All I could feel was warmth, it was amazing, reassuring, and peaceful. Then I could hear beeping? And snoring? Followed by an arm over my waist holding me. I opened my eyes to a tiled ceiling with the lights off. A sense of panic washed over me causing the beeping to go up. Memories from the night I overdosed and the same scene I woke up to. A movement next to me grounded me. I rolled over to see my Jax, five o'clock shadow, tasseled hair from sleeping and despite his darker skin there was bags under his eyes. I wish I had a camera because I was sure he was wearing hospital scrubs. Those stupid chords and pain made it hard to move. I tilted my head and kissed his chin.
Jax sighed and smiled while whispering. "It lives!" we both let out a laugh but mine was short lived as pain shot through me and I groaned. "I am sorry to make you laugh love. You're going to be in pain for some time."
His hand cupped my cheek and his thumb drug over my cheek bone. His face was so sad, lord I must look horrible or something. Maybe I do look like a monster. "How bad is it Jax? I don't remember much but just enough."
He paused and frowned "Tell me what you do remember."
I had told him how Dani was shot, which he reassured me she was good. Then I explained how I ran and put up a fight, pride swelled in his face, then I could barely explain what happened next. He could only hold me while he slowly rubbed my arms.
When I looked up fear rolled right off him. There was something on his mind, I was going to ask regardless of how bad od shape I was in. "Jax, honey, what's wrong? You can tell me anything."
Jax took a deep breath and kissed my forehead. "My sweet Amelia, I think, no I know, we were kind of careless."
Shit fear was inevitable with that statement. My insecurities were getting to me because this was a talk I was not wanting. "We can't always control what your fath" he placed a finger to my lips to silence me. I could not help but pout.
"No love, we, as just you and I were careless one night. That is all it takes, one night." I was not following at all. Maybe it was the beating or the drugs, but he chuckled at my look. "Do you remember the birthday party last month?"
"Somewhat" I smiled. "There was so many shots and then we went back to your place, our wager was over and we- "Fuck, of course we did that but fuck. "No, we aren't."
"I am quite sure you broke all the statistics but yes love. The doctor told me yesterday. Later today we will do an ultrasound to make sure everything is okay."
Sure, I was going to lose my shit, nope maybe that is my stomach. Either way, memories were really coming back. Back then I was young and dumb, but it still hurt. It had been hope for me and then it was taken away almost instantly. Despite, the last time I would have been a single mother but now I was pregnant again and he was happy?
At some point I began crying, Jax wiped my tears away. "shh love it's okay. Talk to me." So, I did. I told him about the baby I lost. Emmet did not even know, only my therapist from rehab and a few people back in Iowa. He literally knew everything now about me, some reason it was the one thing I could not admit. The abuse I endured, and the drugs was no biggie, but this was so much harder to get out.
When it came time to see our baby that afternoon, I was so nervous the doctor administered an anxiety medicine to help me. The technician placed the jelly and wand on me, when our baby appeared on the screen, I could hear a small gasp. She pushed some buttons measuring the baby, baby Adams's due date was set for May 23, 2020. I have seen Jax tear up, but the second our little one's heartbeat came on we both cried. Dam these hormones, it made my heart swell at him crying but I also wanted to jump his bones. Baby Adams's heart was strong and perfect which put me at ease.
The following few weeks was a challenge. The day after I was discharged Jax installed a security system to the house. Emmet demanded that they be easily hidden and Jesús did not want it to ruin the walls. Even with the security Emmet and Jesús stayed home when Jax could not be with me. Friday when Dani was discharged the crew came over for pizza. I was glad to have my little family all together, but I was also glad to have everyone over because Emmet was on to me. Honestly, he had this weird thing knowing when something was bothering me. I threatened him to back off or I would ruin the newest episode of Rua Paul. I would not even let him near my bag as they held the ultrasound pictures of our baby. I had the newest one from my follow up today stashed in Jax's pants pocket, our little one was still cleared from the trauma. As we were finishing up our pizza everyone was discussing the party for our birthday coming up.
