Amelia
You cannot spend life in the shadows or live in fear. I know this so well but cannot seem to just follow through. Chris and I were working amazingly, he knew my pain threshold and knew before I did when I was about fall over the edge. Not once did he fail me when he said that he would be there. I learned that I really enjoyed being cuffed and not being able to touch Chris. I established that I was fully submissive at the club that is, if you break out the psychology someone would tell you that it is due to my past. However, I have control over almost everything in my life except when it came to sex. Not sure on the psychology there but with Chris it is the one time I can let go and not worry about going too far.
Two days before my premier Chris wanted to just spend the night relaxing. I had no issues there. Between some photo shoots, Brimstone marketing and training, I was beat. We ordered pizza and watched some weird reality show about big foot hunters. I squared that away for when he critiques my shows again.
As I took a bit of pizza Chris asked "So Friday is almost here. How are you feeling about it all?"
"Honestly, I am somewhat nervous because I actually have never seen you guys in action. Everything is closed doors."
"Dani promised me that Friday and Saturday will be a cake walk. Our client Friday just likes to watch while her jerks off and Saturday the guy likes his privacy, so you'll be blindfolded."
As I grabbed my wine, I took a big gulp. "What does he like?"
"His get up it the women is blindfolded the while he is told what to do to you. They both are aware it will be your first weekend so they will be okay if it's a little vanilla."
"That isn't so bad. Dani said Monday and Tuesday next week we will be dancing in the shadow both?"
"Yup so it won't be so bad. Also, the crew wants to take you out Saturday for drinks as a welcome to the dark side."
I could not help but laugh at his attempt to be nerdy. The club had weird hours 5pm-10pm. The Youngs had a family member die from a drunk driver shortly after last call. When they opened the club, they made sure their staff could get home before bars let out.
"We do need to stop by after noon tomorrow so we can check out your outfits."
"That sounds good to me. I gotta drop proofs off for more promotions."
Chris stared off for a few minutes as if pondering his next move. "Mia, it's pretty obvious that Jax knows about you being on the menu now. You know he likes you and I may have let it slip you like him. Not like just want to fuck like but wine and dine your kind of like."
"Chris you're rambling on. Get on with it." Internal giggle there on the Monty Python joke.
"What I am getting at is that if something happens between you two could you handle him being our client and your boyfriend? He can be an alpha type. "
"You are assuming that I am willing to date. If you remember correctly, I haven't held a successful relationship since...I mean the longest since rehab was six months."
"Jax is a good man Mia, shitty life just like yours. He just likes to protect what's his and he doesn't like many women."
The next day Chris's words stuck with me. Jax may like me and took him months to get the courage to make small talk but could he be okay with all of this? They employee parking lot is behind the building and always feels like walking into Fort Knox. It is gated, entry is from thumb print only, cameras are everywhere, and you can only get through the back door with a personal pin to show which employees came in. They were not joking on how they wanted to keep their staff safe.
Chris led me to where our dressing area was. It was weird to see no one in the area and for it to be quiet. I began to search through my rack of clothing, there was a few black and red items. Dani knew darker colors or white looked great on me. Before coming over Dani informed me that I needed to try on two outfits to make sure the sizes were correct. I took the black outfit running my fingers through the fabric. There was not much to it, I began stripping my clothes off in our area. Chris approached me and casually sat in the chair near the mirror. He watched me remove my clothing, watching as if he was studying my body. He handed me the bottoms which were confusing as fuck. Chris held the sides for me to step in. It was a simple bikini bottom with long fabric that reached the floor.
I looked at Chris and could not help but laugh. "It's like the slave costume from Star Wars"
"Lord I am surrounded by nerds." Chris laughed "You know Jax made me watch them all, even had me go to the midnight premiers of the new ones."
"You must be a closet nerd to agree." I grabbed the black halter bikini top. "Can you help tie this for me? But a nerd would agree to sit through them all" I straightened my hair, so it fell down my back once Chris tied it. I turned around with a smirk. "Tell me Jar-Jar Binxs is a Jedi."
