Dos "aplastamientos" ya conocidos, otros dos para saber ahora.
No tuve un romance o una historia de amor emocionantes o dramáticos, pero me gusta lo que tenía.
Tal vez esto sea un poco aburrido, pero esa es mi historia, esa es mi realidad.
TERCERO: Alex.
También lo conocí en la Escuela Primaria.
Un año, Jake cambió a otra escuela, y ese año conocí a Alex. Era inteligente, un poco tranquilo y alegre.
La mayoría de los compañeros de clase se reunieron entre nosotros durante unos años, así que como nuevo estudiante, fue bastante el primer mes; más tarde se sintió más seguro y comenzó a hacer amigos. Hablamos porque me pidió que lo ayudara en Matemáticas, mientras le enseñaba que podía saber mejor de él y nos llevamos bien.
Ese año, no estaba hablando mucho con él, y al año siguiente hablé menos con él porque Jake regresó a la escuela. Eso fue normal porque, en ese momento, sólo pensaba en Alex como un amigo y no más.
Un estado puede cambiar con el tiempo sin que te des cuenta.
Todo comenzó al año siguiente cuando tuve que cambiarme a otra escuela. Estaba muy nerviosa, no conocería a nadie en mi nueva escuela o eso fue lo que asumí.
El primer día, llegué al salón de clases y me senté cerca de la parte trasera del aula cuando vi a dos de mis antiguos compañeros de clase, con los que no he hablado demasiado, pero para mí era mejor que nada después de eso, decidí hablar con uno de mis nuevos compañeros de clase, ella era agradable. Entonces, vi a Alex entrando en el aula y me sentí feliz, tenía un amigo en mi salón de clases.
Eso fue lo que pensé, pero hizo muchos amigos rápidamente y creí que ya no iba a hablar conmigo. A pesar de eso, me habló, pero más después de clases porque caminamos juntos a nuestras casas; hablamos de nuestros viejos amigos, los cursos, y cosas por el mismo.
Normalmente caminábamos juntos y a veces con algunos amigos, a menudo compramos algunos dulces para comer. En el aula, solíamos hacer los ejercicios de matemáticas juntos.
Ese sentimiento de atracción era más fuerte que los demás porque entendía mejor, pero tenía "un rival"; ella era Anne, una chica que conoció durante las vacaciones de verano y también que estudió en nuestro mismo aula, era una persona popular típica: hermosa, inteligente, amigable y conocida. Muchos de nuestros compañeros de clase pensaban en ellos como pareja y me dolió un poco así que quería no sentir atracción hacia él, lo intenté, pero no pude.
La misma pregunta otra vez. No sé exactamente, no era indiferente ni demasiado preocupado por mí, así que creo que ambos son los dos.
La tercera era la atracción más fuerte, pero aún no era suficiente para ser amor.
Es hora de una anécdota: Alex, un paseo, una charla y celos de ninguna parte.
Un día, estábamos caminando hacia nuestras casas. Siempre caminaba cerca de la tienda de la madre de un viejo compañero de clase para hablar unos minutos con ella; así que me preguntó: "¿Por qué hablas con la señora todos los días?", le respondí: "Porque me gusta hacerlo", después de eso, parecía un poco enojado y traté de preguntarle al respecto, pero no me respondió sin importar cuántas veces lo intenté.
The next day, he said me if we could walk to another route, and I said: " Sure, no problem.", but while we walked I heard someone called my name so I saw back to me and there was my old classmate which I started to talk for a few minutes until Jake told me that it was late which wasn't true but he took my hand and made me walk meanwhile I said goodbye to my old classmate. Then, while he was taking my hand yet he asked me: "Do you want to eat something? I can buy some snacks if you want.", that was sudden but I agreed so he bought me a choc chips cookies and a juice and I was eating them with him, who was still taking my hand. Finally, he left me in front of my building and said goodbye.
When I realized that he was jealous, I felt happy. I thought that he may be felt a similar feeling as mine.
FOURTH ONE: Fabrizio.
I met him when I changed to another school and I wanted to not feel attracted to Alex.
He was an excellent person, he was very smart, good in sports, kind, talkative and funny. I didn't feel as much attracted to him as my other crushes. I felt happy and great with him because at that moment Alex was talking less with me and more with Anne; I felt sad when I saw it so talking with Fabrizio was amazing and relaxing, he was a really good friend. Sometimes we talked about the most unusual topics also we were a bit competitive so we tried to have the best scores in the exams, it was a friendly competition between us.
At some point, I believed that I could felt attracted to him instead of Alex, but that didn't happen, I only saw him as a friend although I supposed that it was better because I needed a friend, not another crush. I appreciate each moment with him.
The fourth one wasn't a crush and an attraction wasn't woke up by him but love, yes, a friend's love. He was a friend which was better.
My question appears again. Some of his words or maybe the majority of them showed me that he cared about me and how I felt. He has never been indifferent about my feelings or tried to ignore them; sometimes he asked how I felt or what happened if he saw that my usual behavior was different which wasn't easy to recognize because I usually try to act normal as much as possible, but he noticed it and asked so he cared about me as I cared about him.
Time for an anecdote: Fabrizio, braids, a walk, unexpected words, and a thought.
There was one day that I didn't walk with Alex and after I walked for a few minutes, I heard someone called my name, it was Fabrizio who sometimes walked to his house because he usually took the bus.
That day, we had an important presentation the girls had to comb their hair with braids, and the boys had to cut their hair; in the morning, I said to him: "You look handsome and elegant with that hairstyle.", I said the compliment because it was true and I'm a sincere person.
Back to the walk, we walked a few minutes when suddenly he said to me: "I forgot to said that you look beautiful and so cute with the braids but also with your usual hairstyle.", those were unexpected words because I didn't usually get compliments about my appearance so I only said: " Thank you.", but he responded me: "What's with that expression? Does anybody say that you're beautiful? because it's obvious that you are.", his words were unexpected again and I responded him: " No, it doesn't. It's just a bit surprising.", but he replicated me: "It shouldn't be surprising because you're beautiful and smart and it's is very easy to see."After that, we kept walking and I changed the topic of conversation because, in my opinion, those were too many unexpected words for a day.
When I arrived at my home, I thought: " It's nice to get a compliment but to get sincere words is fantastic." That day was unforgettable.
Well, this was my love story or something like that, it wasn't so dramatic or unusual like I said in the beginning but it was and I learned some things and I met great people while my love story was happening.