Hell.
It's hell.
I'm in hell.
When do four months end?
How many months are in four months?
I don't think I could survive, I think I read somewhere, were a lady stopped drinking coffee and she died.
I think I might be next.
A knock came on my door and I continued to typing on my laptop ignoring the person.
Again the knock came and I stood up angrily, matched to my door and yanked it open only to see Luke.
I slammed my office door on his face with a snare and walked back to my desk.
When I sat I heard my door open and I continued typing on my laptop.
"Shay it's only been three weeks"
I continued typing and not looked at him not in the mood to entertain his silly comment but I answered anyway.
"And you stood there and didn't say a word"
I heard him sigh
Have I told you I hate people who sigh, it irks me.
So far so good with the annual ball of the company by the way.
And things were going well, well as well as could be expected with no life force for me to draw from.
Life force to draw from?
Where am I Star Wars?
I scolded myself for being melodramatic, with a small shake of my head.
"Luke I have a meeting in the next few minutes, so I'm afraid I can't entertain you right now"
Slammed the laptop close and looked for the planner and note pad.
"How is it going."
He asked and I wanted to punch him for his silly question.
"How do your think it's going?"
He groaned and ran his hands on his face as I went past him and out of my office.
"Shay"
I ignored him and went to were the meeting was held and found all my team there apart from Lucy.
Of course
"Ok people how far are we with everything, we having this baby in a few weeks"
I took a seat and looked around at the confused faces.
"What, did you guys forget what we doing here. Or perhaps you in the wrong work meeting"
I opened my planner and notes to see how far everything and everyone is.
"No Ms Shay just that you always wait for us all to be here before we start and Lucy is still not here."
I leaned back on my chair, and folded my arms.
"Becky did you send everyone the email about this meeting this morning?"
"Yes Ms Shay."
Becky ever so sweet said.
"Now Becky can you explain to me why it is my problem that Lucy is not here?"
Everyone kept quiet, while Becky tried hiding a smirk but failing.
"Right, Now, Peter what do you have so far?"
"Well since the theme is fire and ice I got this great artist who can turn any room to what ever you seek. And I was thinking of giving the room a illusion of being outside in a snowy place and another room as if fire was coming out of the wall and from the ground."
Imagining it in my head, I couldn't really see it.
I didn't like to do things if I couldn't imagine it, and if I couldn't then....
"Can this artist meet up with me to show me some of his work?"
"Yes Ms Shay"
"Dadi?"
I asked moving on.
"Well miss Shay I got this great place where not only do we rent the waiter but everything that we need"
"And what happened to our usual supplier?"
Putting down my pen and focused all my attention on Dadi.
"Well ma'am I thought this was cheaper"
He said as if it's a known fact.
"Relationships Dadi, and responsibility, not cost."
He nodded and wrote something down, just then, in came Lucy strolling like she owned the place.
An hour late.
She took her seat.
"Cindy, please make sure you coordinate with peter in this. I want no mistakes"
"Well, I have a meeting to get to, after lunch then"
We all stood and packed our things.
"Huh Ms Shay you didn't get my update or give your approval"
She sais but I just ignored her and took my things and got out and went to my office.
It's illegal to murder your staff
It's illegal to murder your staff
I had to remind myself during this horrible period of having no coffee.
I had a shopping appointment with my sisters, and to tell you the truth I was not looking forward to it.
When I got to my office, I found Ave already there.
"Can we just skip this shopping nonsense?"
I said setting my things down and already packing my handbag, even if I didn't want to go, I knew they'll still make me go.
"No way José, you coming and please fix your face"
She said taking her handbag and going out of my office.
"And please fix your face"
I say lowly in a mocking voice as I followed her out my office into Luke's office.
When we get there, Luke and Katie were all lovey dovey, Katie a blushing mess like a school to whatever Luke said to her.
He was holding up her chin with his thumb and index, his other hand pulling her by the waist and her hands were on his chest.
The look they gave each other filled me with pride, that my own sister found something that was so rear.
I was just looking at them gushing and swooning over their love while they were in their own world.
It was beautiful to watch and suppose to be a private moment.
"Are you guys done? I don't want to be here all day"
My lovely sweet little sister ruined the moment
Note the sarcasm.
I rolled my eyes and pulled her out of the office so Katie and Luke could have their moment.
