She places her arm out
She has a tattoo on her forearm
It's Rafiki
I tie the lace above her elbow and her deep brown eyes meet mine
She looks away
My hand is starting to rub her arm
Her skin is soft and my heart is racing
My butterflies are flying
I can feel her heart racing
"Ash you have to poke me too
So just do it already"
I didn't realize my hand wasn't at her veins it was going over her forearm to her hand
I was enjoying the skin contact
I poked her vein
She clenched her teeth
Called over the instructor
We take each other Ivy's out
She stands up and walks away she gathers her things and heads out of class I'm trying to catch up
When Annalise is waiting with Chinese food
And some coffee
I walk up to her and kiss her on the lips
As I glance over to see that asshole putting his hand on my Star
Shut up
She isn't yours any more we walk away from each other
Three weeks of not talking again
And instructor once again pairs me and Star together
This time it's an out of class project
I don't know if I'm supposed to be super excited or super nervous
As she is collecting her stuff I notice she looks different
Hair cut I ask stupidly
" yeah it was time for change"
It looks amazing on you
I can feel my cheeks gettin hot
"Thank you"
Her smell of coconut is still there
But her spray is different I don't know it it smells like cookies or something else but I'm enjoying it
It suits her warm soul
I finally find the courage to ask for her number
" you know just so we have contact for our project"
"Of course"
I have her number once again
And everything is feeling a little lighter
Till I have to tell Anna that I have to meet with a classmate for school
She meets Star
And basically tells me to only be classmates
She doesn't like the way we look at each other
And we get to close
I get upset with Anna
But I know what she is seeing so I agree
We go out to the movies
I see Star
And I ignore her
We then see her at the store I ignore her
I did this up until we had to have a meeting for our last project update
We decided to treat lung cancer as a whole not just one lung
We work so well together
She asks if we can meet at barns&noble
It's her favorite place to be
I'm sure she is reading a newly updated of Alice in wonderland
She loves that book as much as I do
A place of unknown
No rules and courage to be yourself
Adventure with the heart
And walks doing things to see cause and effect
We loved this book so much together
I still have the hard copy that has her notes and mine in them
Our favorite parts
The story line we adore
So much in one little book
That described our adventure as a whole person
I show up 30 minutes early
Early enough to watch that dick drop her off
And it doesn't take long to notice a band
A fucking engagement band on her finger
I calm my fucking tits
"Hey Star so glad to see you"
"Uh huh can we get this over with please"
Something is wrong
I don't know what it is
But it doesn't feel right
Is she pregnant