His eyes pierce me as he waited patiently for my answer yet words refuse to leave my lips, dreading his reaction. There was a lot I kept from him, somehow hoping I'll never have to give light to most of them. As he neared, the dam broke allowing the water works to begin.
"Ashlin" Layton pushed Cleus aside, embracing me, "It's alright, you're safe" he whispered rubbing my back in a comforting manner.
Lucan asked everyone to leave and when they did, he did not pester me for answers instead held me tightly in his arms. He was hardly made of ice and stone but whenever my feet are too weak to stand on he's there to ensure me, that I'll make it through this journey. We fell asleep there, in each other's embrace as though we weren't defying universal rules.
I spent my entire day since eyes opened, searching through various library and many books trying to find all the knowledge about 'chaos children'. There was barely anything written and, what I did find, they were vague and barely comprehensible. In the depths of despair I made my way to Lucan and unleashed by frustration on him.
"Calm down, Ash" he had me pinned to the door of his office, "Are you calm, now?" I nod eagerly.
"So..... do you know anything about Chaos children?" I gave him, my most innocent smile.
"Yes but, why do you need to know?" he raised a questioning eyebrow walking away.
"Please tell me and I will give you, my reason after" he gave a humorless chuckle, "Please"
"They are siblings of God, they are the only ones with strength and power on par with his; Chaos children are born from God involvement in war. Many have said they are an embodiment of nature, the universe, a star long grinded to dust.... they are the voice of that which has stayed silent for billions of years while they were ripped apart and told to bring disaster then relief..... how tiring they must be. Chaos children are born with such capabilities in order to bring balance to a cosmos littered with war" it was a lot to absorb at once.
"I met someone who said.... I was born a Chaos child" Lucan pulled me against his chest.
"That's fine"
"No, it's not" I argued
"Why?" he smile looking at me.
"B-b-because....." I tried to find my earlier reason but my mind went blank every time he starred at me.
"Can't find one, can you?" his velvet chuckle placed me in a daze.
Cleus walked in before turn around upon seeing us but Layton wasn't so courteous as he entered and made himself comfortable. Lucan sat me beside him as they talked about many things none were interesting enough to pay attention. My eyes began drifting close as they caught a small spec of light flying in from the open window. It lingered at the center of Lucan's office, slowly growing before three Angels replaced it. Lucan was already standing in front of me shielding me from their gaze.
"We've come for Archangel Ashlin" one spoke with a condemning glare at the twins, "Princess, you are asked to return if you don't comply we'll ha-"
"You'll drag me back to somewhere that preaches honesty and loyalty but all you all have ever done is hide the truth about where I come from........ but I know there is far from where i belong" they looked at me as though i had gone insane, "I rather be in Hell if all I get is lies in heaven" my voice was angry and venomous.
They had the audacity to come for me, when behind my back they snickered at my birth, condemn my existence, why? Because anyone with power replicating 'his' must be evil, only he had the ability and everything misunderstood was a threat. In heaven I felt how wary they were, of me; each time I left for Earth they dreaded my return because I was one of the few 'easily corrupted'. Why must we stay in this box built around us? Who decided Angel's were all good? Who decided demons were all bad? Why is light good and darkness bad, it's in the dark your fears are hidden from sight? Who decided what should and shouldn't be?
Why is everything background music to a play, act out in the shadows and only the result would be seen? We follow rules set but nothing is enough; a human once asked if we are made in God's likeness doesn't that means we get both sides from him, good and bad. It was hard to answer, we've been taught Evil can't exist without good and vice versa yet at the beginning of time all that existed was him. I've always wondered if title of devil was a job doesn't it means you still work for him? Angel had so much knowledge not to question intentions but history passed down through gossip.
"Are you alright?" Layton stood beside me in the park, "Isnt it disrespectful for a princess to walk out on her subjects?" he joked.
"I guess you guys are rubbing off on me" he chuckled fondly.
"I know I've been an ass and literally, the devil but I'm happy you came to Hell, you came to us" strong arms pulled me into a tight hug.
"You're killing me" I coughed out unable to breathe
"Sorry" he loosen his grip and I thanked him graciously.
Lucan had witness our exchange and wasn't happy, pulling us apart and dragging me back to his office. I was trapped as he locked the door and I knew no one dare to enter here. My heart sped up as he closed the inches between us, I melted in his kiss allowing him to steal the air from my lungs. My mind was a mess unable to focus on anything but his lips, his touch; fingers traced the curves of my body without hesitation or guilt.