I arrived at the hospital after 12 pm, for some reason, I had a feeling in my chest pressing down, as if it were a bad feeling. I wanted to push those thoughts away on the way to the hospital but the closer I got, the more my chest compressed, once I crossed the doors of the place, my steps were quick to reach the reception.
-Good evening, Mrs. Hansen, I said quickly, the woman at the reception was very entertained on the screen of her phone, apparently she had not heard me, when I was going to call her again, she answered suddenly
- room 402, had I heard right ? 402? They had already moved her mother, it was strange, bad thoughts crossed my mind.
Excuse me, because 402, Mrs. Hansen was in room 302, this morning, and I think that the procedures to be carried out have already been done, could you tell me why the room change. I asked immediately, I expected a bad gesture from that woman, or perhaps an insult, or practically a "What do you care, are you the relative of hers or what", to my surprise she raised her face and smiled at me
Of course, her daughter has requested a room change, she no longer required to be in a room like that, at least not so far, she will undergo some more tests, it seems Dr. Hulsan has managed to stabilize her, she just hasn't woken up yet. when his words finished coming out of her mouth a relief flooded my body, it was fine, that only meant one thing, alana was fine
- Thank you, I finally said to say goodbye and walk towards the elevator. The doors opened and I quickly visualized the number of the room along the corridor, next to some signs, of the waiting area, but Alana was not there, she would surely be inside with her mother or maybe she had already woken up, I felt excited by the news of the moment
I knocked twice on her door but nobody opened it, so I decided to turn the knob and I saw her, she had fallen asleep from exhaustion, it was surely heavy hours for her, and me and my brilliant idea of giving her space to think.
I approached with gentle steps until I reached the bed, I removed a lock of her hair, which fell on her face, she looked happy, calmer, she woke up instantly and when she saw her face changed, she seemed not to like the idea of me presence in that place
-Hi, i was the first to leave my lips, the gesture of her face still had me puzzled. I extended that little flower arrangement to her, waiting for her to take it, but it did not happen
- What are you doing here? , I thought I told you that I did not need an escort, she said with an angry tone in her voice, and if I analyzed it, i deserved that tone.
- I'm sorry, I know this is not the time or the place, I just wanted to be with you, come and bring you something to eat and some sheets.
- I don't need you to be here Sofia, how do you see, mom is improving, and you don't stop being that strange girl for me or isn't it? She said, go Alana was somewhat spiteful, I had to write down every aspect discovered in her
no, I am sorry, well?, I put the flowers on the bed, and began to walk around the room, it was something usual in me, when the nerves were greater than my ability to reason
- I'm really sorry, I didn't want to make you feel bad, it was just something suddenly, Alana I have been having feelings for you, since my memory works, a smile seemed to appear on her face, but again her seriousness was there, so I decided to open up totally to her, although deep down I knew how difficult to do it
- Your mother's situation, it was somewhat disturbing, I arrived a few minutes ago, and I have spoken with the receptionist to ask about the change of room, it seemed strange that you requested it, but after knowing the reason, I felt happy, I felt happy because you would be happy, just imagining that your chest would feel some relief with all this shit, made me feel relieved too. I stopped for a moment to see the expression on her face, she was still static, everything about her seemed not to believe me
- Then I came here, quickly, waiting for a compassionate god with me, and the elevator would not fail or something, I wanted to arrive so soon, and then when I saw the room, I called, but you did not open and my heart was only filled with happiness to see you on that bed, hugging your mother,. I stopped my steps and stood in front of her
Alana, I really have strong feelings for you, this go far beyond a physical taste, because I love your mind, your crazy fashion style, your rebellion, I love seeing you dance every Wednesday, I love Friday because I know we share that class singing, which by the way I joined just because I wanted to know if you were as perfect as my mind had idealized you. she was starting to smile, it was not the time to stop
- I have observed you for years AL, I have been living in front of you for years, the days at school are just that days, the music classes, painting, singing, it all comes down to you, you in my drawings, in my photographs, in the songs of every night before sleeping, of you on the canvases of my room, I took some air, I knew what was coming and still wanted to do it
I not only like you, I am in love with you, and if this is much more than you could process, but I had to say it. I finally said what was overwhelming me all the time, I did not think I could hold that feeling for much longer, burning me day by day
She remained silent and I interpreted her silence as "it was too much, you should have stopped before the last sentence", I took my coat and started to walk towards the exit of the room and just when I turned the knob I felt hands surround my waist and his breath crashing against my neck
- It is the most beautiful thing that anybody have ever told me, forgive me, I have acted like a fool, it has only disturbed me having said it first, to tell the truth I already knew everything you have said to me, even so it is wonderful to hear it, I felt my chest rise and go down in total harmony, couldn't believe this all happened in less than a few weeks, and wait so long, now it was happening
- Can I turn around? . I asked, I would like to hug you very much, I felt her head nod against my neck, I turned quickly and wrapped her in my arms, that little heat generated by her body made me feel at home, Alana was that a place to call home
-Thank you, she said even with her head in a raid in my arms, although we were more than 30 cm apart, now if I noticed.
