I walk into class
When I notice a tattoo
I notice a few more
All of a sudden the pompadour hair and her green eyes
She won't look my way
She won't even glance this way
Does she not notice me
Does she not see me
I walk out of class when Chance comes and kiss me
I met him my end of senior year
A new student
From the south
We both applied for Yale
And both got in
The night we laid watching the stars
I climb on top of him showing him I want him
The thing about Chance is he is transgender
So we have sex a lot
But I don't get pregnant
And he is gentle and loving
But I hate cuddling
His arms are to big
His body heat is too much
And he takes up half my bed
I'm trying to get an arousal out this and he is but I can't I fake it
Tell him I'm going to shower
I walk in and I can hear someone breathing hard I walk quietly and quickly to the other side of the showers
I turn it on and the breathing this person is doing is making me wet
It sounds almost like Ash
But more of a quit Ash
I start to touch myself I'm on the floor when I finally cum so hard
I haven't done that since Ash
God why did we have to come to the same school
Why does she have to be here
Of all places why this one
Finally it's the middle of the semester in my class and Ash has ignored me this whole time
And I know she knows I'm in this class
Cause she will never glance in my direction she even changed her whole seat
I'm annoyed
Finally the teacher is picking
Partners for a life save routines
And poking each other with needles
Julie and Matt
Bill and Hank
The names go on and on
Then she finally calls my name
Star and Ash
You have to fucking be kidding me
Really
Out of the people in class she put us together
The universe is so mocking me right now
She climbs into the seat next to me and she still wearing her same scent
Calvin Klein
My heart races but I take a deep breath
The instructor is talking about placing our hands on our partner
And where we are to touch them
I had to keep breathing
Me and Ash hardly spoke
Until we had to poke on another
You have to find the perfect vein
My hand is running over the new rose bush on her arm
"Earth to Star just poke me already"
"Do you want me to hurt you or get it right"
" I don't think your soft finger running of my ink is going to get us anywhere just poke me"
And I do just that
The instructor comes over says great job
Now your partners turn