want it?"
Kung alam lang niya kung gaano ako nasarapan sa pagsubo niya sa akin. Kaso sa sobrang kalasingan ko sa ngayon ay nakakasigurado ko na kapag nilabasan agad ako ay mahihirapan na akong patayuin ulit si manoy. One time at walang repeat performance ang magagawa ko sa ngayon. Ayaw ko naman masira ang moment kung sakaling mabitin siya sa akin. Bahagya akong umupo sa pagkakahiga ko at inabot sa bed side drawer ko ang isang plastik ng condom.
I tried to open it, but my hands are too slippery due to the fluids from her pussy. So I hand it over to her and said, "Can you please open it for me and be a good girl and place it to my little guy over there?" My lips pouted pointing to the direction of my super erected dick. I closed my eyes and rested for a little while waiting for her to place the condom in me. I can feel her hand gently caressing my dick moving it up and down. In a matter of minutes, my dick slides smoothly inside her.
She drove me like a pro, contracting her pussy making it tighter. I can feel my dick being squeeze in so much pleasure. I never thought my dick will feel so good inside her. As she thrust herself with me, she moans repeatedly making me hornier. I stared at her boobs lustily with her nipples stood out prominently. I placed my hands on her boobs and pull them close to me while she continues to pump her way faster than before.
"I'm cuming, Yujin," she whispered in a sexy tone. I can feel her tense and shaken. Her pussy starts to constrict around my dick. I immediately hold her hips and pressed her close to me. I don't want to detach myself inside her. I pump harder and faster. Her orgasm intensified when I swirled my tongue around her nipples and nibble it with my lips until we both reached out climax.
So tired and drunk, we both passed out immediately. Tanghali na nang ako'y magising. Hindi na namin nagawang linisin ang aming mga sarili sa sobrang kalasingan. Bigla akong nahimasmasan ng makita kong nagkalat ang mga tiyanak ko sa kama. Nagmadali ako sa paghanap ng condom na ginamit ko kagabi at laking gulat ko nang hindi pa pala iyon nabubuksan mula sa kaniyang pagkakabalot sa plastik.
"Cayle, wake up!" taranta kong wika habang niyuyugyog siya sa kama.
"Hmmm... antok pa ako," garalgal niyang sagot.
"Hindi ba natin ginamit ang condom?"
"Hindi," mabilis niyang sagot.
"Bakit hindi? Paano kung mabuntis ka? Paano kung mabuo iyan?Ano na ang gagawin natin?" sunod-sunod kong tanong habang patuloy ko siyang ginigising.
"Problema ko na iyon," kalmado niyang sinabi.
"Hindi mo pwede problemahin mag isa iyon! Problema natin 'to pareho! Pananagutan kita 'pag nabuntis ka!"
Bigla siyang napabalikwas sa kaniyang pagkakahiga at gigil na sinabi...
"GAGO ka ba? Gusto mo bang patayin tayo ng asawa ko?
GAGO's Lesson 101 no. 80: Thou shall not kabit their neighbor's wife! Huwag tira ng tira alamin mo muna kung may asawa o wala. Kung hindi baka ma-Tulfo ka!
Your Neighborhood GAGO,
Yujin