-I said no Alana, and it's my last word, you don't have to go back to that school, I'll put you in a better one now, besides Rigoberto will go there, it would be good for you so you can improve your relationship, he said, with a more serious face. than ever, and a half-finished cigarette in his fingers
- I will not go out with him, I told you before and I will tell you now, I will not, was the last my answer before I felt some hands hold me tightly, and throw me to the floor
-It is not you, who will decide that, it is an order, and your childish games are not going to ruin my business, you better obey my dear, his smile grew on his face more intimidating than any other day
-You only do this because she's not here, I said, whispering "you're a coward", apparently she was the little missing highlights to her morning anger
- Alana, mom is not here, she is with your grandmother, we have talked about it, so you must obey in her absence, I was surprised by the tone of her voice, it seemed friendly, the subject of my mother still affected her despite no longer having a trace of love in his eyes for her
-How long will she be there? You know what the doctor said, I don't know why the hell you sent her to Mexico right now, she should rest, refute, picking me up from the floor and positioning me in front of him
- she has gone to see some businesses near the area, that's all, you make movies in your mind daughter, he said approaching and ruffling my hair like when he was just a girl, those moments made me think of the sweet man I used to call dad
- It's not a good time for your business, make me come back, I finally said sounding like an order
- It is not possible, she will return in a while, be good Alana, do not make the situation more difficult, we are growing, you will go to the university of your dreams, you will marry Rigoberto and you will be financially happy, he said, he seemed to like every word coming out of his mouth
- Well, you have planned my life for me, I don't want any of that, I frowned. I don't need you either dad, I turned my back on him to go back to the bedroom, the discussion was over, neither of us would win this time, as long as my mother was in the way I would have some advantage in it, I was staring at the cars moving twice as fast Lane, a week had passed in which we did not leave the hotel, not since that disastrous dinner with the Mendez family, one Wednesday morning Mom was gone, just a note from a business trip and we'll see each other soon, everything overwhelmed more My mind and there was only one place to escape, I leaned over, taking my shoes off and taking the mobile from there, I returned to the position from before and turned it on, I hoped to have a message from her, and so it was.
"Patience is not my greatest virtue, even so here I am is my sixteenth message, I'm sorry if I'm filling your mobile with nonsense, I was just waiting if you can go out tonight, I'll wait for you on our hill, postscript, I have a present for you , I finally have to say "I miss you", see you soon honey "
I read it a couple of times more, devising a way to leave the hotel without raising signs of something to alert the bodyguards, the good thing about having a free-minded grandmother is that she has good ideas at all times, dial the number of home hoping to see you soon
- Hello darling, answered a voice on the other side of the screen and my eyes crystallized instantly, she was fine and that was the most important thing at that time
- Hello mom, where is the grandmother ?, I asked and took a seat on the small sofa, I knew how extensive this conversation or so they used to be when they called me every Friday when I did not live in the city and the uncles took care of me
-Probably in the store, or talking to some neighbors, you know how it is, when I saw that you called I was very happy and I rushed to answer, I am sorry to disappoint you daughter, she said lowering her face, I was sorry for the whole situation with my father
-No problem, have you gone on a business trip? He insisted that you close a very good contact for the company and that is why you were there
- No, not really, I'm here because witness protection has started the process against your father and I had to leave as soon as I could, he knows I've been investigating him for years, I don't know how but he has the evidence ... well a copy, everything got out of control a few days ago when we argued, you were not in the hotel but he has become too violent and has threatened to kill me and you too, the most prudent thing was to leave, I wanted to bring you with me but the FBI insisted- mom ?, I asked removing that doubt in my mind and my chest harbored throughout the week after hearing his conversation with those who called her guardians
-I don't know what you're talking about, she replied, taking a somewhat nervous posture, I didn't want to bother her but at that moment the only thing on my mind were questions and all without answers or perhaps answers that I never want to know
- You know, I heard you speak with Uncle Hector, who happens to be an agent, do you want to tell me what do you really do? because apparently being a doctor alone is not what you do
she sighed and got up leaving the phone aside, I thought she had retired when her face reappeared on the screen with a glass of water, she seemed to be having a hard time but so was I, the universe seemed to march two steps ahead of me and in no direction was the way back to normality from the warmth of their hugs or that house inhabited only by the three of us
- Well, Alana, you know my name, but you don't know who you really are, your words left me puzzled.What did you mean? Many possibilities entered my mind, depositing more doubts, now I did not want to continue listening to your reasons, even so. she continued talking
I read it a couple of times more, devising a way to leave the hotel without raising signs of something to alert the bodyguards, the good thing about having a free-minded grandmother is that she has good ideas at all times, dial the number of home hoping to see you soon
- Hello darling, answered a voice on the other side of the screen and my eyes crystallized instantly, I was fine and that was the most important thing at that time
- Hello mom, where is the grandmother ?, I asked and took a seat on the small sofa, I knew how extensive this conversation or so they used to be when they called me every Friday when I did not live in the city and the uncles took care of me
-Probably in the store, or talking to some neighbors, you know how it is, when I saw that you called I was very happy and I rushed to answer, I am sorry to disappoint you daughter, she said lowering her face, I was sorry for the whole situation with my father
-No problem, have you gone on a business trip? He insisted that you close a very good contact for the company and that is why you were there
