( Sorry it's been so long since I updated.... but now here is a chapter to make up for it Also I can't post the pictures so you an see them on wattpad to see them. it the title 💛💙)
Narrator's POV
In the past Six months ( Six months have passed since Jin ling disappeared ) with everything happening with Sizhui and the others, Jin ling was going through hell. The elders would humiliate him in many different ways. They had broke Jin ling in may ways that would make a person become sick to their stomach... and nobody helped him.. Since Jin ling is a 'spoiled mistress' nobody cared what happened, in fact Some of them would beat up Jin ling secretly. The elders would force Jin ling into a brothel and make him dress as a women. Jin ling was broken... he couldn't even call for help... they would have beaten him to death like before... Jin ling had only one thing to do to survive... be obedient.. Jin ling had developed a place in his mind when he would get beat or... other things he would go to that place and escape reality.
Jin ling's POV
"Get up you whore!" I felt pain in my stomach causing me to bit my lip, not wanting to get punished again. I don't know how long I was here.... but does it really matter? I feel dead on the inside, I felt a tug on the chain around my neck, " Let's go " I did as told and forced my body to move. I followed Jin wangyong out the room and into a another one.... but this one was nicer and beautiful. I saw clothes and hair accessories on the bed, "get dressed and stay put!" I nodded and he unlocked the chain. I walked towards the bathroom and the tub was already filled with hot water. ' when was the last time I washed in hot water.... usually it's cold ' I looked off my torn clothes from 5 days ago and stepped into the bath. ' I wonder if I drowned.... would anyone know that I'm dead.... will JiuJiu be disappointed in me.... Of course he would, your weak, pathetic, good for nothing whore Maybe your right.... If JiuJiu would see me now he would be disgusted.. ' I grabbed the soap and started to wash body and hair... it felt nice knowing I had privacy for once... Once I was finished I stepped out and walked into the bedroom... ' thank god he isn't in the room anymore ' I grabbed the clothes and hair accessories and place them on. Once I was finished I looked in the mirror.... ' I need to cut my bangs they grew too long.. '
( The outfit is at the bottom of the chapter)
"You look beautiful.." I flinched when I felt a hand on my stomach... ' I wish I could kick him on the nuts... ' I nodded, " Let's go " I followed him out the room and onto a secret passageway in Lanling Jin where only the elders and myself know. Once whe had gotten to the end of the road. A carriage was there and a few of the elders and duplicates. I walked towards the door of the carriage and got in. The door closed and I watched as the got on their horses and we left Lanling Jin to go to out destination.... A brothel.
2 hours later
' I'm so bored... ' I look outside the window a little, 'I wish I could see A-Yuan again.. ' Then the carriage was pulled to a stop. I was forced towards the other side. "Ah!" I rub my head in pain, "ooww what happened..." I glance put the window and saw.....A-Yuan!
Sizhui's POV
It's been Six months since Jin ling has disappeared.. everything went to hell, Clan leader Jiang hates Jingyi and zizhen, Everyone looks scared when I look at them or go near them, My parents keeping looking at me weird, I haven't talked to Jingyi and zizhen since they had hurted Jin ling... It's my fault that he's gone... it's my fault that I let him go broken hearted... 'I'm so stupid....No your not it's their fault that he's gone! What good will it do if I might never see him again.. .....' I sighed In defeat once again. ' what went so wrong? Jingyi and zizhen did, they hurted our treasure and they will pay for it! I'm not killing them Why not! Karma is a real bitch, ' I was so in my thoughts that I was almost hit by a carriage. " Hey! Watch where your going! " I look at the men and bow, " I apologize, I was not looking where I was going" I move out the way and let them pass. But I don't know why but..... I felt like I should follow them... So when they had passed I followed them silently, hiding away so they couldn't find me.
Narrator's POV
After Jin ling saw Sizhui he closed the curtain. He couldn't believe that Sizhui was here... but he couldn't go to Sizhui because he would be killed... or worse they would kill Fairy (Jin ling doesn't know that they threw Fairy out of Lanling), kidnap Sizhui and beat him to death! Jin ling could only assume the worst. So he said nothing. Sizhui had followed the group all the way to a brothel. He hid behind the trees and watched as a women came out of the carriage... Sizhui was shocked by her beauty but... something was off about her.. she glanced over and saw him... but she had a look of fear and... relief. Sizhui waited until they had went into the brothel. Once they had went inside Sizhui quickly as possible followed them. Once he was inside he started to look for the girl and politely apologized to countless women that wanted to sleep with him. Then... he saw her.. she was staring at him and made a hand motion telling him to follow her... so he did. He followed her into a room and she was sitting on the bed. "Excuse me, miss " Sizhui said, the women looked up at him, " Are you ok? You looked scared, " Sizhui said with worry in his voice. "Hey! You can't be back here!" Sizhui jumped at the voice and saw one of the men that was with the girl. "Let's go " The girl got up and walked pass Sizhui, but she had slipped something in his hand and left with the man. Sizhui was suspicious but said nothing and watched them leave the room and disappear in the crowd of women and men. Sizhui walked out the brothel but something fell out of his robes. ' what's this? '
Sizhui's POV
' why would she give me this?' I open up the note.
The note said this :
I'm not dead
But I'm not alive
And I'm not living
I'm just trying to survive
"....." I reread the note, ' the more I read the note the more it doesn't make sense, I'm not dead, But I'm not alive And I'm not living I'm just trying to survive What does that mean... What if your reading it wrong? How am I reading the wrong? Read it in a different way you dumbass! I'm not dead means that your not dead, But I'm not alive means that your alive, And I'm not living means I'm living somewhere that's dangerous And I'm just trying to survive Means that I'm in trouble and that I need help..... ... You don't think... This isn't just a note... It's a message! Then that means....Jin ling's alive!! And he's in trouble! ' I rush back inside trying to find the women but... it's like she disappeared in thin air! ' where did she go! '
Jin ling's POV
' I hope Sizhui gets the message... ' After giving Sizhui the note I was dragged to the other side of the brothel. " What do you think you were doing! " I looked at Jin wangyong, "Fuck you " Smack! I fell down down onto the floor holding my cheek, " Don't test me Jin Rulan! " I bit my lip not saying anything and let myself get dragged into a room, " Now make yourself useful! " I flinch at his words and was forced into the bed. " Mow how about we have some fun~" I paled but didn't do anything, I let myself Go into my secert place in my mind. ' please.... please... A-yuan....save me.... '
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I'm not good at describing clothes... so I will just put the pictures... Jin lings body doesn't have any bruises because the elders let Jin ling heal before the took him out.

The hair is style that way but the back reaches to Jin ling's butt

The makeup Yes Jin ling knows how to do makeup he learned

This was the outfit they had given Jin ling to wear... Sizhui would have blowed a fuzz if he saw Jin ling like this XD Anyway I hoped you liked the chapter my beautiful Lotuses!!! Till next time 💛💙💛💙💛💙💛