October 20/93
It's Wednesday, I figured I'd keep you up to date. Gaven is fine. We talk but that's about it. I still like him but I'm just killing myself over him. It's no use! He's just a super friendly and great guy and I don't think he likes me in any other way but friends. Oh well.
I have a confession, two actually. Last weekend my parents went away and I went to again bush party and I got drunk. Not totally pissed drunk, but almost.
Sal, the little Italian dude, asked me out! Yuck! Sorry, but he reminds me of Alvin from Alvin and the Chipmunks.
Then I was all over Gaven, thank god I was drunk! But other than that I had a great time. It reminded me of some of the times we spent at the Pit last year.
The Pit is just like part of this ditch or property out next to the tracks behind the mall, we would party there a lot in grade 10. One time Marie ripped her pants climbing over the fence away from the cops trying to bust us. Yeah, we don't go there as much this year. I don't go anywhere all that much this year but I'm trying to get back into the swing of things and have fun.
Saturday we went to this cool fashion show. Oh second confession. Remember Ray? I'm becoming attracted to him again. He's been going out with Linda for like 6 months now and we only went steady for a few weeks in grade nine, before I broke it off with him cause of Jesse and my raging hormones.
But Ray liked me again I think later that year and in grade 10. I never went back out with him though, I think a lot of it was cause I was so wrapped up in all that shit with Jesse. But fuck him, he is totally out of the picture this year. And Ray is Ray, he's like the best guy friend I have ever had. And he's still my friend even though I dumped him. He's just always around, everywhere. I don't know, I don't think it's jealousy, please, him and Linda started going out like, 10 years ago and these feelings for him just started a couple days ago. I dunno, like instead of him just coming up and saying hey and it being like, whatever, now I get all butterflies in my stomach and I watch his mouth and his eyes and I'm just like, yum. Oh well, it won't last. Nothing ever does.
Until Later
(I'm listening to The Doors right now, holy grade nine flashback, I still love them so! JIM LIVES)
RAY AHHH!