The week is over and I have not set my eyes on my bunny. I've been trying to call him but he doesn't answer. Inalossent hundreds of messages but he hasn't been replying and this is getting me worried and mad at the same time. I'm not so sure if he can't reply because he is nice or something is up, or maybe he just decided to ghost me and be the cold prince again. I'm so worried about him and I need to at least hear his voice. I wanna know how he is doing, last time he wasn't in a good health and he left with that boss-like friend of his. I gotta admit that he is super handsome and that is driving me nuts. I hate how he touched my bunny and looked so concerned about him. I hate his guts when he bragged that he knows bunny much better than I do. I hate it so freakingmuch. I'm jealous and I don't want anyone else taking care of my boyfriend apart from me. I want to be the one to act that possessive of him and not anyone eale.
During this week a lot has been done. I've been able to both record my song and do the video and it was released yesterday. I've been so busy with the choreography practices and everything, the unending photoshoots, and the video set. I wanted something simple and unique but I didn't know that it also requires a lot of work. Good thing that I did everything with my bandmates and didn't feel the loneliness of having to do anything alone. The song got a million views within the first three minutes and that came as a big surprise. I guess people had anticipated so much for it and according to the review so far, no complaints. So far it's two hundred million views and I can't say it's not enough because it's already more than I expected. I just feel that the world always gives me more than I ask for, and in a hmgoof way. I'm happy yes, as I am supposed to be, I'm ninety-nine percent happy but trust me that remaining one percent is totally everything. It's making me feel like I'm being insane. It's the reason why I couldn't concentrate well when we were going through the dance practices and I was always making mistakes. The reason why when recording the song in the studio the directors kept on telling me to add some emotion. The reason why right now I don't feel like I'm happy anymore.
"what you thinking about... seem so serious" it was Shin's voice. I looked up at him and he sat next to me. "Your room seems a bit messy you know?" he said looking around.
"You can talk to me... I read your emotions better than anyone here that's why I've followed you here.... the others are worried too... you are not so hard to read either... Is it him?" he asked and I looked at him. I want to talk to someone but I don't think I want to have the conversation with him. Especially about Axel.
"I know what you thinking but trust me... I'm over it already... I have come to accept it... Axel can't compare to anyone, he is cute, super cute..."I looked at him and I knew he meant it. His face didn't seem sullen and it felt a bit safe to talk to him.
"I'm worried about him... he hasn't been picking up my calls not replying to my texts... it hurts so much Shin... I'm so scared that maybe something happened to him and I don't know... I'm worried sick Shin, I don't know what to do... it's so sickening..." The next minute I was trying to stop the tears which were already falling but there was no way I could stop them. I felt his hands cover me in a hug. It felt much better than being alone.
"You know you have one cold boyfriend... but I'm also worried... the last time he was here he looked not so good.... should we look for him?" He asked and it felt like a joke. How could we find him? Should we track down his phone?
"I wish there was some way but they isn't... that's why it hurts so much... Shin do you think something bad happened to him? What about that Felix guy huh? Do you think he did something to him? Or maybe he doesn't wanna see me anymore... do you think he hates me? Please say something don't just look at me like that... tell me..." I don't understand why Shin keeps on staring at me like that whilst I need him to say something. I need him to comfort me. The silence is making it worse.
"Hey stop overthinking okay? Maybe he has a good reason... nothing bad has happened to him, keep that faith okay" he said and at least I felt better. My bunny was still somewhere doing alright. But why wasn't he picking up my phone?
"But if I were you by now I should have already known where to find him... he knows where he can find you right? Have you ever asked him where he stays?" he looked at me waiting for an answer he seemed so surprised when I said no.
"Are you sure you love him? You should at least have the most important details about him... I guess it's probably why Felix said that you know nothing about Axel, the guy seemed so overprotective and ill agree that he knows a lot more than you do.... plus something was a bit off... I didn't understand what he meant but something was a bit off... What did he mean when he said there's a lot you don't know and you don't want to find them out this way... maybe it's something that he don't want to let you know about Axel... and I guess it's a serious one..." he said looking at me as if he was trying to get me to think. Slowly everything started coming in.
"He is allergic to coffee but he didn't tell me... it was so bitter but he drank it... I didn't know, I realized it later, and when I saw the red patches on his hand... he wasn't reacting at all but I know they ached a lot...he rarely tells me anything... He just asks for a hug.... sometimes he doesn't look like he is okay and tries to hide it... the week I was with him mostly he looked like something was missing, he looked like he was trying so hard to stop himself from something.. I'm getting that because last time he told me that he wants me to help him and there's something he doesn't wanna do... I'm so confused... This is only adding more pain to my head...." I said scratching my head so much that it pained even more.