Shin came to my room bringing dinner. I said thanks and he left but I didn't touch it. I don't feel like eating it though I had promised him that I would eat it. It's almost eleven pm but I still can't close my eyes. Someone knocked on my door and I was sure it was Shin. He was here two hours ago bringing me dinner.
"Someone is here to see you..." he said once I opened the door.
"Who is it?.... It's so late right now and we don't allow people to come here at this time" I said and he pulled me along with him down the stairs. I couldn't believe my eyes. What was he doing here at this time and who allowed him to come in?
"I told him to come.... the others are already sleeping... I thought this one would make your face better didn't think that the both of you need some help... he looks worse than you... I'll be upstairs... I think you'll have to brush off the sullen face and take care of him first" He was right. Axel looked like a lost puppy. My mood wasn't good but he looked worse. We had talked earlier and he didn't look like this. I walked towards him and he stood up. He kept on looking at me until I approached him. I was getting confused because his face is much worse than when he is crying. Shin was right. Maybe I should just forget that I'm not in a good mood and take care of my boyfriend first.
"Can you hug me?.. please.." he said once I was close enough. This time I saw the tears. They were flowing down his eyes but he didn't stop them. I didn't want any longer or even say yes because that would be waiting time. I took him into my arms and hugged him as tight as I could, but not crashing him. I could hear the small cries and I hugged him tighter until he got better.
"You can talk to me... I will always be on your side to support you, baby, what's bothering you? I'm really worried about you..." I said after he broke away from the hug. I was worried and he had to tell me what was bothering him.
"Sorry I came to you this time... I should have refused when Shin told me to come but if I didn't I was going to do something really bad... I want to stop I just don't know how, I want to stop, I don't want to do it anymore, I'm tired, it's so tiring and it hurts me, tell me how to stop please.... help me, I think I'm going insane... I wanna stop" he was back at it again. Crying and I couldn't let him continue. Hugs make him feel better so I hugged him. There was so much pain in his voice and it made me wanna cry but I couldn't let him see me crying not right now when I'm supposed to shelter him. I wasn't getting what he was talking about but it made me feel like he was going through something difficult and I won't let him go through it alone.
"I'm here baby, I'll help you okay? I'll help you..." I said running his back. I didn't tell him to stop crying because I wanted to let him vent it all out on me.
I heard some footsteps and noises. looking back it was Woojin chasing after Minjae, running down the stairs. We looked in that direction and I held Axel's hand tightly. I'm not sure what they are going to say about this but I'd rather have zero expectations. I'm sure they will hate him if they find out he is my boyfriend.
"You lost the game give back the phone it's my turn." it was Woojin shouting at Minjae. Behind them was Shin who was coming rushing. He gave me the sorry look when they paused at once and looked at us. The looks they gave didn't seem like good ones.
"Who is that? What is he doing here?" Minjae asked and I was caught dumbfounded. He looks so scary when angry and I didn't know what to say.
"I'm sorry guys... I know it's not allowed but I'm the one who brought him here, he is Axel" Shin said and walked to my side. The two still looked surprised with some diseasing looks on their faces.
"So why did you bring him here? and weren't you supposed to be with him instead of Evel? And why did you do that? You know this won't end well if Mr. Chin finds out. Are you trying to get in trouble?" Woojin asked. He looked like he was the most pissed one.
"You didn't tell us you were bringing someone... what is this? Since when did we start keeping secrets from each other?" Minjae asked and you could feel the disappointment in his voice.
"You guys don't need to fight... we are family remember?..." I was about to continue when I felt Axel's hand hold onto mine that it even hurt. I looked at him immediately. His other hand was on his forehead and his eyes were closing. It seemed like he was hurting and he wasn't stable.
"Babe, Babe, are you okay?" I asked him and he nodded then removed his hand from his head.
"BABE?" I had forgotten that it was not just the two of us in the room. They were gonna find out sooner or later right? I think sooner is even better.
"Yes actually... he is the one I was saying.... sorry guys I..." I didn't finish the sentence when his hand immediately slid through mine and let go. By the time I was looking, he was almost down on the floor but I held him. The others had shouted and they looked so scared but I carried him to the sofa.
"What are we gonna do now... is he gonna be alright... We need to take him to the hospital Evel... guys let's carry him to the car, I'm the fastest driver here..." it was Woojin who was panicking. I was more worried than any of them in the room and immediately I placed him on the couch my hands started shivering. I could only seat there, I felt numb.
"Relax Woojin, he has just fainted... let's help him first," Shin said and came over to him immediately. I watched Shin as he did all the first aid. I watched as he elevated his legs to restore the blood flow to the brain and as he pulled him in to feel if he was breathing.
"Is he breathing?" I asked and he nodded. At least it wasn't that fatal but I was scared to death. He then shook him for some time but he was not answering.
"Hey, hey,... hey Axel,... Axel" he tried countless times but he wasn't answering.
"Let's just take him to the hospital..." Minjae who was death striken spoke for the first time. It was almost five minutes after Shin had tried to revive him.
"No need I'm fine..."