Sept 2/93
Ok, so it's been a couple of weeks. I just haven't felt like writing much. I have been getting out of the house more and going to Marie's a lot. I even went to the camp with my parents last weekend just to get some beach time. But fuck man, don't even ask what the fuck the last few shitty pages were about. Trevor can kiss my ass. I don't know what I was thinking. Probably that stage I go through a lot. Um..... LONELINESS OR DESPERATION, in this case, both included. Yeah, he didn't even call me back, like ever again. No messages, nothing. I don't maybe he was embarrassed that he called me so wasted, or maybe his girlfriend is on his ass about talking to other girls. Whatever, I'm over it. I've been having a better time with things lately and I'm done reminiscing about how things could have been.
But I had to pop in because last night was the Crawl show! There were so many people there! I had my hair all crimped, but not from one of those weird crimpers, I put my hair in all these little braids the night before and then waiting til before the show to take them out. I thought it looked really cool! I wore my black and white plaid shirt and my black cutoffs with my burgundy 8hole docs. I was feeling quite the rocker chick.
Crawl headlined the show and Yamcat and Honeybone opened up for them. Crawl and Yamcat were excellent. Honeybone was a bunch of wankers. Yamcat played Rage Against the Machine and Beastie Boys as their cover tunes so everybody loved it so much. We were all jamming.
Crawl played their own set but one song and I didn't recognize it, but it was still good.
Steve (Crawl's singer) pulled me up into the middle of the dance floor and made me stay there, it was fun actually. Everyone got up and danced or moshed after that.
When the show was over we talked to the Yamcat singer for like an hour. He was drunk, but so sweet. I noticed him staring at me quite a bit afterward when we were sitting over by the pool tables and he was still over with his friends. Or maybe I was staring at him and he was catching me!! Haha. Either way, I was glad because he was so hot!! But I always get that nervous feeling when meeting someone new, and we couldn't drink because we were underage so yeah I felt a bit young there. We obviously couldn't stay out til the bar closed, cause like my dad would shit. So we left around midnight. We went and said goodbye to everyone and when I said it to him, he shook my hand and stared at me with one of those "hey baby" kinda looks. I had a hard-on! Ha, yes I know I'm a girl. But shit, if I were a few years older I would just let him have his way with me!! But Toronto is his homeland and mine is this shit hole. So hopefully we will meet again some other day.
5 MORE DAYS UNTIL SCHOOL STARTS! Grade 11. I have no supplies, Jesus Christ I am not going strong.
Jeff from Yamcat rules and I love Chris Murphy.
Until Later