I'm not good at being formal
I'm not good at saying good byes
I'm on a flight back to Sydney
With my mothers ashes
I'm holding her so close to my body
I feel a hand lock with mine
God how did I get so lucky to have such a beautiful girl
With such an amazing soul
We land
And the person I was dreading to see walks up to me
He carefully puts mums ashes in the back seat
And for first time since I was ten he wrapped his arms around me
I feel the burn in my eyes and I know he is crying to
"Papo this is Star Diaz"
My Papo doesn't give any second chances he hugs her
"It is such a pleasure to meet such a beautiful young lady"
Star is blushing
"I'm so glad you came
I don't know how I would get through this with out you" I whisper in Stars ear
My Papo instructs is to get in the car
We show up at his house
My dick of a father is waiting
My Papo gives him a look
And man did I wish to see it
Cause my dad walked so fast inside
With his tail between his legs
My Papo walks inside and he starts yelling
"My grand daughter and her beautiful ladie is home" I excepted my cousins to be rude or have their comments
But they walk up and hug me
I received kisses from aunts and uncles
I was no longer the gay sin I guess
Or they have missed us so much
Cheryl and Dav are here
And before either hug me
"This is my Star"
I look at her
And I'm still in shock that this beautiful creature
Is mine.
She smiles shakes hands
Tucks her hair behind her ear
She is smiling
Listening
Her soul is beaming
And whatever higher being
That placed her on this earth I am so glad they did
My Papo grabs me aside
That's a fine honey of jam right there
I giggles in agreement
" look Ash we need to discuss living arrangements"
I New this was coming
I'm only 17 and won't turn 18 till May
"Papo I can't leave the states it's my home"
He looks at me with a heart breaking face
"I want you to know if I could keep you across seas I would but I don't have the money and you won't receive the money your mum saved you till your 18
I feel my heart ripping
I look at him with sad eyes
Not only cause I have lostd my mum
But because I am about to lose the one good thing in my life
I walk steady to her
And the look on my face gives me away
Her smile is erased
As I grab her hand and lead her upstairs to my old room here.