- It seems that your father will not come today either, said Jane holding the form with my mother's exit order, I still remember screaming so much and seeing Jane's face in panic when she opened the door, Mom woke up and we both cried in that instant, she knew how to obtain loyalty from people, a brilliant quality.
- I know, it is not something that I expected, to tell the truth it is better this way, you know how heavy the situation is when he occupies our same space, I said sarcastically, raising an eyebrow, causing a small laugh in Jane.
She approached and checked everything again, everything was in order, my mother was now in the bathroom, Dad had brought some comfortable clothes for her departure, and only those seconds were enough to radically change my mood, although she seemed happy to see him, now I was wondering how much did I love him? And what did he do to deserve that love?
- everything seems to be in order, and everything is already paid and signed, your mother can return to her duties in a month, the hospital manager has considered her re-entry, she is the best in her field and the hospital cannot do without her, She said very proud of my mother, Jane was another daughter to my mother.
-Thank you, I said taking her hands in gratitude, she gave me a quality smile,
- It's nothing, now hurry your mother, surely you want to get out of here fast, it's not like that?, she said, knowing everything that was happening in our environment.
Jane left the room and I went to take the bag, to finish storing my mother's belongings, and the papers of the hospital accounts, Sofia had left everything covered and my father did not even ask about the matter, he assumed that Rigoberto paid for it, one more reason to put up with his deliberate intentions to cross that guy's eyes.
- Mom, everything is ready, how are you going there? I said, worried, it had been more than 30 minutes just to change a few pieces of clothing.
- It's all good darling, I just needed a moment, I'm going out, did Dad say where we are going? Mom asked calming my anxiety from a few moments ago. The truth was that Dad had no idea where to go or even He cared if she was still there for a couple of days, the previous conversation had been clear, I had two options to obey him, or to run out of money and bother the grandmother, it was not the best scenario without a doubt.
-we will stay in a hotel near the office of papa, he said he needs to close some business and need us near the area, we will be only a couple of days, then we will return home, I said mentioning exactly my father's decision, a hotel would be better, at least we wouldn't be with him all the time and a few days would be good for him to recover.
Finally my mother came out of the bathroom, she looked downcast, weak, she looked as white as the sheets of that hospital and her face denoted the fatigue of years of dedication and care for her work and her family, although she was wearing some makeup I could see her dark circles , they did not disappear despite keeping so many days of sleep, without a doubt mom did not deserve all this.
- Perfect, that means that your father begins to recover, soon we will be able to help mom, and we will return to our home, she said enthusiastically, ignoring that bubble we were entering every day more, it would be difficult to explain everything to her, to make her see the man of all my life as a bad man, a bad businessman, a bad husband, a bad father, even it cost me to accept it, the pretexts imposed on ourselves would not change it, that reality was evident and hell approaching we could not avoid it, although we could try to get out of it, and that would be the purpose of each day, while she was fully restored.
I didn't say anything, I preferred to keep quiet at those times, she was still weak to receive that kind of news, I just nodded, and carried the bag, and a small hand luggage with your work implements, she would be about a month at home, like this that she should take everything with her. We walked until we found the exit of the hospital. Mom lingered for a few minutes saying goodbye to Jane and asking for hers, her little one, after there, I asked for a taxi. In a matter of minutes a small blue car with AG-354 California registration was in front of us, a middle-aged man came down to receive our carry-on bags and gently opened the door to my mother, once inside the car, he introduced himself, His name was Raúl, he had been working in that trade for many years and he knew California like his hands, each place was easy for him to identify, so when we named him the hotel where we would stay, he recognized it immediately and started the car. When the tour ended, I helped my mother get out of the car with our belongings, she tried not to carry any weight, at least for a couple of weeks. We entered the hotel, and registered our arrival, Mom looked at me confused when the receptionist told us that we would occupy the 5th level of the hotel, dad knew that she had to stay on the ground floors, in addition to having an immense fear for being in such high places; Despite that she just smiled, resigning herself once more.
