MJ's POV
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"Best, are you okay?" Carla asked me. I shook my head.
"I don't know if I'm okay or not." I simply said.
"Bakla, wala pa mang nakikitang bangkay diba? So may possibility na buhay si Louie. Na nakaligtas siya" Ben said. I sighed.
"Hindi ko na alam kung anong iisipin ko ngayon. I called tita kaninang umaga, ang sabi niya lang wala pa rin daw natatagpuang bangkay." Ang sabi ko, pero biglang tumunog ang cellphone ko at nakita ko si Tita ang tumatawag.
"Oh best, si Tita ang tumatawag, hindi mo ba sasagutin?" Carla asked me.. Bago ko sagutin yung tawag ni Tita, I gathered so much strength and prayed to God.
'Lord, what ever that may be, please prepare my heart.'
I sighed heavily and hit the answer button.
"T-tita?" I said.
I heard her sighed at naririnig ko ring may umiiyak sa background ni Tita. Mukhang alam ko na ang sasabihin ni Tita pero sana mali ako. Sana mali ako ng hinala. Sana... Sana hindi totoo ang lahat nang ito.
"The rescue team found a cadaver. Burned and unidentified, but what makes us identify that cadaver is the necklace he's wearing..." Tita paused and it feels like I'm breathless.
"And... what are you trying so say now, Tita?" My voice cracked as I'm trying to hold my tears though I'm emotional already.
"It's confirmed..... Louie's....
Dead." She said and began to cry. Hindi agad pumasok sa utak ko yung sinabi ni Tita.
"I'm sorry, MJ. I'm so sorry." That's the last words I heard from Tita before she ended the call.
'Louie's dead.'
'Louie's dead.'
Those words echoing on my mind.
"Best? Anong sabi ni Tita?" Carla asked me.
"Oo nga bakla, ano na?" Ben.
I stared at him and with that, biglang pumatak ang mga luha ko. No--- Hagulgol is the right term.
"Best...." Carla said while hugging me.
"Bakla...."
"NO.... WHY'D HE LEAVE ME?! WHY?!!" I said.
"Hush, we're just here for you best. Iiyak mo lang yan." Sabi ni Carla. Umiyak lang ako ng umiyak doon.
Pinauwi na ako ng Lecturer namin, hinatid ako nina Ben at Carla sa bahay, alam na rin nila mama at papa ang nangyari since nagtanong si mama kunh anong nangyari saakin. Niyakap lang nila ako, but I remained emotionless.
"Best, sure ka ba talaga na ayos ka lang dito? Baka gusto mo ng kaibigan if hindi ka pa ready na iopen up ito kila Tita. We can stay here with you the whole night if you want. " Carla suggested.
"Oo nga bakla. Pwede kami dito magstay, ayos lang naman kila mama at papa eh." Ben added.
I shook my head and asked them to leave. At first they didn't want to, but they left no choice.
"Sige best, if gusto mo ng kausap, one call away lang ako. Basta sabihan mo ko ah? Or kami ni Ben." She said. Tumango lang ako and with that, nagpaalam na sila.
I left here alone. He left me here alone. He said he'll comeback, supposed to be, tomorrow will be our 1st anniversary, pero bakit nagkagaganito ngayon?
May galit ba saakin ang tadhana? Naging masamang tao ba ako? Am I destined to live like this? Yung pasasayahin lang ako, pero in the end, iiwanan rin..
You promised, Love! You promised me that you'll never leave me here! But.... but..... bakit ka nawala?!
Biglang nanginig ang katawan ko. Ang mga tuhod ko, at kasabay non ay ang mainit na likidong dumadampi sa mga pisngi ko. I hugged my legs and hide my face there. I cried because by crying, I can release the sadness and the hurt I've felt. But not totally the pain.
Because pain is very difficult to bear.
It will take you time to heal it.
To mend your broken heart.
That I become numb and torpid.
The thing where I can feel the so much pain right now,
is...
my heart.