I do not know what I want. If you will not put an effort for me, why should I put in the effort for you? All these promises, but you do not act on them. I am so close to giving up on you but for some reason, I cannot. Why? I do not know. I do not understand why I care so much. Why do I wait for you when you just keep telling me things, saying things are going to happen but they never do? You tell me so many things and they never happen (The important stuff) You just say things to get my hopes up. I do get my hopes up, and then I am always disappointed (Most of the time) You say you want me. But do you actually want me? If you actually want me, prove it because I am not going to wait forever. Act on the things you tell me, or "want to do too" I am getting tired of waiting for you to make your decisions. I am not going to wait forever.