I know she sees the band on my finger
But I'm not going to let her act like I exist now
Like I am some importance to her life all of a sudden
I know she is thinking I'm engaged
And I know she has million questions
She has that dumb look on her face
She wants to know
But she doesn't ask
She just assuming In that head of hers
So I let her sit there in pity
As we are finalizing the last bit of our project
I get my stuff together
See you in class on Friday
"What's wrong Star"
I looked at Ash and walked away.
We had our finals in the class
I texted ash a couple times over the break
Breaking my heart each time
I finally ran into her at a store
She walked up and said, "hello"
I was stunned but kept my cool.
I looked at Ash with a cold look and walked away.
Ash said, " oh yeah you can say hi. You can text me but now that we are in person
you can't do nothing.
My heart is ripping in two
I look Ash dead in the eye
tears in eyes.
keep pretending I don't exist.
It looks a hell of a lot better on you then me.
And i walked away leaving Ash standing in disbelief
Everything in me is falling apart I get in my car
I see Anna in the parking lot
And she sees ash calling my name
There yelling
But I don't care
I don't want to feel this way anymore
When I get back to my dorm
Chance is sitting on my bed
Why didn't you tell me
My diary is in his hand
You read my diary
My secrets
" yeah cause you wouldn't talk to me anymore"
I had my reasons Chance
"Did you cheat on me"
No Chance I didn't
I walked every time I had that urge
I got my self together and came home to you
Chance has this weird look on his face
He looks behind me
Ash what in the hell are you doing here
Chance walks towards Ash I get between them
And if there was any choice I made bad it was this one
Chances arm wraps around me
And before I know it I am flung
Into both the edge of my bed and the wall
This pain comes rushing up my spine
My toes are tingly
I'm feeling super nauseous
Ash grabs my hand
Everything we learned this semester she is walking through
Chance is yelling for help
He runs out the door
That was the last time I saw Chance
Before everything went black
I wake up I'm feeling super sick
And for the oddest moment in my life I can hear Zoe
"Hey pretty girl take care of my girl
She will be lost without you by her side"
I woke up to saying don't go yet Zoe
And then I hear
Ashes voice
My mum is talking to you
Please wake up Star
Please wake up
And just like that everything is black
I can hear voices coming and going
I can hear shuffling feet
I can feel her hand tightening
I can hear her cries
"Baby dill please come back to please don't leave me here all alone
I can't live with out you
My eyes open
And there is the best sight of life
Ash is holding my hand
She looks like she hasn't slept for weeks
She looks like she is still wearing same clothes from that night
How long have a been out
For two weeks
But you came back to me
My mum made sure of it
You kept calling her name
I held on to you