November 20
Tonite we all went to Linda's cause her sister Rochelle was having a party. It was such a bad idea. But Linda wasn't there. But I wanted to go because I knew Ray was going and he was the one that told me we should go. So me and Jolene and Marie went together.
At first I thought things were going okay with Ray cause he was all stoned and he asked someone to move over so he could sit next to me. We talked for a little while when we were hanging out outside. Then we all went inside to the basement and inside the house he sat next to Tammy for a little bit, then me, then on the floor.
Tammy kept playing with his feet. He was like, what? Stop it. But he sat on the couch and talked to her and Rochelle for the last 20 minutes before he left. When he did leave he just said, later. That's it.
What a prick! God, but I can't yell at him because he's not supposed to know I know that he knows that I like him. But fuck, I don't know why I feel so pissed off. Maybe I'm more pissed off at the whole situation. Why am I even trying to stay friends with Tammy? She is a backstabber. Am I being fake? I just don't like fighting with people. And why did he invite me there if he was going to be all flirty with Tammy, right in front of me? Was he trying to make me jealous? Why not talk to me? Maybe I will yell at him for not talking to me as a friend. (If he calls).
Until Later
Kate likes Ray (again)