- No, not really, I'm here because witness protection has started the process against your father and I had to leave as soon as I could, he knows I've been investigating him for years, I don't know how but he has the evidence ... well a copy, everything got out of control a few days ago when we argued, you were not in the hotel but he has become too violent and has threatened to kill me and you too, the most prudent thing was to leave, I wanted to bring you with me but the FBI insisted- mom ?, I asked removing that doubt in my mind and my chest harbored throughout the week after hearing his conversation with those who called his guardians
-I don't know what you're talking about, she replied, taking a somewhat nervous posture, I didn't want to bother her but at that moment the only thing on my mind were questions and all without answers or perhaps answers that I never want to know
- You know, I heard you speak with Uncle Hector, who happens to be an agent, do you want to tell me what do you really do? because apparently being a doctor alone is not what you do
she sighed and got up leaving the phone aside, I thought she had retired when her face reappeared on the screen with a glass of water, she seemed to be having a hard time but so was I, the universe seemed to march two steps ahead of me and in no direction was the way back to normality from the warmth of their hugs or that house inhabited only by the three of us
- Well, Alana, you know my name, but you don't know who you really are, your words left me puzzled.What did you mean? Many possibilities entered my mind, depositing more doubts, now I did not want to continue listening to your reasons, even so. she continued talking
-before you speak, let me finish ... no, no, Ash is so difficult Al, you have no idea how damn difficult this is for me, I knew this day would come, she was walking around the room, She felt tense worried and my concern only increased with each step of her sole, -Well Al, you are not my daughter, but nevertheless I educated you and I was there for you since your memory works, I am a doctor but I am also an FBI agent, you Father knows a very large network of gangsters and money laundering, I have been with you all these years, frustrating his plans, we could not stop him from the outside, we resorted to doing it from the inside, that's why I married him, that's why I returned to my medical duties , I needed a new profile, a different life from Agent Santana, but as soon as I had you in my arms you were my daughter, I loved you, I protected you and I would do everything for you, this time I have not even tried to do it, your father has discovered, and everything has fallen apart, I can not do I was alone that is why I returned home daughter, when I finished I put her arms over her face as a sign of frustration, the tears fell down her face, and in that step my heart broke for such a confession
All the new information was complicated to process, if she was not my mother, then who was it? Even if it was my father or just another piece of the world designed at will, I wanted to hang up the call, fear in her eyes and the sadness in her voice stopped me second by second, I wanted to know the truth now more than ever
-Okay, then you are not my mother and you have left because she has caught you, caught agent Santana spat with so much anger in my throat, I could not believe all this time, so many lies, a non-existent family, it was too much for me
-hey i am your mother, I did not have you but I was there for you and I will always be, this has been a setback I will get you out of there and your father will go to prison, the tears fell from her eyes without ceasing, her words cut the resentment born in my chest , the whole atmosphere was tense, although I did not understand anything, I was right about something.
- Well, just give me time, this is a lot, you know, I've been thinking of you and him as my family all my life, believing everything, every photograph, every memory and now it has only been a lie, I don't want to hurt you mom, just give me something time to think, I said smiling forcibly, she knew when that happened
- There is no need to fake a smile, darling, it's okay, call me daily and don't remove that face. I don't want any information. Well, no, just let me know how you are and if you need something, you just have to say it. When I finished her sentence, I remembered the reason for the call and immediately encouraged me to ask for her advice.
- I need to go out tonight to the hills behind our house, the only drawback is the troglodytes following me all day, I said making her laugh at my termination with them
- Okay, we will distract you, and I will put someone for your return, do not worry, in the suitcases there are some suits that you could use to go out quietly and some wigs also take what you need, said my mother, being her again always being her, I felt confused with my heart divided into two parts to believe her and continue with everything, or to distrust her and get more answers
I am going to thank you immensely for that, I have stayed with Sofia tonight and I do not want to miss for anything in the world, The smile on my face gave me away my whole body said love anywhere, I needed that bubble of time more than anything, every second it She confirmed with her messages, her details, those little things made her look like the perfect girl and the best of it, IT WAS MIA
- Well, I have to leave you, I will go for your grandmother and continue with the investigation, take care, Walter will be there in a couple of hours and he will return you to the hotel, trust him, take care of you, she said sure of her words, conveying her trust, no It was time to ask about that guy, there was only one way to trust and that would do, I would get ready in a few minutes, take a shower, and take a dress from the closet with some slippers, the night would be special of that I was completely sure, Sofia was that space between falling and wanting to get up, everything was perfect with her, those dreams stopped being when her lips brushed mine, so many years were thinking about that moment, everything was for her, every day, every class, every attempt, all for a few minutes of her eyes with mine, Sofia changed my life from the first moment but right now it was the course of my compass and her steps would be mine
when i got out of the shower i had a couple of calls from my mother, I took the cell phone and quickly dialed back
-something has happened? I asked calmly, it was strange to have so many calls, and not a message for whatever the matter was.
- Walter is in the building, he will be at your door in a few minutes, he was just calling to wish you luck and good to say "take care of yourself, darling" I promise to be there soon, I must also stay there for grandmother's business but I will inform you about everything, when the call was going to finish his voice was heard again filling my fragile heart
-Al, I love you little one, I am not fortunate enough to say "I had you", she said making a gesture with her fingers and her face, but Al, I love you more every day, I want to be your mother since then and I do not want to take away that privilege that I have kept for years,
- Of course not, I replied, everything will be fine, she hung up the call, leaving me thoughtful about everything that happened with a couple of hours, everything definitely seemed to turn upside down.