He was the first one but, I don't care about it.
I think he was more a problem than a significant person to me.
Today, I'm going to talk about my first romance; this may not look like something related to my big question but, at some point, it is so, please try to read carefully.
I didn't give him a unique name as the other special people in my life because he was my first boyfriend but, he and our relationship weren't so significant. In that relationship, I felt: love, angry, stress, upset, deception and, other complicated feelings; but those feelings weren't only his fault.
As I say, the beginnings are interesting.
The beginning of my relationship wasn't something strange or different. I was studying a second language; it was my second month and, I felt nervous because I was going to be in another class than my classmates of the last month.
The first day, I entered the classroom and sat in a second-row seat, but nobody sat next to me so, I had to partner with the boy in front of me. When we finished the activity, we started to talk about the school and other topics when I realized that I was studying in the same school as his younger sister. After the class finished, we exchanged cell phone numbers; the days after, we talked and texted a lot. For me, that was funny and new to have a male friend because I'm a bit shy and I didn't have male friends.
I think that did not love exactly. I think it was more like an attraction.
The second month since we met, I started to feel attraction towards him because he was a nice person, he made me smile and; was smart.
Maybe it was too fast and; I had to be sure about everything.
After four months since we met, he confessed to me and asked me if I wanted to be his girlfriend; I accepted but, maybe I shouldn't have done it because all changed after that. We used to text a lot, but when we started to go out, he was always busy and, I understood that our studies were a big priority. However, it wasn't too much to text for thirty minutes; for that reason, I didn't try to insist more. The situation was the same in the institute; I had to start the conversation: if I didn't do that, he didn't talk to me. That was the situation for the first two months; then, one day suddenly, he texted me at night so, we texted about our day and. I said to him that I didn't go to school because I was feeling sick; while I texted that, he responded with: "Are you okay?", "Did you go to the doctor?"; and things like that. For me, that was strange because he has never been worried about me; before I could reply to his messages, he told me that he was going to change the way he behaved toward me. That surprised me and worried me because, when a person changes, it is a long process and takes time but, I believed in his words. The days after, he texted with me more and called me by love names; that was good, but later he said to me: "I love you."; which was too fast because we were going out for four months and my feelings weren't strong enough to say that so, I didn't say that.
It's believed that the first kiss is something significant for boys and girls.
I had my first kiss but; it wasn't any special.
I think that some experiences generate different feelings depending on the person.
I had my first kiss with him. I didn't feel any extraordinary even I wasn't happy; maybe all was an error, I don't know.
Well, return with my story. The situation was the same for three months and; I thought our relationship was going to improve but; another problem appeared. When we started our relationship, I talked about it with some people I trust and some people in my family; however, he just talked about it with some friends, which became a big problem.
One day, his mother saw our conversations and, she was too angry due to, she thought that the lowered in his grades was my fault which, wasn't. We only texted at night, for one hour or one hour and a half; besides, we didn't see each other or go on dates so, that must not have been my fault and, I knew it like him, but he neither didn't defend me nor say the real reason what I never know. After that, he said that we had to broke up the relationship, and I agreed because, on the one hand, I was exhausted and tired of the relationship which, returned to its initial point; on the other hand, to break up the relationship was the better solution for his problem. Nevertheless, I wanted to talk to him to the relationship ended well but, he was avoiding me for weeks so, I decided to solve the situation quickly; for that reason, I broke up with him by messages while he was texting me cliche phrases like: "I know you'll find someone better.", "I hope that another person values what I could not."; and more.
Even though I was breaking up with my first boyfriend, I was relieved but sad because I wanted the relationship to work and go well and; I tried hard but, it didn't happen.
Afterward, I didn't talk to him again or see him.
The fault was of us.
I didn't complain or try to say something.
He didn't care since the beginning.
Maybe there was a solution but, now it's a bit late.
I forget to mention that his name was Angel, sorry.
Going back to my question, he didn't care about my feelings. Although he was my boyfriend, he didn't think about my feelings at any moment: asking me to be his girlfriend after ignoring me since the first day and saying fake promises. All is over; now I hope I'll have better luck in my next relationship.
Is this boring? I hope you like this story because the final isn't near. Please be patient.