"Did you hear Sect Leader Jin Rulan disappeared!?" "What!?" "I heard he ran away!" "why would he run away from his own sect!?"
Sizhui POV
It's been two months since Jin ling went missing, I should have went after him when he left to Lanling Jin, I should have held him when he cried when he was heartbroken I felt so stupid, I couldn't stop thinking of him crying it breaks my heart knowing I couldn't help my friend. I know I shouldn't jump to conclusions but I just can't get the feeling that the people of Lanling have something to do with it and what's worse is nobody is allowed in Lanling and rumors are going around say that Jin ling ran away! I'm worried and scared, I blame myself for causing Jin ling so much pain Why couldn't I help him! Why can't I do anything!
Narrator POV
After Jin ling disappeared Sizhui hasn't been the same. He hardly slept or ate, he stayed up at night worrying that Jin ling could have been hurt or worse he was kidnapped! Sizhui hasn't talked to Jingyi or Zizhen ever since Jin ling disappeared and the arguement. He felt that he was Useless for not helping his friend, he still kept up with his studies but you could see the bags under his eyes and the redness from crying Lan zhan and Wei ying were worried about their son, but they weren't the only ones who were worried Jingyi and Zizhen felt terrible for what they did, When ever they would try to talk to Sizhui, he would make up an excuse to leave or avoid them at any cost. Sizhui may be a Cinnamon roll but sometimes he has dark thoughts, he talks to Wen ning about them sometimes but right now he didn't care the only thing he cared about was Jin ling. Sizhui had a crush on Jin ling ever since they met he had never looked at anyone the same but before he could even confess Jin ling was dating Jingyi and he had to push his feelings for Jin ling away and continue being friends with him and ignore the heartache, anyway Sizhui was on his way to the Library Pavillion when he was grabbed by the wrist, he turned and saw Jingyi and Zizhen " Can we talk" Jingyi asked hesitantly looking at Sizhui" I'm sorry, I have to study maybe next time" Sizhui said as he looked away " than we can wait" Sizhui silently huffed but just smiled, "alright but let me go please" Sizhui said with venom in his voice, Jingyi let go of Sizhui's wrist and watched as he walked to the Pavilion and close the door.
back to Sizhui's POV
I close and lock the door to the Library, I can't talk to them not now. Knowing that Jin ling is out their ALONE or hurt makes me feel more terrible than I already do. ' Why do they always have to try to talk to me can't they tell that I don't want to talk to them!' I sigh and rub my temple, " Why am I so stupid... maybe I should look for Jin ling again" I walk towards the window and look to my right, ' Those idiots are still waiting for me?' I shake my head not wanting to listen to the voice and silently as I could jump down and race out of Gusu. Once I got to the gate I walked out and started my Journey to find A-ling.
After 3 hours
I checked every place that Jin ling loves to go to but nothing... ' where are you Jin ling?' I started walking deeper into the forest and heard something..... 'is that whimpering?' "Jin ling? is that you?" I walk towards the sound and wait..... is that...Fairy?! "Fairy!" I run towards her, she was covered in blood and was laying on her side, ' she's hurt!' I started to pick up fairy and she started whimpering " shh it's ok I got you now it's ok" I get on my sword and immediately fly to Gusu as fast as I could. Once I get to Gusu I immediately race to the infirmary forgetting about the rule to not run. "please help her!" I give Fairy to the doctor and was told to wait outside for her. " A-yuan!" I look to my left to see Senior wei and Hanguang-Jun, " A-yuan are you ok?! who's blood is that!?" " I found Fairy when I was looking for Jin ling she was covered in blood and was injured..." I bite my bottom lip and look down, " Wait you found Fairy!?" I nod " a-and she's here!" I nod "....." I look up and mom is hiding behind dad.... " the doctors are checking on her now... Hanguang-Jun may she stay in Gusu until she gets better she might tell us where Jin ling is!" "....mm" I smile and nod "ok". We waited for who knows how long, 'What's taking them so long! my patients is running out!' I try 5o breathe to calm down ' one, two, three, four, five' than the door opened. "Are you the one that brought the dog?" I nodded " Is she ok?" I saw the doctor frown ' something's not right', "I'm glad you found her just in time, she was on the verge of death if you didn't help her" " she was gonna die...." "Yes, but we saved her just before she could pass on, she needs rest" "ok..." I look at mom with a frown " we'll never find Jin ling we'll we?..." "....." "....." "Sizhui!!" I turn to my right and see Jingyi and Zizhen running towards me ' I can't deal with them right now!' " Sizhui, is it true that you found fairy!" "yes..." "Is she ok!" "no she is just resting" " can we see her?" "no" I turn and start speed walking away from them. "Why not!?" "Becuase she doesn't wanna see you two" "but Sizhui Jin ling is our friend maybe we can help-" "NO! YOU CAN'T HELP!" "Sizhui we-" "JUST SHUT UP! WHY WOULD YOU TWO HELP IF YOU CAUSED IT!! JIN LING WAS HURT BECUASE OF YOU TWO JUST STAY OUT OF THE WAY AND STAY AWAY FROM FAIRY!" I pant heavy and saw tears in there eyes. " A-Yuan..." I look around and see everyone looking at me... "STOP STARING AT ME!" I don't know why but everyone had fear in their eyes even my parents but.... I liked it.... the fear felt nice... I run to my room ignoring my parents calls and slam the door shut..... 'what's wrong with me...' I burst into tears... ' Jin ling where are you..please I need you....I love you '
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Hello my Lotuses!!! sorry I didn't update it took me a while to update it cause I kept changing it but thanks to a friend I managed to get it done. Till next time Bye my dears!!