Amelia
Fear causes people to think irrationally but when it is for someone we love is it that bad? Can it still be considered irrational or are we thinking of what is best for the ones we love? Either way at this point my whole body was on auto piolet. I had received a picture text from an unknown number while getting into Jax's truck, they were of us leaving my house this morning with the words
Unknown: I will get what I want
Followed by a picture of us leaving my OB appointment
Unknown: Even if you are tainted with his seed.
It did not take a genius to know that Lucis had my number or that he knew I was pregnant. Anyone who looked at me could see; shit I was convinced my due date was wrong on how big I was feeling. But it was why I asked Jax about our options, deep down I knew that our lives were going to be uprooted. In the meantime, I mentally adopted my old mantra. 'Fake it until you make it' Jax asking about lunch and suggesting baby was a girl helped some.
"She? You think little one is a she?" I chuckled honestly; we both agreed a healthy baby is the best thing regardless of gender. "well we want Tacos."
Jax always waited on us hand and foot ever since we found out about baby. It was adorable that this big tattooed CEO could be so adoring, I was so lost in thought that I did not notice we were at my favorite Mexican restaurant. I could so go for a margarita, but tacos would have to do for now. Jax had met me at the door and he helped me out. His body language was off, he was in protective mode and on high alert. Did he notice something? I casually looked around taking in anything that was off. I could not see anything but felt that skin crawling feeling. Jax shut my door when I heard a familiar 'pop' as I turned around, I saw Jax's face was full of confusion then he dropped to the ground.
"Jax!" I screamed as I dropped to him. I saw the blood oozing from both sides of him. "No honey stay with me!" I took my hands to put pressure over one of the wounds I saw in his stomach. I took my jacket off and placed it behind his back. "Please!" I cried. "You can't leave us. We need you. I need you."
He was deeply staring at my eyes when he raised a hand to my cheek. "Shh Amelia. It is okay. I love you"
All I could feel was tears. "No, you stupid oaf. Tell me you love when you are better." A pair of hands grabbed me and pulled me away. "No!" I screamed.
"Miss let the EMTS take care of him." It was a male voice, as I looked to my side, I saw that EMTS and police had arrived. Thankfully, someone called.
"Please I can't leave him!"
"Miss we'll follow the ambulance to the hospital but for now you need to calm down for your sake and your baby"
He was right, I was not helpful as a mess and the baby needed me just as much. While they loaded up Jax I explained what happened. Sure, I left out the whole Mafia after us and that was his son. The officer did follow the ambulance, he was extremely helpful and explained to the nurse I was his girlfriend. For the time I was asked to sit in the waiting room and do that, wait, until he was stable.
Awesome, left to my own thoughts. Where could things go wrong? So, fucking much could! My thoughts went to Lucis's threats, he literally would not stop. No matter where we went or what we did. This is where being alone was bad because my mind went to Chris's plan. The one secret I was keeping from Jax because I had to.
Chris had stopped by my office a few days after Thanksgiving. He mentioned in our phone call he wanted to talk about something that Jax could not know about and would not be a fan of.
"I come with gifts!" Chris shouted as he walked into the office. "I brought you a giant shake, with a large soft pretzel and cheese sauce."
As he handed me the items "Lord I love you!"
"Me or the food?"
I smiled as I sipped my shake. "the food of course. So, what do you want to talk about?"
"I have a plan, but it needs to be used if nothing will work. Or if Lucis personally threatens you. You understand?"
I nodded and Chris dropped a plan on me. He gave me a burner phone with two numbers added to it. One was his and another was to launch the plan. Chris explained I only needed to text 'Indigo' to the number and then it would put things into motion. I would be taken to a car that would provide a location to a safe house and everything I would need.
"Now tiger, this is if you absolutely think nothing else will work or if Lucis personally threatens you."
"You mean if I think you or Jax can't kept me safe on your own?"
Chris only nodded.
A nurse approached me and explained that Jax was out of surgery and resting. The bullet had missed major organs but did hit an artery. He was heavily sedated for the time being so he could rest. She led me to a room where I saw my protector all hooked up to wires and hoses. A bandage was wrapped around over his stomach and his breathing was shallow. He looked so broken and peaceful. My phone pinged again from the unknown number.
Unknown: Next time he will not be lucky. I want him by my side if I cannot have you
Desperation can make a person crazy but if he thought I would meet his demands he was wrong. I sat next to Jax stroking his hair, clearly, I would leave to keep him safe. Does this break me? Absolutely it kills me, I love this man so much and wanted nothing but happiness. Raise our baby with our friends at our sides, but that was a fantasy. Jax being with me was not going to end well. If I were out of the picture, then maybe his threats would stop.
