What's the protocol of when you deeply hurt the ones you love, because right now I've found myself in uncharted territory.
I could remember the vow I made last night and I had to make good on it.
As I walked down the stairs heading for the kitchen- It's a Saturday today and knew everyone would be home and would be waking up late -I thought that I could make breakfast for everyone.
It's a start right?
Sure, as if coffee has ever solved wars, because that's were Katie is at.
I found one of the cooks -Faith and a male I didn't know- in the kitchen and a maid- Sabrina- and they were cleaning and Faith about to start making breakfast.
"Morning Ms Shay, coffee!"
The unknown male said going to the coffee machine to pour me cup, I took a seat to have a drink before I could do anything.
"How do you take your coffee Ms Shay?"
He asked me and when I took a good look at him, I noticed that he isn't our usually cook or stuff.
New?
I would have known his name had he been.
And because I'm me, I answered without thinking.
"I take it very seriously"
I said putting my head on the countertop as I groaned from all the work I had to do to appease my sisters, I knew Ave would be easy to please but Katie?
I was not so sure, that woman could really hold a grudge.
"I'm sorry I don't understand ma'am"
He said putting the cup down and turned away from the coffee maker, breaking my train of thought.
"She means black with one teaspoon of sugar"
Faith informs him, a few seconds later my coffee was set next to me.
"Thank you and don't worry about breakfast, I will be doing that just worry about lunch"
He nodded and left the kitchen.
I sat and finished my coffee and helped myself to a second cup, drinking that as I made breakfast, by the time I finished I had already finished the whole pot of coffee which made three big cups.
12 cups, the machine said.
I didnt know how I was gonna get through breakfast if I had so much anxieties already, and I was starting to think that a whole pot of coffee was initially not a good idea.
Maybe another pot will counteract the effects of the first!
It doesn't take long for my family to come downstairs, while Luke played with Katie as she giggled, Ave had a face of disgust but you could just see from afar that it was fake.
She admired Luke and Katie's love and so did I, It was pure and unconditional.
But all faces changed soon as they got in kitchen and saw me.
I stood by the corner awkwardly with a wavering smile on my face.
"Morning."
I said it a little too loud, I cringed a little and brushed that off and went and stood in front of them just as Katie turned to head back out the kitchen, but both Luke and I grabbed her shoulders.
"Katie please, I'm trying"
I said with a softer voice, her shoulders were tense but then Luke leaned in and said something to her for her ears only and I saw her relax a bit.
I removed my hand and went to the breakfast table.
"Come come, I made breakfast.
Here are eggs, scrambled, boiled and well I don't know what you call these type."
I said pointing to the other types of eggs, sunny side up.
"Oh and we have pancakes and we have toast bread as well and we also have fat cakes. You can choose from juice or water, tea or coffee."
All in one breath.
Okay now truly drinking that second pot of coffee was not a good idea.
When I looked up Katie had a look of disbelief and Luke was looking at me with mock disapproval and Ave was looking at me as if saying 'here we go again'
"Don't just stand there, sit and eat before the food gets cold"
I said plating their food for them.
"How many cups of coffee did you have Shay?"
Luke asked after he sat down, I looked at him as if I was thinking about it. But between me and you, I already knew.
"Aaah just two"
I said as I continued to plate.
I heard a snort from Katie and I looked up and saw her and Ave looking at me as if asking "really?"
"How many Shay?"
Luke askd again
"Two whole pots"
I said ducking and continued plating.
"Jesus"
"For Christ sakes"
"You fucken joking?"
All three said, I ignored them and plated and their complaining was background noise.
Don't come at me with my coffee.
When I finished putting food for everyone I sat and joined them, an awkward silence set in.
I refrained from drinking more coffee although that was what I wanted more then anything.
"So Ave you slept well?"
I ask stuffing my face with pancakes, and almost moaned at how good they tasted.
Dzam I'm a good cook.
I looked up at Ave and she nodded while she stared at me.
"Luke you also"
But before I'm done Katie interrupts me.
"Yes Shay, we all slept well"
Katie said then continued eating, Luke gives her a disapproving look which she just shrugged off.
Ave hits her with an elbow on the side, earning a glare from Katie.
"What, even as kids she would do this, she is older now I'm not gonna take it anymore."
She said as if I was not even there.
"I mean she thinks she can buy us, what ever happened to a good old apology?"
She said standing up and taking water from the fridge.
I'm really not good with apologizing and thanking and asking, okay fine. I'm spoiled okay.
"I did though!"
I defended myself when I remembered saying sorry, I also stood up and faced Katie as she walked back up the table.
"Katie I did apologize, last night. And if I apologize more then once it will not make it more meaningful then doing it just once. I said it and I meant it"
She rolled her eyes at me and left the kitchen.
I ran after her and as I passed the sitting room I picked up a throw pillow and threw it at her.
"Don't walk away from me!"
"Why not Shay when you were willing to walk out of our life's last night huh?"
I almost rolled my eyes at that.
