Amelia
It was almost like a sixth sense for my body. The twins were moving frantically when Phillip approached me. So many thoughts raced through my head, I honestly could not think straight. The twins calmed down when Jax got closer, they seriously knew when their father was near. He may have calmed the babies down but I myself was just mere minutes away from losing my shit. I was not sure if I was going to break down and cry or throw something. Jax was talking to me and getting me to eat. He was trying so hard it was cute.
When Jax took a drink of his shake he let out a moan, similar to when he climaxes, it broke me out of my little funk, and I giggled. I locked eyes with him, and my heart melted.
"Do you want to talk about it baby?" he tucked a piece of hair behind my ear and I shook my head no.
"I will be okay Jax. I need to get use to the fact of seeing my past and not hide."
"But you need to think of these two before anything else." Jax placed a hand on my stomach and caressed it. He leaned forward and kissed me sweetly. "Now let's eat and then do some shopping."
Our day moved smoothly from there. We walked through a candy store and stocked up on my favorites as well as the boy's. I was itching to eat some of the candy but Jax reminded me I could not indulge too many sweets. It got him an eye roll. Most of our time was spent in the baby store putting almost everything in the cart. I knew I would not get a baby shower, so we were on our own. We focused on the things we needed soon, we had three months but with the way twins could work there was a good chance we had two months. By the time we were ready to check out we had plenty of bottles, burp rags, bath things, blankets, car seats, double strollers, diaper bags and a start of clothes. It was beginning to feel more real when we checked out.
When we got to the truck I could not help but begin to feel uneasy about seeing Philip. He looked like he was on drugs and would not surprise me if he were. His demeanor was off as well, I remember Phillip always being easily aggravated over the stupidest shit, but this was different. I could not put it past me on about him and his comments. Clearly he would tell my mom that I was back in the state but who else on Earth would care that I was back home?
I had been on edge for the weeks following, I was letting myself get into a headspace. Jax and Chris did all that they could to help, I was at the point in the pregnancy where my doctor honestly put a stop to sex. We could still do oral but nothing to extreme. Dr. Navarro had said my cervix was very touchy, he even began giving me shots to help make sure their lungs were ready. I could not do much moving around the house anymore; I was spending time on the couch or in our bed. The only enjoyment I was getting was putting the twin's room together, Jax and Chris got all of the bigger things set up and I was left with the smaller and lighter things. My guys would wait on me hand and foot, Chris looked up prenatal friendly messages for me and would rub me down. This was how I was getting into my own head because I could not do anything to keep me entertained. My mind was so scattered with scenarios.
I was visiting the doctor every week now, almost eight months pregnant they wanted to keep an eye on every little thing. This appointment Jax could not make as he had business meetings all day. So, Chris was put on chauffeur duty for this appointment, he had suggested we travel around the town today and get me some exercise. I had convinced Chris to take me to Sculpture park in downtown Des Moines for a walk, it was oddly nice for April, but he agreed. Of course, it was after he double checked with Jax. We were walking and discussing about the babies and how Chris was getting ready for missions. The thought worried me because he had no idea what he was going into. No matter how much he reassured me I was still worried about him.
We were so lost in conversations that we did not notice the tall man come up behind me, he grasped my shoulder and stopped me. My chest felt like it was going to explode when I saw his face. His hair was darker now, he sported a full beard and was well ripped. His eyes were still the same piercing blue as I remember and the same was for his height. He was slightly shorter than my boys but regardless after the years apart my body still recoiled from his touch.
"Dean" I whispered out of my breath. I could see Chris was on edge and pulling me now behind him to protect me from the unknown man.
"Millie, I heard you were back, but I didn't believe it." He looked between me, Chris, and my belly. "From what I heard you were with a different guy then this one. I see some things never change."
I was seeing red, he had talked with Phillip or somehow heard from him. It was also the reason I left this dam state. What infuriated me the most was how he was referring to my past. He had no clue of the situation, I was married to Jax and committed to Chris. I loved them both, unlike Dean and Eli. I know now it was not love but abuse from Dean. Eli was a friend that I did care for and he did for me, but nothing compared to these two guys.
I am not sure when I began gripping Chris's arm in frustration, I must have been digging into him because he whispered at me "Tiger, can you release your claws from my arm?" I loosened my grip and quickly apologized to him. Chris looked back at Dean "I am not sure what you want or exactly who you are but leave us alone before there is any trouble."
Dean only chuckled and it sent my body into shivers, nothing about it was comforting. Chris pushed me away gently when Dean approached and leaned into Chris's ear. I have no clue on what he whispered to him, but it made Chris tense up. Dean chuckled again and walked away with a smug look on his face. Our car ride to my appointment was silent but I could still tell Chris was on edge. He would not talk about what Dean said. My appointment went by with somewhat of a breeze despite my blood pressure being up a bit. I was only reminded to relax as much as possible in the next couple of weeks.