There was no hesitation "Like Hell he is!" Chris's face dropped as if he was busted.
"Totally a closeted nerd." I bent over and placed a kiss on his cheek, Then I walked away sauntering away. "Longer you deny it the worse it gets."
"Where you going to?"
"To show Dani her work."
As I walked away, I could hear Chris whistle and comment on how it was a nice ass to watch walk away. Shaking my head, I began to walk towards the office. I had reached and knocked as I opened the door. Upon entering and older gentlemen with loosely tied back white hair and black suit sat across from Rory. The side of his face looked familiar. He was had resting dick face going on.
"I'm sorry Rory, I was looking for Dani she wanted to see something." I was very apologetic because no one rarely was in the office unless there was board meetings.
"No sorry River." Uh oh, during closed times our real names were used. "Mr. Lucis this is one of our girls. She's premiering soon."
Mr. Lucis stood up and walked over to me. Closer he looked sinister; he grabbed my hand bringing it to his lips. Gently placed a kiss to my knuckles. The touch repulsed me to my core. "It is nice to meet you River."
"It's uh, nice to meet you Mr. Lucis."
"Mr. Young it is a shame I couldn't get a honey like this." He twirled my hair through his fingers. The smirk on his faced made me sick to my stomach. Everything about this man scream run.
"I am sorry Mr. Lucis our girls do not work outside of this building no matter who the buyer is." Rory looked at me with an apologetic face. "River, Dani is at the bar doing inventory."
As I turned to leave Mr. Lucis began to walk back to Rory. "Now Mr. Young you know I always get what I want."
I am quite sure I bolted out the door and head straight to the bar. I did not acknowledge Dani; I grabbed the bottle of Jack and a glass. The shot burned going down, it was cleaning the bile that built up in my throat. Sadly, it would take even more to remove the feeling on my body. Mr. Lucis's touch was seared into my skin.
Second shot down and I noticed Dani watching in concern for my odd behavior. "Sweetie are you okay? You never drink here."
I shook my head no, holding back the tears. "I came from your office and met Mr. Lucis." Dani's face screamed in horror. "Your look is exactly how I feel. He didn't do anything; Rory was there but he really just creeped me out."
"I am sorry Mia. Mr. Lucis is a unique client, but we always make sure he respects our staff regardless of who he is. Now, let me see your outfit."
I almost forgot about that, I twirled around to show Dani. She nodded in approval and asked me to head to the stage. "Holler for Chris so you can work on a routine together. I am going to find out security tech. He's here somewhere so if you need me just call."
Dani collected my drink and shoved me away to the stage. My mind was wandering like no other. It would bounce to the thoughts of tomorrow, Mr. Lucis, how he reminded me of Dean and then to Chris's comments about Jax. This was a lot to take but I was not going to let it stop me. I had reached the stage, nerves set in, how am I going to be able to dance up here? I could barely do presentation at meetings, how was I going to dance? Chris came out at some point while I was lost in thought. He came up behind me wrapping his arms in a protective manner around my waist and placed his chin on my shoulder.
"Mia, you're a million miles away right now. Whatever head space you're in let me get you out of it."
"Okay" I whispered. We began to walk backwards to the pole. His body was against mine but then was replaced with a cold metallic pole.
Chris came face to face with mine, our lips barley brushing against each other. "Mia we aren't going to do anything sexual. It will all be sensual. If it is too much say 'ice' and I will scale it back. If I need to stop say 'fire'." He grabbed my hands and placed them above my head guiding my fingers to the pole. "Do you understand those words are to protect you?" I nodded to his words. "Your hands stay put."
Before I could respond Chris began dragging his finger across my jaw, once the finger moved it was replaced by his lips, simple gestures and I was pressing my thighs together. His fingers moved down to my collarbone and traced the outline of my top, never placing them directly on my tits. Both hands now sat on my ribs, he slowly shaped my curves as he drugs his teeth across my chest.
