I can't believe I kissed him,
I can't believe I kissed him.
I kept saying in my head, I couldn't believe I kissed him.
When I closed the door, I leaned on it as I closed my eyes.
Best kiss since Nick, my heart was in a marathon race.
I placed a hand on my chest trying to calm it down a bit while taking in deep breaths, I opened my eye and low and behold my sisters big grins on full display like some kind of imbeciles.
A knock thundered through the silent house, and just so I could avoid my sisters, I ripped the door open only to be frozen again with my mouth open.
He's back
Damn I'm that good.
"Your bag"
He says holding up my hand bag, was it in his car I left it or outside?
With a deep blush from what happened a few moments ago and my idiocy.
"Thanks."
I took it from his outstretched hand, when our hands touch he pulls me again in for a kiss.
I heard a faint thud as his hand held the back of my head and the other around my waist, pulling me to him.
Kissed me like he was giving me life, the very air that fills my lungs.
He pulls away all to soon, and tells me he'll see me tonight.
Is this heaven?
Am I dead yet?
I started walking in the direction of the staircase and totally disregarded my sisters.
"Ahh hello"
I stopped mid step and looked down exhaling and inhaling deeply, at Ave's call.
I knew what they wanted but they saw, what more is there to say.
How he sucked your soul outside.
"Hello dear sisters."
I said cheekily.
"Oh cut the bullshit Shay. Did you just kiss him?"
Ave said not even able to hide her surprised face, even Katie was just as shocked.
"You saw it why ask me?"
I said with a smirk and i walked up the stairs and the girls rushed behind me as well.
"Don't give us that, When did the kissing start?"
It was Katie's turn to ask.
"Today, and yes it was great"
I said unapologetic.
"No shit, I almost fetched a vacuum when you turned into a paddle"
Ave snorted
I ran all the way to my room squealing feeling like a teenager again, talking about boys.
They ran after me squealing and I laughed so hard it was getting hard to run away from them as they ask for more details.
We all reach my room and we all collapsed on my bed face up.
We fall silent as our laughter died down and our breathing regulating back to normal.
"I still can't believe I did"
Twice
My voice coming out in a whisper, I felt my sisters look at me.
"Do you regret it?"
Ave the first to ask with a air of concern in her tone and eyes, but I didn't answer right away.
I continued to stare up the ceiling, I knew I enjoyed kissing him that moment. I knew that his lips against mine was intoxicating and I felt lost but found all at once.
But one think i didn't know, is if i regretted kissing him.
"I don't think I do. I don't know"
I said sighing and standing up.
"So are you guys gonna help me get ready."
I didn't feel the need to ask, and they give me a deadpan look making me roll my eyes at them.
"Please!!"
I said in a baby voice, and my sisters are still not impressed with me.
"Did you grow up in a barn?"
Came from Katie
"Would it ever kill you to say please, I never heard of a person dying from saying please."
Ave shook her head.
Ok fine I will admit that It's rear for me to say please.
It's not from a rude place, I just don't think that family especially if you close like my sisters and I, you never have to say please. Like you begging a stranger?
But my sisters don't get it.
"And if I start saying it what if I do die? What then?"
I said ever so dramatically with my hands on the hips.
Katie just shoves me on the bathroom while they looked for what I'll wear, I think.
I took a shower and washed my hair to restore it to its curly state.
I've had it straight for two whole weeks now.
I dried myself and my hair with a towel, came out with my sisters still setting up clothes and makeup.
"You guys are going all out huh?"
My eyes wide, it looked like a photoshoot was about to happen.
"It's your first date in years, so why not!"
Ave said but her eyes on what she was currently doing.
"I gonna keep the hair"
I said taking spritzer and my body lotion.
I put those on and I headed to my drawer and took out a black lace bra and matching panties.
Putting those on, I walked over to the many dresses Katie took out.
Half of what is on the bed is from her spring collection, narcissist much sister.
"So which one are you gonna make me to put on?"
Katie looks up from the dresses and sees me in nothing but my underwear.
"Make up first"
She pushes me towards Ave who set me down in front of the vanity mirror.
With my eyes close she did my face, it took a good 10 minuets.
Maybe I should have left them open to see the steps.
"I really hope you not baking my face"
I teased her, I was not used to makeup. I don't even know what comes before what and how it's applied.
"Relax will you. You look stunning"
She said and she placed the lipstick down.
"Now time for the dress and don't look"
I avoided the mirror and walked to Katie who give me a long spaghetti straps silver dress that hugged me in all the right places, the material felt soft against my skin.
It's one of the dresses that we bought when we went shopping for the second time.
Its just two inches below my knees, and spaghetti streps.
It had a shimmer to it, when the light hits it in the right angles.
So I had to remove the bra after Katie wouldn't even allow it, even without the straps.
"You got good tits"
She said with an eye roll.
I set and Katie fluffed my hair and applied a serum on it, made the curls to come out and shine and glossy but not in a greasy type of way.
"Now you perfect"
Ave said in awe, I walked to the full length in my room.
I can't help the gasp that came out.
