"It's been six months that I started to like your twin," she speaks again. "Actually, seven months ago, our first conversation happened," she added.
Sana ikwento niya lahat ngayon, because honestly, I'm so curious to hell! Seven long months? Pero, bakit hindi siya kilala ni Sun at ni-minsan 'di niya nabanggit na nagkausap sila? He even didn't say she's familiar to him.
"Seven months ago when his video playing piano was shared by a mutual friend in Facebook," she started sharing their story.
That was the first and unfortunately, the last time that Sun played piano, he dedicated it for Mom, it was her birthday. Sun doesn't like to play piano, it will surely remind him of an event wherein he started to have a phobia on pianos. But, for Mom, inaral niya talaga 'yon because he knows how Mom loves it when someone is playing piano for her. That video of him went viral online kaya siguro dumaan din sa newsfeed niya.
"I really admire someone who knows how to play piano, so I went to his timeline, hoping that I could see more videos of him playing that instrument, pero wala na, but then, I stayed in his timeline for more than four hours? Hindi ko namalayan na I'm already stalking him. Nalaman ko rin na may kakambal siya, pero ewan ko, sa kanya talaga ako na-adik," so, my twin is like a drug? Tss, "I sent a friend request, but it says that I could no longer add him on Facebook kaya hanggang follow na lang ako, but to my surprise, when I logged in again on my account, he'd sent me a friend request..."
Wait, that happened seven months ago, four months ago when Sun confessed that he has feelings for Veia, so it means two months before he realized that he likes Veia, he was first interested in Hillary! Sun doesn't send a friend request to some random people, unless, he's interested in that person. Alam ko 'yan dahil sinasabi niya sa'kin, we don't keep secrets, pero syempre may limitation. Pero, whatever, I'm starting to get enlightened. Sun was once interested with Hillary, pero bakit nga 'di niya kilala si Hillary? Tsk!
"...I was so, so, so happy!" Hillary continued her story. "When I accepted his friend request he immediately sent a message."
"Anong sabi niya?" I asked.
"Just a simple hi, but I didn't know that hi will bring us to much deeper conversation," she smiled, then she sighed. I think we're on the climax, "a month after our first conversation happened, I realized I am slowly falling for Sun, but after a month of knowing that I like him and confessing about it he suddenly went gone."
So, that's probably around October 2018 kasi 'yan ding 'yong mga panahon na inamin ni Sun na gusto niya si Veia. Sa tingin ko unti-unti ko na talagang napagtatagpi-tatagpi ang mga pangyayari.
"2 months lang kaming nagkausap. That's it, that's how our short story started and ended."
Kasi nga he's falling for someone else! Kung sana nagustuhan 'to ni Sun baka may pagkakataon pa 'kong umamin kay Veia kasi alam kong hindi magkakagulo ang lahat kapag umamin ako dahil iba naman ang gusto ng kakambal ko, kaya lang wala, eh, this is the sad reality, I am in love with the woman my twin is in love with. Cool!!
"Pero, akala ko kapag nasa school na ako na pinag-aaralan ni Sun magkakaroon ulit kami ng pagkakataong magkausap, pero wala pala," I can see the sadness in her eyes, hay, "you know what, Sky, I really am so curious why he doesn't know me or even remember me at all. Makakalimutin ba siya?"
Makakalimutin ba si Sun? Sh*t! Hindi naman yata. Hmm, minsan pala, pero grabe naman, two months silang nag-usap tapos nakalimutan siya ni Sun?
"I-I think so?" well, I'm not really sure.
"So, hindi talaga memorable 'yong pag-uusap namin dahil 'di niya ako maalala?" she's in pain, her eyes are telling it, "okay lang sana sa'kin na may iba siyang gusto, pero sana man lang 'di ba naaalala niya ako," she added, and I've witnessed how Hillary's tears fall down on her cheeks. "Ang sakit lang, Sky...the person who cared for me...who loved me more than he loves himself...who's been with me through my ups and downs was forgotten because I am so blinded of my feelings for Sun," she still managed to speak in between her sobs, "that person bullied me in return of hurting him...I was bullied in my past university because I dumped and hurt the person who's been everyone's dream guy...my friends whom I thought were real ones, left me...I was left all alone...it's because of only one person I'd just met and conversed, online...I destroyed my damn peaceful life because of this freaking feeling I have for your twin! Tapos pagdating ko rito, gan'to lang? He's madly in love with someone else? I transferred here also for him! But...it's useless," she stopped and cries herself out.
She's really hurt, no doubt. I know that she's not blaming my twin for the unfortunate thing that happened in her life, she's blaming herself instead. Akala ko ako na 'yong pinakanasasaktan ngayon, but I'm wrong, 'cause here's another person who's been in pain all along. Matagal na rin naman akong nasasaktan, almost 3 years na, pero hindi naman nasira ang buhay ko, unlike Hillary, who was left alone.
Now I understand why she doesn't want to make friends, it's because she's afraid that the history will repeat itself and gives more consequences that are so damn hard to face and conquer.
I let Hillary cries in my shoulder. Yes, I took all my courage to embrace her. Akala ko itutulak niya ako, but no, instead, she hugged me so tight. "Just share your pain with me," I whispered.
"Tss...you're in pain, too, kailagan ko pa bang dagdagan?" she sarcastically said between her sobs!
Tsk, nagawa niya pa talagang mambasag kahit umiiyak na siya.
But, seriously, who could ever imagine that in such happening we're together, having almost the same story and sharing each other's pain?
Tss, it's really beyond my expectation. But, unexpected things are really the best! We may be in pain and so down right now, but at least, we let it out and I'm one way closer to finally let this woman went out from her shell!
"I think it's your time to shine," she suddenly said right after she let go from the hug. "I mean, it's your time to share your story," she said, smiling, and I nodded, for us to be equal.