i couldn't be more proud of myself for how far i have gotten and for how well i am doing. When i was diagnosed, the end of treatment seemed so distant and although i tried to remain positive. I was terrified. Now, here i am halfway through. There have been days where i just want to stay in bed all day and cry. And days where i can't control my emotions or body, but there has been definitely been more good days than bad. I am so grateful to be alive and share my experience with others; an experience that has brought me closer to myself, to my family and friends, and to complete strangers who have turned into very cherished part of my life. I wouldn't be this strong If it weren't for them.
keep looking not for a person but for your Passion, your love, your courage, your goals, your dreams, your happiness, yourself, keep looking.
Don't give up. Fight a little longer. You have got this. There is light at the end of the tunnel. Turn the negative into positive and be thankful for another day. You will loose things along the way like your friends, hair, confidence, freedom, and most days your mind. The dark days come more often than the good, and you will find a new best friend the couch. The tears will flow alot faster and without control. Endless nights awake reflecting come more often than a restful night sleep. All those tears bring a new found sensitivity and awareness. Those endless nights awake bring contentment. The loss of confidence and freedom bring a hunger to try new things and that heavy weight of sickness now brings peace to the soul. I don't know what is next but i can tell you that its not something on my mind. To be fully present is a gift and i plan on cherishing it.