Tears were swelling in my eyes; this man was my world. In five months, he proved I could have happiness and love. It only took one day to destroy it. I leaned forward kissing his forehead. "I'm sorry hon. Please forgive me and Chris. What I am going to do is for us and our baby. Please know I love you so fucking much that it hurts."
I grabbed a stationary in the room and wrote Jax a letter explaining why I am doing what I am. Begging for forgiveness and understanding. The small flutters in my stomach was making it even harder. Baby knew we were leaving daddy behind and fuck did it make it worse. I grabbed the burner phone from my purse and texted 'Indigo' to the number. Ten minutes later there was instructions to meeting a taxi outside in fifteen minutes, to leave my other phone and wallet behind. This was it; I was going to be leaving. I sent a text to our crew.
Me: Jax has been shot. He is at the local hospital. I am so sorry. I love you all.
I shut my phone off and placed my items in with Jax's belongings. Taking my letter, I tucked it into his hand, kissing his forehead one last time. Turning around I left the room to get into the cab. I left a life behind before and it did not hurt as bad as this did. For once I was leaving people behind who loved me in return.
Three weeks. Twenty-one day. I could do this if I could do it in general. Chris had put me up in a secluded cabin outside of Weott. I only ventured out to get groceries and that was just once a week. Every few days Chris would text me to check in. He had even found a midwife to come check on me and make sure the baby and I were doing okay. I was cleaning up the small one-bedroom cabin before the midwife arrived. It was a simple living room that easily connected to the kitchen and hallway that led to the bedroom and bathroom. Chris made sure it was well stoked before I got here, he must have planned for us to use 'Plan indigo'.
There was a knock at my door, I checked the table by it where Chris placed a hidden gun. There was multiple placed in the home in case I needed it. When I opened the door a round short old lady with long white hair stood there with a bag in hand. This must be my midwife. I ushered her and offered her something to drink. When she declined, I asked, "You must be Penelope?"
"Yes, I am," she shook my hand, she as such a soft face and looked at peace walking into the homes of strangers. "and you must be Cassie Evers." It was such an odd thing to go by a different name. Chris decided on the names, Cassie was Jax's little sister's name and Evers was Chris's last name. "Please explain your situation for me, I am afraid I am kind of confused"
I hated this part because it stung like no other. I told Penelope that I am due May 23rd, I was in danger from an abusive ex (the lie that hurt) who would stop at nothing to hurt us. I rubbed my swollen stomach, in three weeks I really popped more. If it were not for my height or my curves, I would be bigger. I told Penelope my pregnancy had been good so far as well as my symptoms. She checked my vitals before asking me to lay on the couch, she checked the heartbeat and commented on how strong it was. The next device looked like part of an ultrasound wand but attached to a smaller screen.
"Portable ultrasound equipment." Penelope pulled my shirt up revealing my bump. "they didn't have this until last year actually. I am going to do an anatomy check of baby and check position. If we are lucky, we could see what you are having. Would you like to know the gender?"
I nodded yes, I honestly was tired of calling baby 'it', she placed the jelly on my belly and began moving the wand. She showed me that everything was good, and I was on the path of a tall and big baby. As she moved the wand around more she stopped. "well congrats momma you are have a little boy."
I so wanted to call Jax out on how he thought we were having a girl. "oh!" Penelope shouted.
"What do you mean oh?" My anxiety was high because I still carried that fear of my miscarriage. She was still moving the wand and looking at the screen. Seconds later a third and fourth leg came up. Why would there be…no.
"double congrats momma. Looks like there is a female twin. She is slightly smaller than brother, but she looks really healthy."
After a brief meltdown Penelope explained how she must have been hiding behind her bigger brother exactly right during my last ultrasounds and their heart beats were synced. She printed off the pictures of each baby. She then gave me instructions to up my eating and how to count their kicks. She even suggested telling family or friends because I would need help with things soon. After good-byes I sat down and looked at their pictures.
Turning on the TV I could not help but think that maybe I should not have gone on my own, maybe this was the wrong plan. I needed my crew; I need Jax even more. The sound of breaking news interrupted my thoughts.
A string of violence has been tearing through the city of Santa Rosa over the past couple weeks. Authorities believe it is to be gang related as Jaxson Lucis, son of Jerrod Lucis, was gun downed in front of a restaurant. A week after that an exclusive club was burnt to the ground. No one was inside of the building at the time of the fire. It is believed that Lucis who is suspected to be the leader of the gang Muertos is currently in war with an upcoming gang called Draco. Just last week a group of Lucis employees were found dead near the beach of Santa Rosa. The FBI has put a reward out for the information on the where about of Mr. Lucis due to this activity and illegal activities. When asked about his father Jax commented.
"I have nothing to do with my father and his business. However, until he is found my loved ones are not safe."
"Is it true that he's threatened your life if you didn't join his business?"
