October 9/93
Last night I went to a bush party at Devon Woods. Yes. I know. It was me, Marie and Jen and Tammy. We walked there from Tammy's house. It was cool I guess. We basically just hung out in a clearing in the woods, there was a fire. Some of the dumber assholes were jumping over it countless times until almost landing in it and catching on fire. Mostly everyone was drinking beer and there were doobies floating around. I didn't feel like doing anything like that so I just held a beer all night and hardly drank it.
But Gaven was there! Shit he is so hot! So sweet! So nice! Just so perfect! He just broke up with his girlfriend a while ago and I heard he wants to be single for a while, you know, be a bachelor for a bit. I don't mind. I'm not trying to get with him or anything, he is just so nice to look at and talk to.
He has no idea that I like him. I'm not going to tell him either until way later, or unless I think he likes me... but that will never happen, so probably never. Oh well, I'm never gonna get another boyfriend! I just can't lose hope or I'll have nothing else.
Until Later