We got to our room and she quickly went into the bathroom, she knew what her address was, her urge to vomit around the place was unmistakable, but she never complained, she attached herself to whatever dad intended for us, even if it affected her emotional stability and your peace.
-Are you okay? I asked after a few minutes of entering the room and putting some order to the suitcases, she did not respond, she was not well I knew, but i expected everything is fine back
- Yes, she shouted from the bathroom, - I will come out in a moment, I want to take a shower, and then I will call your father, surely he has forgotten that I do not like these floors, she said to convince her more than her could convince me to me .
- Of course, I will order some food from the room, you have already spent a long time without eating and I need you to eat better, it is fine for you if I order some pizza and a couple of sodas. I asked quickly, taking the phone on that night table somewhat old and discolored by the years, I had my fingers on the remarking to the hotel service, I was just waiting for an answer from my mother.
-Yes, just don't forget, she spoke and I interrupted her, I knew what her next words would be.
- No mushrooms and please no sandwich on the corners, I know it, I said and she just laughed, I knew her as well as she knew me, we took care of each other whenever she was at home or the days when I used to visit her in the hospital when their shifts were that only shifts and they did not turn full days in that place.
-You know, little one, that's why Mommy loves you, she said, and I felt a sensation inflate my chest, I missed Mommy, and her words
- you take the shower, in a few more minutes they will come and we can eat something, I will go to the terrace to get some air in case you do not find me when you leave the bathroom. I said informing her of my next steps, I was looking forward to sending that email promptly.
she does not mention anything else, I assumed she had received my message, I left quickly, putting on a beach shorts to feel the air brush my legs, the temperature this week had been total hell. I stood right on the railing to observe the whole place, the lights of the city at dusk showed a different face of the city, those rushing cars honking their horns to get home quickly, those women quickly picking up their positions to return with their children , and those pedestrians culminating one more day of their routines. This city totally enveloped me, I never thought I belonged to a place like here, and all that was due to a specific reason.
I took my pants pocket and took out my phone, took the headphones and played Fire on fire by sam smith, I felt the song in my veins, the sensation of those feelings transmitted, and love seeped all doubt in my brain, "You are perfection, my only direction" smiled, everything reminded me of Sofia, my Sofia, how much I wanted to call her mine, those days that passed without knowing about her generated pressure in my chest, I couldn't wait to hear from her, I picked up the phone and I went directly to Gmail, I opened it, and I put her address quickly, I knew that dad had control over my phone but not over the open incognito accounts, I put a message hoping to get one back and I sent it. I kept listening to music for a while longer anxiously awaiting her answer, I was a bit scared, I did not think she would take so long to read it, after all, her classes had ended hours ago, she should be home by now, I wondered what was taking up so much time in these moments.
I picked up the phone and read the message again, I had to close the account quickly, I didn't want to generate any kind of suspicion when Dad came to see us, if him was present.
A smile appeared on my face when I saw a new notification, I had to get a new phone, I couldn't hide that much, I knew that. I am dying to read more messages like that
- "I'm sorry, my hands were full of paint, really excuse me, I hope you can read my message, I've missed you twice as much as your" I miss you ", I'm happy to know that your mother is finally out of the hospital, and well , Miss of the most dazzling sky, I have told you today how much I like it, because if not, I am attaching a small file as proof of my words, I finished reading to review a photo with a new portrait of me, resting on one of the hospital chairs, I did not know about that photo, or drawing, she managed to get me out of all the outside and lock me in that little universe called US.
I would definitely collect all those drawings, Sofia was so unique, so magical, everything next to her would be easier or so I thought. the letters of our destiny are not written by our hands, if so, we could dedicate ourselves a little more happiness, and I asked life for a couple of hundred years by her side. In spite of everything, I knew how difficult it would be to get there. at that point, the hope still harbored in me grew when I received her messages, I had decided, first thing in the day I would go to a store for a new mobile; The dilemma would be in how to keep it hidden, that detail should solve it soon and Mom would be a perfect distraction for it.