Do you love hurting me right? Bringing down my self-esteem making me feel worthless or not like myself... Why won't you leave me alone? You either want to be "Friends with benefits" and I give in, or you insult me, and I really do not care about myself only you, why though? Why do I let you have this huge control over my body and emotions? I hate/love you why? How should I know? I should know but I do not. I AM A PROBLEM! Why am I still here? I should not be here. Why am I still attached? Why can I not let go? I need to, but for some reason, I cannot... I need to get help... I need someone here that actually cares. But who would care for a "Bad" person... Too emotional person... Drama queen... Slut... attention whore...? Who would actually care for someone like me...? It does not make any sense. I should just disappear.