It's funny how in your life: you can have two opposites as special people but; I like it a lot so, it doesn't matter.
Just as I have my twin, I also have my opposite who is very different in appearance. In personality, we are similar, although that is not always good. She has been with me for longer than my twin so, I guess I influenced her a bit due to all the time I spent with her, however, our similar personalities have led us to a lot of discussions or disagreements since our ideas aren't always alike.
With her, I can sincerely talk about many things just like she does with me, and everything said in our conversations is kept secret because for other people: they would sound like simple complaints or nonsense words.
Sometimes my mask is as perfect as she thinks I am
That's a lie. I'm not perfect and, I don't want to be perfect. I only want to be me.
At times she has told me that I'm perfect, which isn't true. I'm just a hard-working and ambitious person; when she calls me perfect, I feel like she doesn't care about me since those kinds of words add more pressure to me than I usually have.
The fact that you have different skills, and are good at them, doesn't make you perfect. I know; that some people like to hear those kinds of words, but other people do not feel the same.
Here comes another anecdote:
. My opposite, like me, likes to listen to music a lot, so one day she told me: "You're Heather"; at first I was going to feel offended since I thought she was talking about the Heathers but, my opposite was referring to the Heather of the song Heather; but at that point, I felt confused and asked her, "Why am I Heather?" and she replied: "Because you're perfect"; to which I replied that I wasn't perfect, however after saying that she began to name my "qualities" which were only certain things that I do well and nothing about my personality or way of being. For me, that was very superficial since although they're things that I like, they don't make me perfect.
They are opposites, disagree most of the time.
They can't stay in the same room without a fight a little bit.
My twin and my opposite are like water and oil; their densities are different so, they don't come together. They tend to fight or argue a lot for different things but, that doesn't mean that they don't get along or hate each other, only that they're both very stubborn so, they don't like to be wrong; this's where I go back in as a mediator, every time, both argue they talk to me to complain so it's difficult, since not always one of them is right so, I have to give them a solution.
I also have to clarify that, the discussion no matter if they're of my soulmate and her beloved, or my twin and my opposite, they're always exhausting, stressful, and leave me between a rock and a hard place.
She said that she loves me but, I think she uses me.
I try to help her but, for her: I'm annoying.
My opposite always asks me for "help" with various things that I end up doing by myself; but when I tried to advise her on matters that I'm sure are wrong, she gets angry and feels that I don't understand her which, is the opposite; I know the desire to have friends, to be noticed and heard; however, the way she's trying to get it is dangerous and very insecure. I care for her and, I fear that she might hurt in some way.
I think that she wants the attention that; she didn't receive before
She isn't the problem; past experiences were the problem.
She has gone through many difficult experiences throughout her short life and, that was too much for her, which led to her current acting. I don't want to justify her actions or anything like that; but I suppose that some things had a lot to do with her personality and, they're not entirely reliable or positive; I say this because not only our decisions make us who we are, but also our experiences that do not always happen of our own free will.
Everything experienced in our lives makes us who we are; if at any moment, we want to change it, it is only our decision and not someone else's.
Knowing these things, I will stay with her helping her and taking care of her? Yes, because she is important to me.
She's and will always be very important to me, so I'll be with her, supporting her as much as I can. Regardless of our differences or disagreements now or in the future. With her, it's the same as with my soulmate, the beloved of my soulmate, and my twin; although they've caused me harm, I can't stop being by her side due to how special they are to me.
I'm the type of person who makes enemies of people who hurt people who I consider unique. I considered myself a loyal person and, I'm glad that this's one of my qualities. Of course, some people only played with that and only left. Hey, nobody knows in advance that something like this will happen.
Time for another anecdote:
. A long time ago, I had a friend who was going through lots of problems so, I always listened to her and helped where I could. One day something serious happened, and my friend had made a difficult mistake to solve. Days after, she called me saying that something had happened and that the error was gone; I remember that day I cried a lot. However, I found out later that everything she had told me was simple lies, so I decided not to speak to her again. My confidence had been mocked and betrayed. I didn't get angry; I was disappointed; I couldn't believe her words over.
Has anyone ever betrayed your trust? Did it hurt?