[Sunday - 14th - January - 2018]
Have you ever tried to look both ways at the same time, if you have, you know you can't. I'm not sure if it's our brain or our eyes, but we can't focus on more than one thing at the same time. I'm not sure if it's our brain or our eyes but we can't focus on more than one thing at the same time.
When I woke up strangely I was seeing through two pairs of eyes, I was looking at the wall and myself at the same time.
At first I thought I was still sleepy and dreaming, then I rubbed my eyes and saw the me who was lying down looking at the wall rubbing my eyes.
Okay, this is very strange and confusing.
I then sat up and looked at myself. Yes, I look at 'me' because in front of me is an exact copy of me.
"What the hell is going on?" The me who was standing spoke and even his mouth moved, his voice sounding exactly like mine.
I could feel my mouth moving, I saw it move and I also saw my surprised face when he saw me speak.
I touched his face and felt the touch on my face. This is very strange, I thought as I stretched my cheek.
"That hurts," he said when I stretched his cheek.
Me and I are exactly alike, it felt like I was looking in a mirror.
The immaculate black skin, a little pale due to the lack of healthy food.
The short black hair that looks messy at all times, his dark brown eyes looking at everything tiredly, the eyes of someone who hasn't rested properly.
An eye-catching spot just below his left eye resembling a teardrop.
His physical stature is tall at 1.78, but he has a lean physique that seems to lack any muscle.
But despite all the defects and strange features there is a strange beauty, enough to be considered handsome.
And I have no doubt that this appearance belongs to me, from the dot on my left arm near my elbow to the scar that looks like a lightning bolt on my right hand.
All his features are identical to mine, down to the smallest details.
At this point it's not difficult to know what's going on, somehow I've managed to get a clone. But the strangest thing is that I can feel and move it as if it were my second body, and it feels so natural.
I can even move both at the same time and I don't feel any difficulty or even discomfort.
In order not to get more confused than I already am, I've decided to refer to the two bodies in different ways, even though we're still just one consciousness.
The new body will be called Alpha and the original will remain Kael Heis as it always was. The two of us are only one but it would be confusing to refer to 'me' all the time when talking about Alpha.
How do I know who is Kael and who is Alfa? It's quite simple really, I just know, I feel it even though I don't know how.
There are many things I want to know and fortunately today is Sunday, so I have plenty of time.
Instead of thinking about how it happened, which I can't answer, I'll first answer my questions about it all. I think the ideal thing would be to start by making a list... and putting some clothes on since Alfa is naked for some reason.
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Okay, I've made a list and now Alfa is dressed, he's wearing a completely black shirt and gray shorts. I'm wearing a blue shirt and white shorts.
Despite being brand-name clothes, they're very worn out and there are even a few holes in them as they're clothes I bought at a thrift store.
So let's start in order of what's on the list.
1. If one of the bodies gets hurt, will the other?
Conclusion: No
To answer this, I stuck my hand with a pin until it bled to see if the same thing would happen to Alfa and it turned out that no damage was done to him. The same thing happened when Alfa got hurt, nothing happened to me.
2. If one of the bodies is tired, will the other be too?
Conclusion: No.
Alfa did 7 push-ups before he couldn't do any more, after which he didn't have the strength to do any more and his arm burned.
I didn't feel the tiredness and lack of strength, but I did feel the burning in my arm.
This surprised me, but it made me think of a question I hadn't even imagined: If one of the bodies works out, will the other gain results?
This is not something I can answer quickly and it will take me a while to find out.
3. Do both bodies feel hungry and have basic needs?
Conclusion: Yes
It was 11:30 a.m. I'd been awake for a while and hadn't eaten anything until now, and it was the same for Alpha.
We were hungry so we went to eat and do our basic needs, so I was able to answer this question.
4. Can the two bodies do different things at the same time?
Conclusion: Yes
I went back to answering the list around 1:30 p.m. right after eating. During that time we had already answered this question.
While I was cleaning the house, Alfa was making lunch for us.
I was able to focus on both things and, to tell the truth, I was thinking while doing both things and not just doing them.
I know it may sound confusing, but it's more like I was doing two math problems at the same time, I could think of both separately if I were to try to explain it in a nutshell.
Maybe it's because Alpha also has a brain? I don't know about that, but if we think that he needs to eat and use the toilet, it's likely that he has all the organs.
5. Does one body feel what the other feels?
Conclusion: No
This was answered with other questions and a few more tests.
For example, when I was injured, Alfa didn't physically feel pain and there was nothing to show that he suffered pain and when he was tired there was nothing to show that I was tired.
Although one feels what the other feels since we have the same consciousness, it's more like a game in that respect. Basically, if I break Alpha's arm he'll know, but it won't make him wince in pain or feel a phantom pain.
With that, everything somehow got a lot more confusing. At the end of the day, do we only have one consciousness or is our consciousness only connected?
6. Can you study at the same time?
Conclusion: Yes
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18. Do the two bodies have only one consciousness or do they have two connected consciousnesses?
Conclusion: Undetermined
Many things indicate that there is only one consciousness, for example, we think with only one consciousness and feel what the other feels rather than just knowing.
But many also point out that they are only interconnected, if one suffers from pain the other doesn't show it physically or even has phantom pains. Another thing that points to this is tiredness, when one body exercises and gets tired, the other, despite having mentally felt the tiredness, doesn't feel like it's hindering movement or even making them lazy.
In general, there are many factors that point to both. Would I say it's a mixture of the two? That's uncertain, but it's similar to the question of 'why' it happened, there's no point in asking since there's no way of arriving at a conclusive result.
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"Damn, this is exhausting," I cursed, sprawled on the sofa.
I didn't expect thinking so much about it to be so tiring.
To tell you the truth, it's strange how easily I'm accepting the situation, especially considering how calm and enthusiastic I am about it all.
I don't think I have to say it, but it's obvious that this is something out of the ordinary since there's no mention of anyone having powers... at least not to the general public.
Maybe I'm not so special and it's all just hidden from ordinary people? Maybe, but I can't imagine them hiding something as great as powers so easily without allowing a single detail about it to spread.
I guess it's obvious, but I have to hide it all. If I'm not special in some way I'll be involved in all this and if I'm not I'll be researched to find out how it works. In general, none of the options are pleasant.
"How sleepy" Looking at the time, I realize it's already 9pm. I didn't even notice the passage of time.
As soon as I noticed the passage of time, I felt my stomach growl with hunger, and Alfa's too.
As the house was already clean, I decided to read while Alfa made dinner.
Expenses have increased now that I have to feed myself and Alfa. Should I get another job or find a way to earn money from home?
Well, I'll think about it tomorrow, today I just want to rest.
Alfa and I ate just enough to fill us up and then went to bed. It turned out that because I only had one bed, Alfa had to sleep on the floor, so he put some blankets underneath to make it more comfortable and slept there.
Fortunately it was warm, otherwise he would have had to sleep more precariously.
'Man, I never expected this to happen for real' now that I'm trying to sleep somehow, reality has hit me.
Maybe I just didn't believe it before, I must have been in disbelief not to feel it before.
This feeling of happiness, worry, strangeness, hope. There are so many emotions that I'm not even sure what I'm feeling.
And to be honest, the biggest emotion is worry. Not worry about what's going to happen, I'm actually excited about that.
But worry that it's not real. I really hope it is real, otherwise this hope I'm feeling is empty and meaningless.
Suddenly, while I was thinking, sleep began to come, so quickly and so strongly that there wasn't even time for me to struggle or for worry to get in the way.
'I really hope this isn't a lie... I really hope' was the last thing I could think before falling asleep.
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