"Mia and Jax, what do you guys want to do for your birthdays?" Dani sat back in the love seat sipping her water. "I was thinking something similar but more unique."
"Honestly, Dani your last party did a number on me and I can't do it for a while." I smirked at Jax and got the same from him. We decided it was wise to tell the crew now, even though it was still early, and I was still at risk.
"That bitch did come back looking like hell" Emmet was not catching it yet. Thankfully, I wanted to see how long it took our friends.
"She's not kidding." Jax stated "It really did do a number on us both."
"So much that I cannot do anything like that until, I do not know, end of May. Maybe longer depending on what Jax and I decide." Seriously they should not need more hints. I knew Ryder and Chris already knew because they were there when Jax found out. They were trying so hard to not laugh at our comments.
"What kind of shit did you do that you can't party for the next eight mon- "A light bulb went off over Annie's head. "Shut the fuck up. Really?"
As if dominos just fell, everyone was shocked, but Emmet picked me up carefully in a hug. "hookah, I am so happy for you, definitely a surprise. Only took this sex God a month in to knock you up." He looked Jax up and down for a minute. "How long have you known.?"
Jax explained how we found out the night of the attack, we showed them the newest ultrasound, and everyone gushed over the baby. I had explained that this was only between our crew. The fear of Lucis still hung in the air, Jax had told me of our deadline but for the time it was our secret. There was a big chance that we would need to skip town. This was a way to protect our friends and try to protect the baby.
The following week the shock of it all finally wore off. Constant nightmare from the attack and my past haunted my sleep, every sound and shadow made me jump. What made it worse was when Jax would come up to me to just simply touch me and I would flinch. Fuck did I hate it because I knew he would never hurt me. The look on his face when I did flinch hurt me even more. I wanted to lay in bed all day and avoid anything that could cause that look on Jax���s face
"That does it." He got out of my bed and walked to my closet. "I am taking you out for the day and then we're going to help work on bringing back my Amelia."
"Jax, I promise I'll be okay. I just" As I started objecting to the outing when I heard shouting.
"Jesús! What did you do to my cabbaged?"
"Emmet just chill. We can get more baby."
I looked at Jax as he was raising an eyebrow as if to say "see, you need to get out." The shouting continued about the cabbages and I shook my head "Fine get me out of the house."
Jax threw me some black leggings, white tank, brown jacket, and a pair of white sneakers. While getting dressed I agreed to just go with it because lately Jesús and Emmet were having the weirdest arguments. Today happened to be about cabbages. Fairly sure my hormones were to blame for my annoyance but Jax was right, I needed to get out. Plus, I was craving soft pretzels and shakes. Once we left the house and got into his truck, I told Jax what I wanted. He chuckled but did not protest to my unhealthy cravings, even when I ordered the biggest shake possible. The whole day he waited on me hand and foot. I was getting spoiled today with shopping, food and walks in the park. There was no talking about work, Lucis or even the attack.
I did not object to any of this because I was needing it, Jax set on making me feel better. He knew that I could slip into darkness so easily, lack of sleep, already existing mental issues, pregnancy hormones and a brutal attack did not help my case. Shortly after lunch I found us driving out to Chris's house. Curiosity piquing my interest "Why are we heading to Chris's?'
While watching the road a seductive grin covered his face. "I did say we're going to get our Amelia back." We pulled up to the secluded cabin, parking his truck he looked at me. "Amelia if there is anyone who can get you back on track, it's Chris and me. Even if it's a little unorthodox."
He was not wrong and thanks again to my hormones my body was constantly two seconds away from rubbing myself to climax. Now I was really humming with anticipation on what these two had planned for the day. It was a Saturday so none of us had to work, plus I was not cleared yet from Dani to return to Brimstone. We had if we wanted to, until Monday because I did have a session set up. Jax lead me into the house locking the door behind us. We got to the hidden door and began walking down to the basement.
The basement had not changed since being here besides that it felt like an igloo down here. I noticed coolers near the couch, there was plans on the possibility of not leaving here for a while. Jax came up behind me placing his arms around my waist, his head resting on my shoulder as he held me closely. Chris came out of the bathroom that was down here and walked toward us. He cupped my face and placed a kiss to my forehead greeting me.
