Jungkookie was being VERY persistent about going to his bedroom, at this point I didn't want to. I just wanted to tell him the truth, but he didn't even give me a chance. Just immediately attacking me with wet sloppy kisses, it felt amazing, but the guilt made me want to throw up.
Especially since I was enjoying it this much, he was so good with his lips, he asked me permission to continue strangely, I wanted so badly to tell him no but I just couldn't. I was so aroused already, I sighed and told him yes. Which he didn't seem too convinced by but I just told him I needed time, hopefully he'd get the hint early and not be so hurt later on...
After we were finished, I left to go back to my bedroom and check on douyanlie, he seemed happy enough. A few hours later Namjoon came knocking on my which immediately sent me into a frenzy of panic, "You awake still?" He asked threw the closed door, I for some reason rushed to open it for him when I really should've just ignored it.
He immediately flashed me a kind smile, "I wanted to see how douyanlie was doing." I nodded a bit disappointed that he just wanted that, but nonetheless let him in, douyanlie was playing around with the bedsheets.
Namjoon smiled and went to say hello, petting him and playing around for a little bit, he didn't pay much attention to me so I just ended up sitting on the couch and reading. Once in a while I heard him speaking with douyanlie, saying things like, "I'm sorry for not liking you at first." And, "Do you like my hands? Don't bite too hard.." at that I looked up from my harry potter book and saw douyanlie nibbling at his hands then running around the bed just to come back and nibble again.
I got a teeny tiny bit involved with the book and completely blacked out for like two hours reading, eventually I looked up after hearing some soft snoring. I saw that Namjoon had fallen asleep on my bed with douyanlie cuddling on his chest, I smiled softly and went to cover him with some blankets. Softly kissing douyanlie on his head then simply going back to the couch to continue reading and slowly started to doze off as well.
The next morning I was woken up by Namjoons gently shaking me awake, I could see a wonderfully kind smile, "Hey... Why did you sleep on the couch?... You could've woken me.." he spoke in a soft and sweet voice, I smiled back at him sleepily, "You looked so cute sleeping with douyanlie.... How could I wake you?" I giggled slightly while sitting up, I could feel my hair was a mess and my eyes were puffy.
Namjoon kept staring at me as if in aw until douyanlie came onto his lap disturbing us, screaming and jumping around. I guess Yoongi was right, he wasn't injured after all. He just liked us and wanted to get our attention.
I smiled petting him, "How'd you sleep little one?" I asked, and he continued screaming rolling around on his back, I realized he was trying to show me his stomach which reminded me to get him something to eat, luckily there was still some carrots left over from yesterday in the mini fridge so I gave it to him and he happily ate it.
After playing a little more with him and Namjoon I suddenly heard Jungkook yelling from the hallway and faster then light shoved Namjoon into the closet. Which I quickly regretted as Jungkook attacked me with kisses, forcing me down on the couch and pinning me down.
When I tell I was shocked, I WAS SHOCKED. For some reason he couldn't hold it in? He literally just started peeing on me for no apparent reason then jerked himself off.
Wanting to get this over with as fast as possible knowing Namjoon is still locked in the closet probably watching the whole thing with douyanlie I managed to get Jungkook into the bathroom to shower. Giving Namjoon time to escape, I could hear the closet door opening and soon the door shutting but luckily in the mist of jungkooks embarrassment he hadn't noticed.
I laughed at him slightly trying to act as normal as possible, I ended up making him give me a blowjob which was nice but I still felt wrong. I knew I had to tell him the truth but he makes it so difficult.
While he was sucking me off I noticed he was purposely making himself choke and immediately got shy, smacking him and running away. I could hear him come out after about half an hour but he only chuckled and left.
Feeling bad about making Namjoon hide in a closet I texted him to come back with douyanlie.
I looked at him ashamed, and immediately started avoiding eye contact as he handed douyanlie to me, I blushed intensely, but after a good long two minutes of awkward silence Namjoon literally bursted into laughter.
"Does he always do that?!" He literally couldn't control his laughter, it was good to know he wasnt mad or disgusted but the laughing was a bit much....
I looked away blushing even harder, eventually calmed himself down and clarified that he wasn't upset, just shocked and also expressed how we weren't doing anything wrong, and that he hadn't understood the reason why I felt the need to hide him when we were simply hanging out together. I told him that I wasn't sure what Jungkook would think about it and he understood but still thought that I should've been honest instead.
We had a bit more of a conversation that's not really worth mentioning, Namjoon left after a bit and the next morning came back again, and once again douyanlie was screaming and rolling around on his back, "I probably should've brought carrots..." Namjoon said clearly annoyed with himself for not thinking about that, I laughed at him and said I'd quickly go get some carrots, when I came back I barely had enough time to feed douyanlie before I had to stuff Namjoon back into the closet. So much for being honest huh?
I tried to get Jungkook to go somewhere else with me but he was insisting on staying here, for some reason he wanted to bring up our relationship again? I tried to get him out of here for that not wanting poor Namjoon to listen threw all of our relationship problems and probably another real life porno.
Jungkook unfortunately realized what was happening, he was probably too aroused yesterday to realize anything. He seemed hurt and probably greatly misunderstood what was going on, but seeing nothing else to do I just let him misunderstand as I thought he would get the hint better.
He stormed out of the room, and Namjoon seemed a bit upset with me, "I told you to tell him the truth, and now look at what you've done."
"It's the only way I can possibly think of Namjoon.... I don't want to hurt him, but I can't keep lying..." I tried stop making excuses looking down at the ground, the pure guilt making tears well up in my eyes, Namjoon didn't say anything and simply left probably to go after Jungkook and explain. Leaving me to feel hopeless and simply cry not knowing what else to do.
After a few hours I decided to go find Jungkook to tell him the truth myself, I checked his room, Namjoons, Taehyungs hobis. He was nowhere to be found so I decided to go down to the lobby to see if he's there.
All I saw was Taehyung yelling at him, it seems that Jungkook left the hotel even though knew he wasnt allowed. I decided to not get involved and let Taehyung scold him first so he would have to listen and not have an excuse out of it. But instead of being yelled at he suddenly collapsed onto the floor holding onto Taehyung tightly.... He was sobbing...
I started to realize the mistake I made as I heard him yelling, "It fucking hurts!" While desperately holding taehyung.
I really fucked up didn't I? For him to be sobbing in tae's arms.... I don't think I've ever seen him show any kind weakness in front of Taehyung, and now I hurt him so bad that he was crying in his arms....
What did I do...