Aug14/93 11:57pm
Okay, my night was a total let down.
We went all downtown and walked around cause we couldn't get in to 'Jason Goes to Hell'. It's rated R but we had a plan to get in but it didn't work.
So we went to Fast Eddies arcade instead. I love that place, it's full of all these old video games and there are always so many babes there. But holy fuck, guess who was there with his girlfriend?! Trevor! Like, what is the universe trying to tell me? He is just popping up out of nowhere again and when I haven't seen him in over a year, maybe 2. I don't get it.
But get this, he didn't even say hi to me. Well I can't blame him, he was with who I assume was his girlfriend who is also this gorgeous and totally buff black girl and by the looks of it she could probably kick my ass in two seconds. But what totally sucks is, I know he saw me. He looked over at me a couple times and we made eye contact and he did sorta look very uncomfortable. It was almost as if I could tell that he was hoping I wouldn't come over there and say anything because my life depended on it. So he probably won't call me anymore cause if I were him I would feel so beat.
He looked frickin so cute though. Ugh! What is it about that skater hip hop look that is so goddamn irresistible. And his big blue eyes and dark hair. Ugh!
God maybe I'll call him and be like "what the fuck?" and cuss him out for even calling me and getting my hopes up. Frick, maybe I'm crazy and he just called as a friend to say hi because he said he was going to. But what if that's not it at all. What if, like me, he still thinks we didn't get our chance to be great, to really fall in love instead of having one of those quick highschool crushes that crashes and burns as quickly as it started. I don't want to let him slip through my fingers this time okay. It's my mission to get him. Just look at Marie, she succeeded with Luke. Luke was all about his girlfriend when we first starting hanging with them, and now he and Marie are in love instead. It's possible that could happen for me too, right??
God man Life is So Fuckin Complicated.
Until Later