I wasn't fine even for a moment.
My anger brought the worst out of me. However, I was acting so fine in front of everyone. Everyone around me thought that I was perfectly alright. I was not even satisfied with myself. I was grown up in a surrounding where quarrels occur now and then, including in my family. I did not receive any parental love or grandparent's affection. We were a nuclear family, but I always longed to be a part of a joint family. I had to behave like a mature girl even when I was 15 years old. My parents fought among themselves, with my sister barely withstanding them, and I was left crying in a corner. However, I escaped the tension and waited for the good days. A moment ago, I was like feeling excited and happy but the next moment I was depressed. Someone who feels lonely all the time will want to be the centre of attention is a given.
Here, you need to understand that emotions play a crucial role in life. We humans sometimes control them and sometimes are in control of them. When we control emotions, things go according to our will and wish. But if emotions control us, things go out of our control, and the heart speaks out.
In my case, I desired to follow my heart while situations took the side of consciousness and maturity.
Can we follow our heart or reluctantly follow our mind?