Jax spoke first "We will stay down here until we know that our Amelia is on her way back."
���If any of us feels like it's too much we will use our safe word" Chris looked at us both. "we'll stop until we are okay."
"Amelia you will not be in control, you need to fully submit to us" Jax paused. "after a bit Chris will head up stairs so we can claim one another."
"Do you understand tiger?"
I swallowed hard, "yes, say the words if it's too much, submit to you both. Then Jax and I will bond." They were both satisfied with my answer and led me to the bed. Both sets of hands began undressing me and roaming my body. Kissing me slowly as each item of clothing was removed until I was naked. Bare to them physically, all my bruises were showing but mentally I wanted to cover back up. On instinct I started moving my arms to cover myself up.
Jax stopped my hands before they could and then Chris led me to the bed, laying me on my back. Two sets of lips traveled from my head to my legs, some kisses lingered longer and softer across a bruise or a cut. Fingers would trail along my hips; not once would they touch my breasts or my aching pussy. When I focused long enough, I realized they were doing the sensual play when Chris or I would need to be thinking clearly. It was amazing to have them be so physical with my body even though it was not sexual. I was now craving to have their naked bodies on mine but neither one of them were naked. What the fuck? My body was needing and wanting their skin on mine, they both knew it too.
Jax nodded to Chris, a silent understanding that he could do more. It also showed that he was in charge because I was his, my man was going to make sure I was better. Chris's tongue and lips were now pressed to one of my breasts, sucking and licking my nipple. Not once did Jax's hand leave my body as Chris lingered over my nipple. When I began to squirm with a building sensation Chris stopped. I let out a frustrated sigh and my men chuckled; they knew my nipples were always sensitive. A second later Jax's lips and tongue did the same bringing my body to that edge and stopping, totally got it I was not coming until Jax said so.
"So far you're doing good love." Jax kisses my neck. He was not wrong, I laid there and let them explore my body. Bruises and all. "You let us heighten your body and you accepted it. So, we'll undress." Fuck was he right, I could feel the softness of the satin sheets, the roughness of their hands and stubble that was on their faces.
I was also stoked because I craved their skin and their lips or hands were not enough. Chris was the first to press his naked body next to mine and Jax came back with some cuffs as well as a blindfold. Chris gently place the cuffs on my wrist and around his headboard, chaining me to the bed. Jax placed my blindfold on, my body instantly heightened more at the lack of sight and not being able to touch them. I was excited to not know who was touching me but at the same time, I had learned how each man reacted to my body was different.
Chris was the first to bring his fingers to my throbbing clit, slowly rubbing, trailing down to my entrance where he places two digits in. He repeated it and each time he would bring me to that edge, then stop. I was so close to coming but I was not ready, I wanted more. Jax was going to be the one to take me over that edge when he placed his warm tongue on my clit. He sucked and licked slowly, being blindfolded I could feel his stubble on his face and feel his warm breath. I was resisting to squeeze him between my thighs, Chris rubbing my thigh distracted me enough from doing it, when I relaxed more Jax placed his fingers inside me.
"Okay tiger you can come for Jax now." Amazing words to my ears because my orgasm had been building for some time now. A mouth was on my tit, sucking and licking the same as on my clit. I did not hold back and rode my orgasm out. When I came down from that high the cuffs were undone, and the blindfold was removed.
Chris rolled me over to face him and Jax came behind me. They began peppering my body with kisses while rubbing my body with their free hand. They were showing me so much with so little. My men would be there for me, if they could not, they will always find a way to get to me. These two would always have me too. Jax was my love who would always push me to my best, bring me down if needed and be my equal in every way. Chris was there to protect us both, I could not have Jax without Chris and vice versa. Emotionally I could not love Chris like I do Jax, his demons prevented him from that. I knew though that Chris would do whatever Jax asked to protect me, but I also knew that he would protect me if Jax could not. We had a fucked-up relationship with each other, but I would not have it any other way.
We laid there for a while as they continued kissing my body. Jax brought out some oils from the cupboard. Chris flipped me to my stomach, placing the cuffs back on and putting a wedge under my hips that presented my ass to them.
