Ash is explaining to me
All the things
The arrangements we will make for visits
For the holiday plans
For all this stuff
I'm crying
I don't want to live this far from each other
I don't want to have to say good bye
I wish her mum was never on the road
I wish that semi never flipped
I wish she was still here
My world is starting to separate
And I'm not ready to let go
Ash hugs me
"Don't cry yet baby doll
We still have a whole week together
And we will make it the best damn week"
And it was after the funeral she took me to the bay to see the ocean and the Stars
I saw jelly fish glow
And the ring of Sydney
I ate amazing gelato
And all different kinds of dishes
She made love to me every night
Washed my body in the shower
She would rub lotion on my body
She treated me like a princess
And when it was time to get my bags ready to leave
She hugged me so tight at the air port
She looked in my eye
"In all my life I would have never thought of a love so grand that God himself would send me a Star as beautiful as you
I love you so much Star Rosemay Diaz"
"I love you so much Ash Marie Simmons"
I gave her one last hug and boarded the flight
I put my head phones in
She made me a play list
And the first song to come on is
Marianas trench beside you
Text to Ash:
And if your heart wears thin
I will hold you up
And I will hide you
When it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
When you're overwhelmed
And you've lost your breath
And the space between the things you know is blurring nonetheless
When you try to speak
But you make no sound
And the words you want are out of reach
But they've never been so loud
I'll be there
I send the message with out re thinking it
Because I love her with ever beat in my heart
And I don't know how we will survive
But I hope to God we survive.