The holidays come and go
And with everything I have tried to get Star
To talk to me
she won't
She even changed her science class
And I hardly see her
Of course she is hanging out with Vic
And Kendrick
I'm so happy when Christmas comes and goes
And New Years comes and past
Me and mum went back to Sydney for a week
And I visited old friends
A grave of a girl I still truly love in my heart
And all I did was cry like a little bitch and tell her I'm so sorry
I'm a fuck up
And she deserved so much then what I could offer her
I didn't realize that her parents came to the grave
Her mum cried with me
"It wasn't your fault Sweety I am so sorry the cops found you and thought you killed her
But we New for a long time she wasn't okay
And you were the glimpse of hope in her eyes
Although you didn't know how to love her she still loved you so much" her mum hands me a purple journal.
"Everything you need to know is right in there
Everything she felt and cared about was in here"
Her mum walks away and she is accompanied by her husband
I'm holding the book on the flight back home I haven't opened not even when I got back home. Finally there is a game and my new friend Legus
Asked me to join him
And just like that I put the book down
I get ready to looks fine as hell
Because I'm going to show Star what she is missing
I walk up the bleachers
I can see her in her cheer outfit
And she looks banging
She is smiling so beautiful even when I catch her eye
But she looks away fast
She finally looks at me again
But her eyes meet some other dudes face
He kisses her
He kisses my fucking Star
And I can feel heated
But I finally get my shit together watch the rest of the game I leave in a hurry that Legus said let's go smoke and drink
Party back at my house
I follow
Didn't even realize
Star was trying to call out my name
But I was so pissed that when I finally heard her say my name I gave her a look
That just said back the fuck away
I get in my car from my aunty over Christmas break
It's a 1967 Camero
Owned by my uncle
Who we lost over thanksgiving time
I show up at Legus house
And I grab a beer
People start rolling in
I'm half a bottle of vodka and three beers in
When a sweet voice says
"Maybe you should slow down"
I turn around and there she is
As beautiful as a sunset
"Please go away Star I can't handle you being this close. Go kiss you New founded love."
"His name is Mathew"
"I don't give a shit what his name is please Star just walk away"
"Fine don't care it fits you well"
I want to turn around I want to tell her I'm drinking because she is breaking me
My heart is fucking breaking
But what I do next really just fucks shit up.