Sofia
It had been several hours since I heard Alana say those words, I recognize how surprising it has been for me, but my reaction was not the best, Maybe I should not have thought about it so much, but because I should not doubt her words, it is a bad moment , she needs support and I seem to have come to her aid. Even so I decided to go home, talking to my mother always helped me, I spent all the way home thinking if I did the right thing by leaving her alone, and above all annoyed, I could not forget that expression on her face.
flashback
- You don't have to say anything, I'm sorry if it was too much. She smiled but she knew that she was pretending, I knew it from her eyes, from her expressions, she was so transparent at times. She got up from her chair, and I just limited myself to following her until she got to her mother's room, she turned and looked at me, I still couldn't pronounce a syllable, I didn't know what to say, how to react and if I was honest , she was the girl of my dreams but not every day the girl of your dreams tells you that I likes you, the situation was not the best, I kept repeating that to me, what if she had told me at another time, in A time when your mother wasn't in the hospital? Would I believe her?
- Sofia, you don't have to be with me all day, okay, it was nothing, forget what I said. I just .... and I had to speak, I had to say it now
- I also like you, I just don't want you to confuse your feelings, Alana your mother is serious and I have been here for you, understand it is not fair to me, if you tell me this, right now. and then I understood I should have shut up, her face changed to a totally serious one, as when you know silence is the best option
- You know Sofia, you are right, I am confusing my feelings, because the girl I like, who has attracted my attention for years would not be behaving like a fool right now, I understand that you did not say anything, I even understand if I am indifferent to you, but no the fact of doubting what I have said.
-Alana, I ...
-No, just go, I need to be with my mother, thanks for everything, tell your mother that I was pleased to see her.
I knocked on the door four times until my mother leaned out the window that overlooked the street to make sure who it was.
- You have returned very soon, and from the face that you bring, I will guess, you have been the most intelligent girl in the world, just like your father.
- I can pass?
- It's your house, go ahead, I'll go for chocolate
-Then let me understand, the girl you write to every Friday, for whom you destroy my garden, has told you that she likes you, and you have simply blurted out, "It's not a good time, I don't want you to get confused."
the look of my mother if It managed to make me feel stupid, and i was, but I had my doubts I could not do anything with it
-Mom, do you know that she has a boyfriend or well she had, I don't know, besides she has ignored me for many years it has been a few weeks suddenly I am visible, do you understand? , I am absolutely right not to believe her words, I did not even want the situation with her mother to become an awkward moment
- Maybe, she does look at you, maybe she has done it all these years, and about Rigoberto, well that you should talk to her, you also said that she told you about that agreement between her father and Rigoberto's father, so no there are excuses, you have been very silly daughter. I take her cup of chocolate and bring it to her mouth, while I held mine in my hands, watching it and listening to my mother's every word, and if she was right, if I had been a total idiot.
- Well, leave that mind calm for a while, and better tell me what you plan to do, I don't think you want to tell her about the letters and the flowers now, but you can continue there, you shouldn't even have come home, she needs you there, and you preferred come running because you cowed
-I know, I'll go for clothes, and I'll come back, mom, I don't know if I've acted well, but Alana has many facets and I just want to know all of them, I don't want you to think that it was something from adolescence, I'm sure just like Dad did. she was with you, I see my life next to her or at least the time she gives me.
she approached me, and hugged me. I loved my mother's pampering, it transported me to the moments when I was just a little girl and my wounds were healed with some medicine or just applying cures, but now Mom knew, a heart wandering between two worlds was not good.
- Go, take some flowers, try to fix it, you will be fine, you will know what to say and this time, you will not move from there, your father has left a provisional credit card, he wants you to use it now if you need to use more money, he does not want you to spend your grandparents money.
-Thank you are the best, really yes, I let go of her arms and got up from the sofa.
-Mom, has dad gone to talk to Sofia's father about society?
-Yes, he has said that he does not need help, he has bothered daughter, I'm really sorry.
-Don't worry, I didn't expect something better from him, now I'm just worried that it will happen with Alana, I'll go get something to eat at Rita's restaurant and return to the hospital.
I said goodbye to my mother, and went up to my room, took my purse, my laptop, some coats, and went to go to Alana's favorite restaurant, and if I knew, I knew so much about her but at the same time I was still a stranger , a stranger who wanted to know even the deepest recesses of her soul