While watching the screen I could see Chris acting like his bodyguard, so was not needed, they were equally matched. They both looked like shit, Jax's hair was messed up, bags under his eyes and a crinkled suit that looks as if he slept in it. Jax had paused before responding.
"Yes, he has. In fact, my pregnant girlfriend left the state or either he forced her to. If she can hear me now. I will find you love."
Well fuck. I really needed to go back or talk to Chris. I was quite sure the dead me were from my men, I also needed to drop these two new changes. I felt the twins move as they sense momma was worried. So much fear again because the news indicated the Lucis has disappeared and was pissed. I pulled out my phone, pulling up Chris's messages. We had agreed to use our safe words in emergencies. 'fire' was meant for it was bad and 'ice' if he needed to call soon
Me: Ice
Chris: Give me 20 mins
Like clockwork my phone rang. "Are you okay?" he asked, concern was thick in his voice.
"Sort of, are you free to talk?"
"Yeah tiger, there isn't anyone around. What's up?"
"I saw the news. What's going on?"
"It's a mess Mia and so is Jax. He has no idea that you are safe. I cannot comfort him because it will give things away. I am at a loss because he was one step away from being like his dad who did fall off the grid."
"Dam! Well my news won't be any better."
Chris cut me off. "Are you okay? The baby?"
"Chris calm down, I am okay, and the babies are doing great."
"Babies? Mia what are you saying?"
"I am saying that there are two of them. Little man is big and strong so he can protect his little sister. I guess she has been hiding behind him since the start." I was smiling at that statement. "But that's also the problem. I could handle the one if needed to. But twins Chris? It puts me now at a high-risk pregnancy, delivering outside of a hospital may not be an option now."
"Shit. It is still not safe, and I cannot guarantee... that will be enough. We might need more time before we can provide more detail."
Fuck Jax or someone else had to be around. "Just please figure something out. I am trying to keep it together, but I can only do so much."
"We'll figure it out. Give me a couple of days?"
"Deal" the call ended. Jax for sure had no clue, Chris was aching to tell his best friend and I needed Jax.
Those two days were hell, between heart burn, the twins playing soccer on my kidneys and the news it was enough. Then the knock on my door did not make it any better. I made it to the door and grabbed the handgun, removing the safety, I held it when I opened the door aiming at…
"Chris!" I squealed.
"Watch mama, put the gun down." He held his hands up. I placed the gun on the table and wrapped my arms around him. "I missed you too." He chuckled.
I lead Chris into the house demanding to know why he was here. He explained he came up with a plan. He told Jax he was going to personally look for me with random leads he had while Jax stayed back to look for his father. They were actual false leads, but it gave Chris the chance to physically come check on me and put Jax at ease. He could not guarantee that it would last long, even he knew I needed to come back soon. Sooner now then later.
The first week of February came quick. Chris had managed to sneak away a couple days over the last couple of weeks. He would show Jax updated photos of me as if I were on the run. It did ease him a bit to see I was not with Lucis and to see my belly was growing. It felt so wrong but Lucis's threats were not easing up by any means. Between Jax, FBI and the CIA no one could find him, but the threats still came.
When Chris came to visit, he would make me dinner and talk about how our crew was doing. I was missing them so much and to help me with this loneliness Chris suggested looking for Valentine's day gift for Jax. He would somehow give it to him when it arrived. I searched online for maybe fifteen minutes before I knew what to get him. Chris gave me shit for thinking of couple necklaces but even he agreed that Jax would love it because it was us. Each day that Chris was with me he reassured I was safe and each day I reassured him that I was not going to pop sooner than thought. If Chris was not with me, I had agreed to text him by two pm to assure I was okay. He would respond with in thirty minutes to reassure everything was good on his end.
I was in a really good mood today, as Chris had shipped part of my valentine's day gift I purchased for Jax and I. Yeah it was a few days before Valentine's day but there was no hesitation as I place the silver necklace on, at the end of the chain hung a small silver bar. One side had a Star Wars Rebel sign engraved and the other read 'I know'.
I walked to my room dreading that I needed to do my laundry, when I reached my room, I heard my door shut, odd because I always locked it. "Chris? Is that you?" I turned around and walked into the hallway.
There at the end stood the Devil in a dam Armani suit. He was smirking while he stood there with his hands behind his back. Fuck he was creepy. "I'm so sorry Amelia. It's time for drastic measures, I need my son by my side, and you are standing in the way of it all."
My heart sped up and my hands flew to my stomach, protecting the twins from whatever came next. A pinch hit my neck; everything became fuzzy as I could barely stand all I could see was Lucis in front of me. A pair of gloved hands grabbed me and began carrying me out of the house. I could not move, could not fight, and had no clue what to do. The devil had found me.