Yes. I am into the higher grade...I know that I should study even harder and maybe I will.
This was my inner perception when I passed my higher secondary school. I was not confident about which stream I should choose but I was daydreaming of freedom. I certainly loved to be unusual and unique. Not just me "everyone" else in the world is distinct and rare.
This occurred when two years of my depression state was still ongoing. However, having no friends, was still harder for me. At this extreme moment, my father enrolled me in a college entrance exam which left me with no choice except to attend.
The convo between me and my dad was like "I wanna do something different from others" I said and to that my father replied, "You are gonna do the same that others do and settle in your life".I existed like a stone that has no involvement in her own life. I just accepted my fate.
A new chapter of my life was waiting.
To everyone one of us who's been through a depressed state,
You did a good job.
Hang in there.