Even without looking at mirror, I knew I was looking like ghost . I replied Ayan. I told him about the whole situation. As always he cheered me up. I was all fine now after talking to him. Then we bid good night and slept.
Next day was as usual in college. Usual meet ups and chats and fun. Ayan asked if I was fine and also about everything else. To which I replied that everything was fine.
That night my boyfriend called me again. We couldn't avoid another fight. Because he asked me something unthinkable. He agreed to breakup if I allowed him to fuck me whenever he wanted. This was really my bottom line which he crossed. I was too angry that I screamed and cried at the top of my lungs at him and cut the call immediately and blocked him everywhere.
That's when Ayan texted me. I told him what my boyfriend asked for. Even he felt disgusting of my boyfriend. Then he called me . I tried my best to remain calm so that he wouldn't know if I cried but I failed. I couldn't hold on to my tears when he asked me not to cry. Ayan also suggested that I should inform my parents to which I agreed.
While I was on call with Ayan he told me that my boyfriend was calling in his number but I told him not to recieve which he didn't. He kept calling for two to three times and stopped. After five to ten minutes Haniya called me to tell my boyfriend called her and wants to talk to me. I told her not to receive his call. After Haniya blocked him, he called Fazeed . Fazeed heard all about it.
Fazeed being short tempered person , ofcourse he was angry after listening to everything. He called me and asked me to block Ayan and not to drag Ayan or anyone into my mess. I wanted to explain myself to him but he did give me a chance so even I didn't try to explain myself second time and he cut the call. I understand him and his worry about Ayan. I really don't blame him for any of it. Maybe I would have done the same if it were for my friend. I do appreciate my skills of creating a mess .
On the other side Ayan texted me in Snapchat that everyone is angry about whatever is happening. I informed him that Fazeed wants me to block him in WhatsApp. Then he asked me to block him in WhatsApp and text in Snapchat only. He also asked me to send screenshot of me blocking him to Fazeed . Ofcourse I did it as he asked because I didn't want Ayan to have problem for me with his friends. I was feeling guilty of dragging Ayan in my mess oth the other side my wish to breakup with my boyfriend grew more and more with all the incidents he had been doing. He was making a joke of me among my friends whom I barely knew.
At night when everyone was done with their discussion over my life. Ayan and me we were texting . Discussing over whatever shit happened today. I apologised for everything that I caused him. He told it wasn't my fault and he didn't mind anything. He just didn't know how to explain them what he knows and thinks of me and my relationship.
Honestly , even I didn't had any idea of what to tell them about it. So I decided to ignore the group and be in contact with Ayan only over phone. Ofcourse I didn't tell Ayan about it and decided it on my own.