She protested the whole way to the elevators.
"Shut up you big baby. Leave Katie alone"
She smirked at me and folded her arms,
"What?"
I asked when she gave me that look.
"You hoping she will let you off the hook about the coffee thing don't you?"
I gasped, well fake gasped.
I did
It's not like I didn't think about it, but saying it out loud seems mean.
Or not.
"How dare you?"
I faked modification, and I am a good actor, at least I fancied myself one.
"Don't give me that. You nice but not that nice. You not fooling me missy"
I didn't say anything after as we waited for the elevator but Katie was the first to get to us and not long after we were riding the elevator down.
"I'm not wearing that."
Shaking my head and folding my arms to my chest, the dress was just way too much for me.
The simpler the better.
"You can't wear something simple, it's your own event. And you gonna meet a lot of people"
I shook my head still, I refused to give into that.
The dress had two slits on both sides and the neck plunged almost to my bellybutton, the only thing I liked was the color.
"But it's black"
Ave reasoned, well tried.
"And that's better how, my whole body is gonna be on display I'm not wearing it."
I said moving out the dressing room to look for more dresses.
Katie bumped into me on my way out, with a dress on her hand.
The color was what me drew to it, it had a sweetheart neckline. It started off at the neckline red and as it went down the color red becomes deeper and deeper till at the end it almost looked black. It had a long slit on the side up to my hipbone and a small train for a dramatic flare.
I couldn't take my eyes of off it.
It was beautiful, not to dramatic for me but it was not simple as well.
"Here, I think you'll like this."
She handed it over to me and pushed me back into the dressing room.
I took my own breath away.
Dzam I'm that good.
I loved it, I looked flawless and I started imagining myself all dolled up and stuff and what not.
When I stepped out of the dressing room my sisters both gasped with their eyes wide.
Dzam I'm that good.
"Shay"
Katie said as I did a 360 spin showing off the dress.
"You look gorgeous sweetie"
Katie said Hugging me.
I felt beautiful, it was almost a forgotten feeling altogether.
"Ok Katie you in charge of my dress, and better be as good as this"
Ave said and I laughed at her while Katie called her jealous.
Katie found three dresses for Ave and she picked the plum colored one.
She looked so innocent, a contrast to who she was.
She looked absolutely gorgeous, the dress was a high low dress, with a bow on her front side, a deep maroon lace on the bottom and sweetheart neckline.
The bodice a corset like that held her chest up and slimmed her waist.
"Wow Ave, you look beautiful"
I said as she was admiring herself on mirror.
"Your turn Katie"
I said but she shook her head no
"Luke is getting mine, a surprise he said"
She said blushing and she busied herself with our dresses so we wouldn't see her blushing, but we already saw.
"Awe"
Me and Ave said to which made her blush even more.
"Shut up"
I got next to Ave and mock whispered to her.
"I think she is blushing"
And we giggled like schools girls
"Awe when will we get man that will get us dresses as gifts"
And we started swooning and doing dreamy eyes at Katie.
She couldn't help the grin on her face as she tried to hide it in annoyance but failed.
"You guys are gonna make me old before my time. Now remove that dress so I can pay or else you will be paying for your own dresses"
She still faked annoyance, me and Ave just burst out laughing, with Ave almost tripping on her own feet trying to run back to the changing room and remove the dress but she was laughing so hard, she was tripping.
Her almost tripping made me and Katie burst out laughing even more.
"Idiot"
Katie muttered with a smile, and our eyes met.
Her dark browns sparking with happiness, that's all I ever wanted.
I couldn't help myself I just went to her and hugged her.
Joy, pure joy is what I felt, and I was happy.
For the first time in a long time, I knew I would be fine, I would be happy.
"Awe,"
Ave said as she walked out the dressing room, with her dress on her hands.
"Can I get in on this"
We couldn't help ourselves as we laughed so hard and we pull her into our embrace as well.
"Come let's get something to eat, I'm hungry"
Ave said as we went to pay for the dresses.
"And some coffee, this shopping really did me in."
I said with just a spark of hope.
"Hell no"
Katie said not even feeling sorry or looking my direction.
I groaned and stomped my feet like a child.
"A girl can try"
Ave commented giving me a sly grin to which I gave her a playful glare.
These are my girls, my family and my life.
And I was so blessed to have them in my life.