It's a start of a new year
I have my beautiful girl on my side
And damn is she looking as beautiful as ever
She is walking towards my car and all I feel is loved
I keep telling her I love her
She hasn't said it back
But I know she loves me
The way she holds my hand
The way her hand traces over my tattoos on my chest
My neck
My abs
Her hands so soft
And all I can feel is her love
But why won't she say it back
"Hey hot stuff
How do I look for senior year"
She is in black shorts knee high socks
A stitch t-shirt
And some black suspenders
"As beautiful as ever"
All I want to see is her out of these clothes
But the way these clothes hug her hips
Have me aching
Her first class is science
I walk her to class
And I kiss her in front of everyone
She blushes
I turn to run into Kendrick
He has this smug look on his stupid face
"What do you want"
"I don't know ya dumb dyke" he says so stupid
I look at him and walk right past him
He grabs my bag and slams me against the wall
"I'm not scared of you
You low and pathetic little boy
Your mad bro cause I landed the girl of your dreams and guess what she is mine"
"Get over it and get over your self you can have that ugly hoe"
Just as I was about to turn around and make Kendrick eat his fucking teeth
A teacher
Mrs. K walks by
"Get to class
And Kendrick
I hear you speak about a women like that I'll have you benched for the rest of the season"
She smiles at me
And I give her a wink
I'm walking to class when my phone goes off
Some weird number is calling I ignore it and walk into class
I wasn't in class but for only five minutes when I'm getting called to the principals office
They have me walk into the room
I always feel uneasy in this kind of setting
Ms. Simmons
There has been an accident
My heart is racing I can't think straight
I'm hearing these words
But it's like nothing is coming out
My eyes are burning
I'm running to my car
When someone is running after me
She grabs the car keys
There is nothing but silence
We get to the hospital
I'm running in
We're looking for Zoe Simmons
Please Zoe Simmons
She is my mother
She is in surgery right now
I'm pacing the room
I can't ignore this ache in my heart
And just like that she asks so sweetly
"Ash let me hug you"
I look at Star for the first time and I wrap my arms around her so tightly
I'm feeling my world crumble
I can't breath
Then the Dr comes out
And the air I was holding is released