"Now love we're going to be a little rougher. If it's too much remember to use our words if we need to."
"I trust you both." My voice was small but not shaky as it had been.
Chris's hand began rubbing my ass before he lifted his hand, coming down to smack it. After smacking Jax would kiss where Chris had just smacked followed by rubbing oils into my skin. After multiple hits I could feel juices seeping from my core and running down my leg. Chris smacked my ass again, but his hand traveled then to my wet folds, gliding over them barely placing his fingers where I desperately wanted them. I could hear Chris groan as his fingers trailed. When I looked over my shoulder, I could see Chris pumping his cock, clearly ready for release. All three of us had gone two weeks without sex and he was beginning to lose control.
"Jax" he hissed. That alone made me wetter, Chris noticed this as his fingers still trailed my folds. "I can't take much more."
Jax only nodded to Chris as an agreement. Before I knew it Jax had me freed and I was on his lap, my back against his chest. He leaned into my ear. "I am letting Chris go bare since he can't really knock you up more." Ha ha I thought. "I'll be taking this ass while he takes your pussy. Once he is finished, I will clean myself up and then you will be mine."
Chris pumped lube onto Jax's cock and then onto my bud, lingering between both of us. I could feel Jax's cock twitch with each movement from Chris. Jax grabbed my arms preventing me from moving while Chris guided Jax's cock into my ass. The burning from his crown from entering felt amazing and I wanted more. Jax bucked his hips to adjust and entered further slowly until he was full emerged. Chris stroked his shat watching me adjust to the thick cock in my ass, moving as I moaned in pure pleasure. There was no warning as Chris plunged his cock into me, filling my whole body. Chris grabbed onto my hip and Jax's shoulder, grounding him as we all adjusted and moaned in unison.
"Fuck Mia and Jax! I can feel both of you so well." He moved his hips slowly. "I don't think I can fuck her slowly."
Jax let out a growl, cocks twitched in unison and he grabbed my tits. It seemed like forever before Jax spoke. "Have at its Chris. Fuck her as hard as you can." Jax moved a hand to my throat and gently squeezed. "She can take it, can't you love?"
I nodded and almost like a plea. "Fuck me as hard as you want Chris."
With no hesitation his hips slammed into me, thrusting harder and faster each time. Our bodies were in pure bliss and unison. Jax's hand was still on my throat and tit, grunting and swearing each time Chris moved. I could feel all their groves and movements of their cocks in response to me or each other. All three of us were one and there for each other. Jax removed his hand from my tit and trailed down to my clit as Chris continued. My body responded instantly to the new sensation.
"Fuck Jax, she's clenching my cock."
"That's it love, come on his cock and milk him dry."
I was teetering off that cliff again not wanting to jump, it felt too good to have both men in me but Jax rubbed my clit faster. "Fuck!" I screamed "I'm going to…Ah fuck! Keep going"
Chris picked up his pace as I climaxed, seconds later I could feel them both twitch, cry out in pleasure as their hot seed filled me up. Fuck I did not want them to move so I could enjoy the pulses of our bodies. Sadly, they both pulled out, a small whimper escaped from my lips when they left the safety of the bed.
Jax leaned over and kissed me "I am going to clean up and be back in a few minutes to have you."
Chris was now in boxers and responded "I will be upstairs if you need anything. Stay as long as you need to." Chris leaned over kissing my forehead. "We will do whatever it takes tiger to keep you safe."
They both walked away, as I laid there with many feelings from the past few weeks, there was no doubt these two would keep their word. Could I still get hurt? Fuck yes, we are dealing with a mafia king, skeleton filled closets, and an unplanned pregnancy. These two would watch the world burn to keep me and the baby safe. Hell, they would probably light it if it meant my safety. I knew the life these two had led at once, they both knew how to handle the threats and efficiently too. They both had crossed lines before me; however, I was their anchor now. Me alone could show Jax love in this world still existed. I could show Chris that there was hope in anything.
I am not sure what was scarier, the whole scenario or how much I love Jax and care for Chris.