- I guess it's a bad time to ask about this uncomfortable situation, isn't it?
Her beautiful blue eyes looked sad but deep down I could see something else, and when I would give to know that it was that something else, without a doubt Alana would be the person I would remember every day of my life
- No, it is not the moment, you want a coffee in which they give you news of your mother. i tried to sound as calm as i could, it was not the right place, nor did i want to explain what had said, i could well cover the hospital debt easily, but it was not something i wanted to say openly, it was very tense at the moment
- Yes please , …. and don't delay, I don't want to be alone
on the way to the cafeteria I saw some sweets, and my mind returned to that moment when I was listening to her conversations behind that little wall or when i used to pretend that i was not in the bathrooms and I could hear her talking to her friends, I remembered it were Favorite sweets, I still remember how she told that story of her grandmother and sweets with such enthusiasm and how Mexico was an incredible place.
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- I swear it are the best there is, you feel how your palate enters such a sweet area, it is addictive that is, my grandmother has brought them from her trip, you know she lives in Mexico City, but she has a neighbor who makes sweets handmade, she always insists that it would be a success here, so she has brought them for me to try, ... there was a long silence
she too has done it because she says she wants me to remember her when she is gone, cancer is advancing fast even though she says she can. her hands clasped, she looked angry and a tear fell from her face, her friends approached and surrounded her in a hug
-Come on AL, it's strong you know she will come out of it
and I could see how Alana's smile returned to her face, since then I knew that my neighbor would have eternal pain in the near future
- I know, I want you to try them, what will you want more
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I found her sitting, with a lost look she seemed to be very overwhelmed, she had not even noticed my presence, until I sat next to her and her beautiful orbs were fixed on me, and I tried to fake a smile, and that was my sweet Alana being what Better than she could even if she couldn't be herself.
-I have brought you coffee and something special, I have ever heard you name them and I have seen them, I think they will raise your spirits, I also wanted to ask you if you called your grandmother or if you want her to come we can buy her tickets and. something happens? , Did I say something wrong ?
- no, you're just so sweet, I can lean on your shoulder.
- Of course I came for that, hey about the account you could see it as a loan and before you ask my grandparents are somewhat wealthy so let's say that my accounts live full although it may not seem, my parents have never been luxurious or wanting to demonstrate a lot for that, maybe nobody sees us like this
- You're right, I'll take the loan, you're a nice coincidence Sofia Reyes, I don't know how, I don't know why, it's not even the moment, my mother is in a critical state, but I wanted you to know that I can't stop thinking about you, it's something weird You always made me curious, little shy brat. At that moment Alana's smile seemed sincere, and her words were very honest.
- The same thing happens to me, I think that living next door for so many years without speaking has not been a good idea, even so I can say that there is nothing that I do not know about you, I say because our mothers talk a lot sometimes you know ladies advancing, and that way I made a gesture with my hands so that he understood that he knew everything from that little bird called "ADELIN" his mother
- I know, they get along, Sofia can I ask you something, could you stay with me today, the nurse says that the doctor will come after 12 to check on mom, and well dad called to say he was busy with the company. His voice sounded broken, my little angel suffered, but I knew there was something else behind all that, her father was something he never wanted to talk about, it was obvious.
Love acts in mysterious ways, in Alana it was a sea of emotions that could bring me to hell and even so I wanted to stay in it, perhaps I would never know it but I would do what those eyes asked of me, I could not conceive a day without knowing of its existence and I had checked it year after year because perhaps for her I did not know her, I did not know who she was, but the truth is that I knew her more than myself, my little angel was the sweetest thing in the world, but she also had that way of looking with anger that it might feel like your chest hurts just from his contempt.
-Sure, you just let me call home, I tell mom that I'll stay and by the way I tell her about the situation, she doesn't even have to know and I'm sure she will come to keep us company. and just when i was going to withdraw from her she fixed her gaze on the screen of my phone
-You have removed it, now her voice was sad, disappointed
- I don't understand. What have I removed?
- the photo of the drawing you have made of me, I thought you liked that background
Then I laughed and that only annoyed her more, she could not understand how she would remove the most beautiful image that my eyes have seen
-I have not removed it, it is only a screen saver, you leave unlock and I show you something
Then the screen of my phone showed a collage of many more sketches that I had made for her, each one was a different image in each moment that my mind managed to capture how beautiful Alana was, her eyes looked at me expectantly, waiting for an answer
- It's better this way, don't you think? and her smile made my day again
- Much better, come I'll accompany you to go out and call and maybe convince your mother, you know she has always liked me
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- Yes, yes, mom, we are in the hospital that is in front of the bank offices,
- So that's where they gave you piano lessons before?
- Yes, there is the same, you can come and bring me clothes, and something to eat for me and Alana, she is not having a very good time and you know I do not like that she is having to carry this alone, by the way mom, do you remember that you said that I could use the account my grandparents gave me in an emergency.
- emmm yes, I said it, something has happened that I don't know Sofia
- No, it is not only that I need to get an amount I will return it with the summer job, I promise
- It's for Alana, isn't it? You know, Sofia, I don't know if the fact that you don't tell me things directly or that you don't ask me directly, you know that she wouldn't deny you something, especially in this situation.
- You are the best, you know it but I want to pay with mine, please do not be angry
- Well, I'll be there in an hour darling, greetings to Alana, and don't move from there
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-What did she say?
-Not much, that she did not move me from here, she already comes with some things and she has accepted that I stay, do you need something else?
- no, only you, stay and don't go
That was the first time I heard those words from her mouth and I longed so much for them to be sincere, it would all be a world drawn just for her, that I wanted to build from her life and mine in her.