I woke up today this morning, thanks to the alarm I had set. My bunny was still sleeping peacefully and this made me happy. Waking up next to the person you felt like you wanted to spend your entire life with is a feeling that I'm not able to explain, a taste of what I am feeling now. Every time I look at him the more I wanna kiss him, but now I just want to surprise him so if I kiss him he might wake up. I got out of bed slowly and carefully and walked out of the room. I was about to go down the stairs but I couldn't hold it any longer. I got back to the room and kissed his forehead then left. At least I felt at ease by doing that. It just makes me feel happy and I end up smoking to myself.
I had to order breakfast again, if Shin was here then I wouldn't have to worry much about this. I opened all the windows and served the breakfast once it arrived. Now it was just the perfect time to take it to him, it was almost ten o'clock and I'm sure he'd be up.
"Bringing that to me..." this voice made me tremble a little bit and I put down the tray with the breakfast.
"Guess breakfast in bed doesn't always work..." I said turning to him. Why does he have such a beautiful face?
"I'm not a foodie... You don't have to do that much, I can do it..." he said coming closer to me. He eyed the food and I get nervous that he would eat it.
"Can you hug me..." he asked and I got surprised. I expected him to say something about the food on the table but he was far away on another subject.
"It's okay if you don't want to... maybe I'm asking for too much, forgot you are a celebrity," he said and moved to the other side of the table.
I followed him and hugged him. "Being a celebrity doesn't mean that I can't give you what you want okay? Rather means that I'm able to take care of you and give you anything you want... anything... I'll never let my work life come in between me and you ok? So if you wanna ask for something just directly do it.." I said hugging him tighter.
"Anytime you get the chance please hug me... that's the most important thing I can ask for... I feel so safe and free when you do that... you give me the peace that I haven't had for years..." he said in his usual low tone.
"Yes... I will... anytime you need a hug just call me, can take a plane for that" I said, meaning it. It felt so good that at least someone felt at peace with me. Just like how I felt with him. He let go and then averted his eyes back to the dining.
"Don't buy lots of food like this... It's not good to waste food" he said and I smiled at him. Just like he had said he ate very little that I was even worried whether he was satisfied.
"Do you always eat that little?" I asked and he looked at me. Those beautiful puppy eyes held innocence.
"I'm not a foodie, you'll have to get used to me this way," he said slowly and sipped some water.
"Do you wanna meet my bandmates later? I can invite them to come over, I'm sure you know them but I want you to meet them personally," I said and saw him chock on the water. I rushed to him but he said he was fine.
"Can't it just be the two of us? I don't want to embarrass you when they come... I don't like talking especially to more than one person, and I don't even know what to tell them, and I think it's still early for that... we should try on focusing on each other right? Like right now I need a hug" isn't he so cute? You could have seen him saying this and it looked so cute. I laughed a little my eyes fixed on him.
"Why are you laughing?" He asked and I stood and walked to him. I bend over and hugged him then after letting him go, I squatted next pt him.
"Do you feel better now?" I asked and he nodded. This one the most interesting thing I've learned about him, he likes hugs and I'm here for that. I'd rather have him hug me over a hundred times per day rather than him hugging another person even just for one second.
"Do you wanna see something?" I asked and he looked at me. He didn't say anything but his eyes said it.
"I got this one for you," I said pulling the long-sleeved shirt up to reveal the tattoos covering my entire hand... I have a lot of tattoos and all of them have their own meanings about my bandmates each with initials, and some quotes, and the numbers of the day and month we debuted and about our fans, I'm proud of them that's why I got my hand full of tattoos because anyone can see and I'm not ashamed" I said and he traced his tiny fingers on the hand, feeling each tattoo as if exploring them deeper.
"How did you feel? Wasn't it so painful? " He asked and I could see the worry in his eyes.
"They were painful but I willingly did it... I feel so happy to have them" I answered and he nodded.
" But I have one more which means everything to me. " I said and he looked at me waiting for its revelation. I raised my shirt but it wasn't helping at all so I removed it.
"This one here. " I said pointing at the tattoo over my heart. I could see the stories in his eyes and he immediately traced them too, but this time he did it hesitantly and slowly that I felt the effect of his fingers on my body. That was my favorite tattoo, and it was the most beautiful one. It was of two blue dolphins that made a heart and between them was the name Axel.
"You told me to get your name written so that I won't forget it right? " I asked and he looked at me and then looked back at the tattoo.
"It's beautiful, so beautiful... I think I need another hug" he said and this was no surprise to me now. It's like every time he was thinking about something, he needed a hug. I hugged him but when I was about to let go he didn't he clung onto me and I stayed there. I was gonna stay there as long as he wanted.
"I got it on my chest because I don't reveal it that much and it's closer to my heart, that way I can feel you there always, I'm also selfish and I don't want people to know you, I'm afraid they might take you away from me... " I said and he held onto me tighter. I just loved the silence because the hug said much more than words would have said.
"Thank you, " he said and then let go. I looked at his eyes and it was visible that he had tried his best not to cry but they were still teary.