"breath for me tiger." I did not realize I had been holding it in. I took a slow breath and could feel my confidence burn. Chris explained why he called me tiger, he admired my simple subtle stretch marks, they reminded him of the animal. Chris explained on how he thought I was wild, strong, and beautiful like one. My heart rate slowed, and my breathing evened out finally. "That's much better. Focus on my touches."
Chris kneeled before me, peppering my stomach with kisses. Calloused fingers slipped between my thighs and messaged them gently. Something so simple was bringing me down from everything that was on my mind. I was feeling peace and comfortable.
Keyword there 'was'. I could feel eyes on me. It made my skin crawl and like I needed a hot shower. I took my eyes off Chris and looked up to lock eyes with older eyes. I knew that face and wanted none of it. My body was paralyzed with fear, I did not even know why I feared this man, but I did. Mr. Lucis was watching with pure hunger, almost like a wolf waiting for his prey in a dark corner. Chris had sensed my discomfort but was unaware of our audience. He whispered something to calm me down, but it did not register at all. I could see and feel Mr. Lucis eyeing me as Chris touched me. There was so many things that came flooding in at once. Touches from Dean, hits from Philip or the look in Dean's eye that matched Mr. Lucis. I was not a person to them; I was their object. My chest tightened with an incoming anxiety attack, I needed to leave and now.
"Fire" I managed to hiss. Before Chris could get up to meet me, I bolted. No clue on where I was going, pushing the curtain back I moved as quick as I could, Where the fuck could I hide? My legs kept carrying me, I passed the dressing area and made it to the locker room.
A voice was calling to me, but I just kept going. Hugging my waist as tears began to fall. Why was I letting this one creep bother me? I have been strong for years always able to control things to prevent these memories. I swore my name was being called again. "Amelia" was a whisper, but I could not respond. I made it to the shower room where there was no escape. 'way to go Amelia' I thought. I dropped to my knees still hugging myself. I let the tears the fall as I began to rock while looking at the cold tile flooring. Warmth enveloped me and I found my face into a muscular chest. His hands gently soothed my hair, still fully embracing with the other. My comforter was on his knees with me. His voice sounded...familiar. It was not Chris.
"Shh Amelia." He whispered. "It will be okay love."
I looked up to see familiar beautiful grey eyes looking back at me. Jax. Where did he come from? I was good about my surroundings so how did I miss this! My eyes were searching his when a padded thumb brushed a tear away from my cheek. He looked over my shoulder as if someone else came in. My eyes never left where Jax���s were. My heart suddenly ached for them, voices were around me, but I managed to become immobilized. Shit I was in shock. Before I knew it, I was being carried bridal style by Jax. This felt right, almost as if we had done this thousands of times. I could panic in Chris's voice, but it was not registering what was being said. I heard Jax bark orders to Dani, when did she get back here? He mentioned cameras.
Jax had tried to put me down, I must have protested because I was cuddled into him while on us lap. His arms never let me go, his head rested on top of mine. A gentle kiss was placed on my head while his words were mere whispers to not spook me or to even create comfort himself. "My sweet Amelia, it will be okay. Whatever cause this I'll fix it." He paused to place another kiss on my head. "You walked into my life, I barely know you, however, I know I have no intentions of letting you walk away. I will do whatever needed to protect you." He chuckled, lord it was sexy. "Even if I have to share you."
For some reason I wanted to tell this man everything. Things that I am sure Emmet did not even learn until a year of sobriety or at all. I wanted Jax to run because my baggage was too much, but I craved him enough that he could make it go away. Chris had warned me of his friend, but logic was going out the door. Fuck. I was pushing that bitch off the cliff. Between Chris and Jax they could make sure someone like Mr. Lucis would never hurt me.
Logic falling off the cliff while in flames. It would be okay, yeah all is fine.