Carson's P.O.V
So far it was going good with Addie. I did not expect this to go the way it went but, I was happy regardless. Everything wasn't automatically completely normal between us. We both knew that there were some unspoken words and secrets between us and yet we chose to go easy on each other and above all ourselves for now.
As I was leaving the room after helping Addie with her suitcase I heard her calling out to me.
"Benjie!"
It probably wasn't the first time that I felt so warm when she called me Benjie, but this time was surely different. For some odd reason I felt lighter physically and mentally when I heard her speak. Having an uncontrollable smile plastered on my face I turned around to look at her.
"Hmm?" -she was unpacking her luggage while sitting on the floor.
"Approximately how long will it take for dinner to arrive?" -her eyes never left her suitcase just like how I couldn't remove mine from her. She was busy removing her belongings to even glance at me.
"Maybe another twenty to thirty minutes." -I replied as I moved my eyes towards my wristwatch.
"Perfect!" -I heard her reply before I redirected my gaze at her. Standing up with a few clothes in her hands she came towards me who was standing by the door. She patted my shoulder twice before walking out of the room.
"I'll quickly take a shower then." -Saying so she almost ran past me and entered the washroom.
As she was out of my sight, I simply went over to the living room and sat on the chairs set by the island. I heard my phone's notification which made me check up on it.
Mother had sent a message which read "You're with Addie right? How's she doing?"
As I read the message I sighed before replying- "She seems fine for now. I might come home late so please don't wait for me." After sending the message I moved to my mail and read the last mails I had received from Uncle Fedir.
Reading them all over again now made me realise how many signs he had provided me with.
How he really was ready to leave us all behind.
How he probably just did not want us to break apart in such a manner.
How... how much he loved, cared and cherished us.
My eyes felt dry as I couldn't help myself from reading all his messages over and over again. Many of which made me feel like a fool.
Adelaide's P.O.V
As I closed the washroom door behind me, I turned to look at the mirror beside me. Taking a look at myself I realised what I had become. I almost looked like a zombie with a contradiction being that I was alive. As I continued to look at myself I realised, so this is how I looked when me and Carson finally reunited.
I scoffed at myself before I started removing my clothes and heading towards the shower.
Starting the shower at the warm end, I entered hoping that the water running over my body would take away with it my overwhelming thoughts. The hot water felt good against my flesh. After days of being away from anything that could possibly harm me, I felt relieved under the shower. Taking a look around I realised I didn't get anything to wash myself with.
Maybe that's for the best. I thought to myself before moving onto to scrubbing my body and face with water.
As I was drying myself before putting on my clothes, I looked at my reflection in the mirror again. Reaching out to touch my cheek, it was clearly evident to me that I looked a lot better than I did before my bath.
"We got to maintain this Adel. We have to."
I spoke to myself before quickly putting on my black T-shirt and sleeping shorts.
Putting my wet hair in the towel Carson had kept in the washroom, I walked out to see Carson sitting by the Island in the living room while almost making holes in his phone with his burning gaze. I slowly walked towards him and stood behind him.
I was so close at finding out what made him act so but the doorbell caught his attention.
"Oh you're done?!" -He asked while he turned to see me.
"Surprising I know. I'll go get the door" -I replied before turning towards the direction of the main door.
"Wait." -he said, gently holding my hand while standing up from his seat. "I'll get it. Wait here."
"Well if you really want to then go ahead." -I replied before moving over to his seat.
I saw him walk towards the door after checking the intercom in the hall. He soon came back in after thanking the delivery person.
I could feel my face light up by looking at Carson. Rather, what he held in his hands. I was so over the place that I did not even realise that I was thoroughly famished!
I felt like a child who had just ordered her happy meal and could barely wait for the toy. As soon as Benjamin placed the package on the table, I lunged forward and opened it as fast as I could, all even before he could sit across me. I heard him laugh, or rather chuckle? I didn't care. I was hungry and my God blessed meal lay before me.
I quickly opened my box and the smell of the food literally sent me to heaven. I was content by taking in its heavenly aroma.
"Calm down! The food won't run away from you!" -he was still laughing as he unpacked his own box of pasta.
"I am calm! See I still am waiting for you. Now open up fast! I want to eat together."
"Yes, yes let's start shall we?"
There was no reply, we just started munching on the food and God was it relishing!
"You sure this is large?" -I questioned Benjie as I was close to finishing mine.
"Ain't it obvious? Mine is smaller than yours." -he replied as I set my now empty box down.
"Well that got over soon." -I said sighing and looking at Benjie.
"Are you still hungry?"
I thought about it. Somehow I ended up pondering about it more until I finally replied with a satisfied smile.
"Nah! I am plenty full."
"That is great then! Surely saves me my money." -Benjie replied with a smile as he too was done with his set of pasta.
I helped him dispose of the empty boxes, although he did almost everything. While I ended up only cleaning the table.
After he showed me where the trash is disposed off, we decided to say our goodbye's for the day. As I was walking down the stairs with him I started fretting his departure. I didn't want to be alone again. Not tonight at least. I didn't want the voice to come back. I knew I was being selfish but I couldn't help myself as I held onto his shirt, stopping him from walking further.
We didn't say anything for a few seconds until he, yet again, initiated the conversation.
"What's wrong?" -he had clearly questioned me but his voice felt like he already knew the answer.
"Can we... stay together for tonight?" -I was ashamed of myself for holding onto him right now. He probably needed space and time himself but I was being so helpless in front of him who like myself was suffering.
No one spoke for sometime. My gaze was directed at the ground and it didn't feel like Carson was looking at me either. I was starting to give up and understand that he needed time himself but before I could tell him that he could leave he replied.
"Want to go for a walk?"