-because? , I haven't done anything, as far as I remember.
- love me, that's a lot, you know, I don't know if I feel the same, you know I've seen you through the window of our rooms many times, and I could only think, what a beautiful and mysterious girl, and suddenly one day I woke up and said I'll talk to her, I never thought about this situation that morning we collided, you remember, she said with a smile on her face
-Of course, we have stumbled a couple of times, don't you think, It have not been the most romantic methods in the world to tell the truth. I said feeling her heart pounding against my chest, she popped her head out of her hiding place and stared at me
-True, but these were effective because yes, she smiled and I responded to that gesture, after a few seconds her expression on her face returned, separating from me instantly
- Sofí, Dad called this morning and we have to go with him, he is the one who pays the bills for now and Mom needs a stable place, I can't run to your house to cause problems, that's why I've thought about it a lot and I'll wait for Mom to wake up The best thing will be to return with him, until I see a complete improvement in my mother, she said, feigning a smile,
-Okay, I said bringing her closer to me, just a few seconds and the heat of her I needed in an uncontrollable way. I can wait to see you, I say I've waited a couple of years a few more days won't hurt
- I know, but they will be long days, you know dad will try to impose the presence of Rigoberto on me as always, I hate that rude and jerk boy, she said grumbling under her breath, I left his embrace and raised his face
- You will be fine, we will be fine, we can wait, I say it does not bother me that you were to stay at home, but if you want to go with your father, I understand it and because of Rigoberto do not worry, I will find a way to ignore us as much as possible . I said to reassure her
- Thank you, if something goes wrong, I will not know , I send you a message by email, you think, I know it is old-fashioned but dad will monitor my social networks now, he is too manic with that stupid partnership between him and Rigoberto's father, he keeps repeating that we are bankrupt and how brilliant that happy society is, how good it would be for the company, but I feel like It is just silly excuses to control me
- I think the same, but it is your father, give him the boto of doubt, at least until you fully know his intentions, you should try to take something pleasant with you that stay. Tell me when your father will come for you and your mother. I said with curiosity killing me inside, I did not want to see her near that subject, although I did not have many options, ALana was stubborn as a mule, I would not make her give up so easily, I only had to support her in her decision
- Tomorrow, maybe it will be the day after, when he finishes his stupid business meeting with some Canadian partners he will come here, he says that we will go to the grandparents, the place is quiet and could help mom to recover faster, although she still does not open her eyes that makes me sad somehow.
I brought her close to me again and hug her tighter this time, I did not think to stop doing it, Alana produced in me so many emotions and none was enough to tire me of her
- You will send me an email, then, I will only stay a couple of hours, I do not want to argue with your father, the hospital is paid, so do not let yourself be convinced by some emotional blackmail, okay? I asked, making sure that this time she would be stronger and her father would not rule her mind as recurrently happened.
- Yes, okay, I'll send that email, saying, "Miss hazel eyes, would you be so kind to get out of my mind for a few minutes, I'm very sleepy and it won't let me rest," she said and we both laughed, at the situation And the way we were right now