To be honest , I was grateful that he asked me because that was what I needed the most at that time to let the cold air touch me and numb my mind so that I could stop thinking for a moment and truly be with him.
When we reached the parking lot , informed others that we will be late and asked them to leave without us. Thankfully to which Fazeed as well as others agreed without any teasing.
I got up on his bike and we bid goodbye to everyone. We rode in opposite to our college. We both kept quiet. Actually, I was enjoying the cold breeze pricking my face with the increasing speed.
When we are together, we remain quiet most of the time and it isn't the awkward silence instead it's the opposite. It's the silence of comfort. It's the feeling of not having to be on guard , the comfort the warmth he seems to radiate for me which I love to recieve in silence.
As all other time , it was him who broke the silence asking if I was fine.
I replied, " I am. What about you?"
" I am also fine. What would happen to me?", he replied.
" Yah so true. ", I replied.
" Well , you don't really look fine to me though..." , He told me.
"...."
" You know you can tell me." , He suggested again.
" I know I can tell you. But what to say when you already know it." , I replied.
" Honestly I don't know this time. There are two questions in my mind. So I am not really shure which is making you sad or worried.", He told.
" Well, tell me what is in your mind.", I asked.
" Ummm... Well are you sad because of the dance.....That I touched your waist..….??" , He asked.
I started laughing listening to his doubt thinking he was kidding. But I immediately stopped it when I saw his confused yet serious face.
" Oh you were serious....."
After I controlled my laugh completely. I explained him, " Dude.... how can feel bad or be sad about it when it was me who put your hand on my waist personally..."
" Phew.....I actually thought you are sad for that." , he told me.
" I am not sad for that I am sad because I think I hurt you." , I told him.
After I told him I realised what I told and prayed that he wouldn't notice. Well thankfully he didn't or maybe he acted like he didn't. Whatever it was , I liked it.
" No , I am not hurt." , he replied.
" Well good to know that."
After sometime time he asked , " You told you are not sad but why does your face tell me otherwise ."
" I am just tensed about his comming. I don't want him to come here but I also want to end things between us. I am not shure if I can do it when we meet personally and he knows it . So he is asking to meet ." , I explained him.
" First let him come ....then we will see what to do. If you are not shure then don't go to meet him alone. Simple...." , He told me.
I smiled at his words. But how can I tell him that it isn't as easy as it seems to just break up with him. He is going to make it worse .... as worse as possible if he comes here. So I must think of something to stop him. Maybe put some senses into him.
I felt better talking to him. Suddenly he got a call from Fazeed . He told Ayan that there is check point on the way to college. As they knew Ayan as well as me had no helmet which was against law. So he changed the route for college. As it was almost time for going back so he rode me back to college.
On the way I felt better and hummed a bit. I thought he wouldn't listen but he did. Now he was urging me to sing for him. He also offered to join me. So we both were humming together on our way back. He dropped me in front of college gate and we bid goodbye to each other.