I didn't feel like having dinner . I had to calm down before he calls so I talked to Ayan for sometime. My mind was calm but I didn't feel better because cheating is not my thing but I know I was doing it. I was giving my heart to someone else and I couldn't even control it. I found my peace in someone else's voice instead of my boyfriend. I know it is wrong but I am doing it anyway. I don't know how to tell him my thoughts either.
My boyfriend called me again after his dinner and some family time like he always has. That's when he changed the password of my email and also put on two-step verification for Authorization. Above that he Removed my number from the retrieve account and added his number and email making it impossible for me to log into my email which is why I couldn't use any social media and Google smoothly. I was so frustrated by his actions. But now I didn't want to go back with him more than ever.
So I just asked him to give me my email and stay out of my life. I also told him that I wanted to breakup with him. Then I asked him to give me a break and put my phone on flight mode and started watching the download episodes.
While I was watching, my roommate got a call from unknown number. As she had installed true caller, she got to know it was a call from my boyfriend. I asked her not to recieve the calls. After sometime Haniya called my roommate asking my whereabouts. When I talked to her she told me that my boyfriend called her . I said sorry for the trouble and bid good night to her. Then again my roommate got call from my boyfriend and I asked her to recieve it. Before she could say anything he told her to put the phone on speaker as he wanted me to listen to him. So she did as he told.
" I am sorry... I know we both grew up and with time we both changed based on our circumstances. I can't expect us to be like before but you promised me before going to Bangalore that nothing would change between us. Then why ? Why do you want to breakup? Please don't. Please...." , he told all at once because he knew I wouldn't answer. I know meant every word he told. I know he would do it for me but my doubt was for how long. Because I know he would be back to being himself once he realises that it's all good between us. I couldn't take that risk. If he could have told me these words a few months back then I would be head over hills and smile all day long from ear to ear. But now it's not same. It didn't bring me happiness but pity. I felt pity on all men who don't cherish what they have when they actually have it. Instead they toss it thinking it's already theirs and end up losing it forever .
On the other side Ayan kept texting my roommate about my whereabouts. I knew even he was desperate to know about things as he couldn't reach me. So she replied to his text saying I was talking to him still.
I didn't want to distrib her more than I am already doing. So I asked her not to reply Ayan anymore as I will talk to him after sometime and I asked my boyfriend to call me on my phone which he did.
His every words were irritating me more and more. I was getting angrier than I already am. I was shouting and screaming at him with tears pulled up threatening to fall from my eyes. I have no idea from he got the conscious that we were getting nowhere so he asked me to sleep and we will talk tomorrow. However I was too angry with everything that I told I didn't want to talk to him and wants breakup . As I cut the call with my boyfriend and put my data on notification were pilling up my screen . I recieved a number of texts and calls and Ayan along with other notifications.
I replied Ayan as I know I can't avoid him. And I was far from feel sleepy. So we started talking. I started to reply all the questions.