"I was joking, I thought you'd take the apology better with the shock of moving thrown in first. Clearly I was wrong"
Trying to explain to her, but the look in her eyes told me she was not hearing it.
"Who the hell do you think you are telling us what's best for us"
She said.
"I'm your fucken sister"
I sassed.
"You will watch your language in my presence, do you you understand me"
I nodded quickly as I took two steps back when she started growling at me.
I looked at Luke for help but he just shrugged and Ave diverted her gaze else were.
"Look Katie, I'm gonna be real with you, and you will take it anyhow you like but I will not explain myself you to anyone again."
I said looking at Katie then to Luke and Ave
Katie gave me a hand gesture to continue.
Taking a deep breath
"Ok, I need you to let me speak without anyone interrupting me. And I may trip over my words so I'm gonna need your understanding."
I took a few more steps to Katie and stood a few inches from her, she stood taller then me by a few inches.
"I love you, I truly do, you have been nothing but great to me.
You welcomed me into your home and took care of my every need. You were selfless and even during your pain you still took care of me."
I moved closer to her when I saw her face soften a bit and took her hands into mine.
"When I finally started living my life again you were my biggest supporter, my own personal cheerleader. But when Liam came and solidified my insecurities, I reverted back to myself, and I thought about how much time you've lost taking care of me. I couldn't do that to you again when I saw and heard your pain last night after another panic attack and please don't hate Liam he didn't do anything."
I placed her hands to my chest, and I could feel the sting of my tears.
"You become a mom and a dad when mom and dad died, you worked hard and put me and Ave through school and made sure I got a good job. I'm so so sorry for hurting you the way I did, that was the last thing I wanted to do."
She didn't hesitate into pulling me into her arms and giving me a big hug.
"I love you too, but I will not forgive that easily"
She said letting go of me, turned to go upstairs
God this woman is too much, I have to think fast before she gets upstairs.
She likes Bargaining and if that person suffers then even better.
I could almost see her smirk even if she was faced away from me, I could taste that smirk.
"Wait"
I said clanging my stomach for what am about to do, I will have a huge strike on my hands from all of my cells and Fibers.
As if she was waiting for me to say that she stopped and I looked at Ave and Luke and they both knew what was coming.
"You never learn do you?"
Luke said as he folded his arms on his chest.
Katie turned and placed her hands on her hips with a lifted eyebrow.
"What do you want?"
I asked, but there was one thing that she always punished me with when I was still in high school.
This was how she knew how to discipline me since nothing else worked.
"I'm not a monster that I will do that to you Shay."
She said turning back around.
"Wait wait wait, fine"
I said hanging my head and feeling everything in me protesting.
Shay baby, don't do this.
I'm at war with my conscious and I knew I was gonna regret this,but who said I had to make it easy!
"Have I told you how much I love you"
I gave her a sheepish grin, but she gave me a deadpan look.
"I will get you that Versace shirt you wanted"
She was still not impressed.
Who says no to Versace?
"Those Paris fashion week runway shoes you said you would kill for!"
Again a deadpan look.
"Come on, I'm literally bankrupting myself here!"
I said throwing my hands in the air, but she didn't say anything, she just turned and started walking upstairs, and I heard her speak as if to herself but she knew I could hear her.
"She always tries to buy my forgiveness"
I heard Luke and Ave snickering behind me, I turned and shoot them a quick hard glare.
"Ok fine I will give up coffee for a month"
I blurted it out and I immediately started feeling like I really needed some coffee.
**gasp** what have you done
God this woman, why does she have to do me so?
"Oh, so my feelings are worth only a month?"
She asked turning around to face me again.
"If it's more then a month can I have one cup at work."
Again with the deadpan look.
"Two?"
Nothing
"Three?"
Nothing
"Four?"
My eyes were as wide as sources, for four months.
Four months?
I didn't think I could go that long, and she saw my panic and she smirked.
God why do I love my sister again, can anyone remind me why?
I want another one, this one is not working.
"Four months, no cheating and no you may not have one even at work. And that's not only for hurting my feelings but it's for belittling yourself."
She said going upstairs and I was left there looking where she once stood
"What just happened?"
I asked myself.
Okay, I didn't think I could do this, I knew I couldn't.
We can sneak one in and hope it ties us down.
She didn't say I could start today, and I already drank coffee today so I'm sure she won't mind.
Just as I turn I bump into Ave and Luke.
"I don't think she will take it like that."
I tilt my head to the side in confusion
"Your plan to drink more coffee all day today since you already had today."
Ave said with a smirk
"We heard it all."
" mumbler"
They both laughed and left me standing with my mouth open.
My own sister deprived me of my life force.
She is mean
She is cruel
She is crueler
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A change to how they always cry and emotional, it's a bond and playful side of the sisters.
Hope you guys enjoyed it as much as I enjoyed writing it.
But how would you be without coffee if you are a coffee lover?🤔🤔🤔
I know I would be charged if murder😁😁😁