The make up was flawless, I could hardly tell that I'm even wearing it.
The dress, God the dress hugged me like a second skin and showed off all my best quantities.
Good tits!
When I looked down I saw the shoes Katie put out for me, 3 inches silver Jimmy Choo.
Complimenting my dress perfectly.
I don't know what to say, I was speechless.
A thank you will do.
I just hugged them.
That's all I could do.
"It's almost time."
Ave chimed and she bounced on her feet with her hands clapping, like a child who walked into a toy store.
Ave handed me a black Clutch with my things in it.
We all came out of my room and went to the kitchen.
Luke came in shortly.
He looked tired more then usual.
"Someone looks like shit"
Ave with no filter said and I swear God didn't give her one.
"Ave"
I reprimand her.
"Oh no she is right, I feel it!!"
He said leaning on Katie as he set, who gave him a kiss on the cheek.
"And why are you dressed so fensy?"
Luke asked me as he rubbed his forehead as if he was reliving a headache.
"I told you this, the date with Liam."
I said moving to the fridge and taking out some water and when I turned I met Luke's face that is adorned with guilt.
"Luke? What's wrong?"
Drawing Katie and Ave's attention, all eyes on him now.
"I think that you should call Liam yourself."
Luke said avoiding my eyes.
Come to think of it, Liam was already
15 minuets late, I just didn't pay attention to that since we are talking.
Dread starts to set in over my body and a cold chill set in my bones.
I had to be the idiot that dressed up huh?
I took out my phone a dialed his number while going out of the kitchen.
I made it to the back yard and set on the swinging chair that had been wrapped in my favorite, white roses.
After what felt like a lifetime he finally answers
"Liam?"
There is silence
"Liam?"
I tried again, then I heard him sigh
That's a good sign!
"Yes I'm hear. I should have called"
He said, his voice sounded different, not the way he sounded just a few hours ago.
"Something very important came up, I'm on a plane to Rome already"
Ouch
"You going to Rome, now?"
He was quiet and sighed again.
"Liam it's okay. Have a safe trip"
My voice overlay sweet.
"Shay please, things are just a mess. I couldn't think straight but I swear I will make it up to you. I'm not planning on staying long"
He did sound sorry, but I still would have appreciated a phone call. So call it childish but I am pissed.
"Like I said Liam it's okay and you don't owe me anything"
"Shay ju"
"Safe travels Liam"
With that I hung up.
I couldn't believe I got stood up.
The first time I said yes I got stood up!
Just my luck.
I set on the swing looking at my phone until the screen went black, not a few minutes passed Luke came out and set next to me.
"It's actually a good reason. It has to do with his family"
I don't say anything, I don't think I could right now.
"Just don't take it too hard or hold it against him. He has been waiting a long time for this."
I just nodded my head and looked up at the sky, it was so beautiful.
It was a new moon tonight, the stars were full as if accompanying the new moon for its first appearance.
I sighed and I took a deep breath.
"It's fine."
I said and I stood up and gave him my hand which he took and we went inside the house.
"What he say?"
Ave asked from her chair, as soon as Luke and I walked in.
"He is on a plane to Rome."
I said taking a sit next to Ave
"What?"
Both my sisters said in shock.
I just nodded and took my previous water.
"Please tell me she is joking!"
Katie asked Luke, who looked from me to his wife.
"Afraid so honey"
His face lookng sad on my behalf, Katie shook her head.
"And he didn't bother to call, she had to call him?"
Katie voiced out her anger.
"Katie please, calm down. Don't get yourself all worked up"
I said taking my clutch and water.
"I'm fine, it was probably too soon for me to start dating anyway"
Every word out of my mouth a complete lie, it tasted foul and wrong.
"This is not right"
Katie said looking at Luke.
"It's okay really. Now I'm gonna go to bed, I'm tired."
I said already walking out of the kitchen and up the stairs to my room.
I'm not angry at him, I have no right to be.
Well at first I was, but then I realized why be angry?
So I just left it and took it as it was.
I walked into the bathroom and washed my face and tied my hair.
I took out Nick's old boxers and an old T-shirt of his seeking comfort.
I climbes on the bed wanting to just be on my own in my own misery.
But I heard my door open, I looked up and I saw Ave.
She came and climbed in bed with me and holds me.
"I said I'm okay, so why you here"
I said laying back down as she held me, and I held on her hand that was around my waist.
"But we both know that you not okay"
She said and silence fell upon us, our breathing is all we heard.
A few minutes turned into an hour, my brain wouldn't shut of.
"I'm just embarrassed"
I said In a whisper, I knew she heard me and I knee she was not sleeping.
"But why?"
I sighed and closed my eyes and opened them again.
"The first time I said yes to a guy, I get stood up. Only in Shay's world that happens"
I said even more embarrassed.
"You have nothing to be embarrassed about, I got stood up last week."
She tried to joke but I didn't have it in me to laugh, I did how ever smile a little.
I don't say anything for sometime.
"I just feel so stupid for even saying yes. And yes, now I can say I regret kissing him."
I said with a sigh.
"But I'm not angry, he was never mine to begin with"