( HI MY BEAUTIFUL LOTUSES AND JADES Sorry I was gone for a while This chapter is a little short but it will be important for the next one 💙💛 I'm better now and I'm done my test until next week but I'm ok! Thank you for being patient )
Narrator's POV
After Sizhui was given that second poem of Jin ling's whereabouts, he hasn't talked to anyone and was very conscious about meeting her. He knows that everyone is weird about him, people are slowly starting to give up looking for Jin ling and are going to say he's dead soon... but Sizhui won't give up until Jin ling is home!
Sizhui had gotten back from giving Fairy a walk when he bumped into Senior Wei and Hanguang- Jun, " Hanguang-Jun, Senior Wei, are you heading somewhere ? " Sizhui asked curiously, " We're just going to a walk, Everyone is stressed right now " Wei ying said, "Are people still gonna search for Jin ling? " Sizhui asked, Both Hanguang - Jun and Wei ying gave Sizhui a sad look and shook their heads, "They decided to stop the search " Wei ying said, "WHAT! BUT JIN LING IS STILL OUT THERE! " Sizhui shouted in shock, " We know, all of us tried but nobody listened so the search for Jin ling is over .... " Wei ying said, Sizhui balled his hand into a fist tightly and nodded, "ok " he said quietly, He didn't move when Wei ying and Hanguang -Jun walked passed him to leave Gusu. Sizhui speed walked to his room ignoring the stares and whispers. Once he got to his room he immediately slammed the door shut and locked it. ' Why... why can't they understand that Jin ling is still out there! That's because they don't care Sizhui! NO your wrong! They do fare about Jin ling! IF THEY DO CARE THEN WHY ARE THEY GIVING UP HUH! WHY ARE THEY NOT SEARCHING FOR HIM! CAN'T YOU SEE THEY NEVER CARED NOBODY DOES! But... forget about them, We'll search for him no matter what the cost is ' Sizhui didn't know what to do, he walked towards his bed and sat down, he looked at his hands and gripped his hair in frustration, " DAMNIT! " Sizhui yelled, he stood up and started to destroy his room until everything was broken or ripped, then ..... he saw himself in the mirror, his hair was down but a mess, his clothes were ripped, his eyes had changed color from their smokey grey to a bloody glowing red, tears falling down his face, Was he really going crazy.... was he really losing his mind? Then... Sizhui heard his door open he immediately looked towards it ..... and... saw Hanguang Hanguang Jin and Wei Wuxian standing there is pure horror. " A-yuan... what have you done to yourself!? " Wei ying immediately said but didn't even step a foot in that room, Sizhui raced passed them and left Gusu once again, it hurt, everything did. Sizhui had ran until he was far from Gusu and started to walk. Sizhui didn't know how far or long he walked but he stopped when he saw Jin ling and his tree ( When Sizhui and Jin ling got very close over the years, Jin ling had found a cherry blossom tree that lasted forever, they were called the forever blossoms. Sizhui had craved their names into it JL + WY, it was their secert place to meet, or hang out with out Jingyi or zizhen, just them and Fairy. ) Sizhui walked towards the tree and saw the craving.... ' This is where I carved our names... A-ling loved it... ' Sizhui thought and had slid down the tree and pulled his knees up to his chest, for the first time... Sizhui had never felt this lost. He cried for many hours and had went back to cloud recesses but never talked to anyone. Sizhui never realized how much he was changing. Days passed and he slowly started to hate being at Cloud recesses, being near Jingyi or zizhen, having his parents worry for him. Everyone had stopped looking for Jin ling and thought he was dead. But Sizhui knew that wasn't true.
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Do you guys think That Sizhui should give up the fight? In the next chapter a surprising person will get the mic and tell you guys how they feel about everything 😏😏 What is happening to Sizhui? Will he win or lose his battle? Till next time bye bye