I could only do so much of that after my encounter with the two men in my life I never wanted to see again in couple of months. Chris and Jax were on edge because of whatever Dean said. So, the whole house was on edge, it was becoming annoying beyond all reason. We were now into the final stretch of my pregnancy so that made it even all better. I was ready to have these babies, there was not much room and I was barely getting sleep. Neither was Jax because I would toss and turn or get up randomly through the night. Sometimes it was to eat, others was to run to the bathroom for the thirtieth time.
Chris was tasked again with taking me to another appointment, there had been a crisis with Dragon security, and he needed to be on conference calls with Robin and Layne to make sure things did not go south. Our car ride was awkward almost, I could tell something was going on, but I did not want to push at first but now I was becoming irritated.
"Chris I know something is wrong." I was looking at him while he was driving and could see his knuckles whiten on the steering wheel. "Please tell me, if it's about me I deserve to know."
I heard him groan and mumble "Jax is going to kill me." He shook his head and started. "Mia, it wasn't that we were trying hide things from you it's just that we wanted to make sure we weren't assuming." He took in a deep breath. "Jax thought it was convenient that Phillip randomly showed up. At first I thought he was just being overprotective but that was until Dean showed up."
"What did he say to you at the park?"
"That was thing, he made the comment on how we couldn't hide you no matter where you went." I watched him swallow hard "Again, was trying not to assume anything but we both agreed that something just isn't sitting right."
I could feel it too, nothing was feeling right about the whole situation and I agreed it was all off. Dean and Phillip found me in a short amount of time and Dean made his threat. We were sitting at a stop light now and I looked over to Chris, I did not have time to register the other car barreling towards us. I remember screaming at Chris to look out and then it went black.
I woke up in a hospital bed shortly later, I could hear the monitors and felt wires attached to me. I was in a hospital or at least I thought so until Dean walked in with Phillip. What the actual fuck was going on? When I looked around, I was not in a hospital but a warehouse. There was so much going through my head, I was angry because these two were behind this, my body was achy, I was tired and felt nothing but pressure in my stomach. I had no clue where Chris was but hearing the quick thumps of the twin's heartbeat on the monitors was some reassurance.
"What the fuck have you gotten yourself into?" I croaked to Dean and Phillip.
Phillip looked at me "There was a nice bounty on your head, we were to bring you in by any means necessary. He didn't care if you would survive as long as those babies did."
I felt sick to my stomach, there was only one person in the world who would want the twins. "How did you get involved with him?" I hissed at them.
Dean chimed in "It doesn't matter. We just have to keep you alive until we can transport you or until you give birth."
I was feeling even more emotions at this point as they explained in detail that Lucis wanted the twins for himself and would go through any means. Even if it meant having some side doctor induce me. He probably thought that he could redeem himself with the babies when he felt he failed with Jax. A part of me was dying inside because I was not sure if Chris were alive or if Jax could find me in time. Another part was angry, and I wanted to fight my way out like crazy. I knew how these two played their mind games and how they functioned. I could handle one of them but two how I currently was.
I had no clue on how long I was there for. I was strapped to the bed, given fluids and prison style food. There was no TV to keep my mind busy or even windows to see if I could keep track of the day. The only thing I could do was plan with the little amount of time I had. I had to remind myself that the twins were still good. They had not moved much since being here, but their heartbeats were strong. I knew no harm would come to them but honestly, not knowing when they would take them was even worse. There was a growing fear that I would not get to see my babies or even Jax again. My mind kept rolling on how I felt I did not tell Jax enough that I loved him; I cannot remember if I kissed him goodbye. I had not even told Chris that I loved him too. Neither of my boys could possibly see me again and Jax would not see his babies.
I threw my head back into the pillow and let out a growl. I needed a miracle or stupidity to fall into my hands. At some point they slipped up and left a knife on my plate, when Dean was not looking I tucked it into my strap. He was definitely on drugs to not notice it or either did not care. He was always a million miles away when he came in. Once he was gone I would plan my escape from there. Thanks to my anxiety and past trauma I had many different scenarios go through my head on what I could do or what could go horribly wrong. The uneasy feeling settling in was the indicator things may go wrong or it was my self-doubt.
From the food Dean brought me, I was pretty sure it was close to the afternoon, so I would be escaping during the day light hours. My plan was to take my time, but the babies had other plans. I could feel cramping towards the front of my stomach. The logical side of me was thinking it was just from the stress, but the fear seeping in was that it was not false at all. So, I was doing this now, I needed to get out and began dragging the knife over the strap. After what I think was ten minutes I had one hand free, just in time to grab my stomach with another cramp that started into my back and radiated to the front.
"Fuck" I whispered and cringed. "Seriously Malcom and Zoe, you two pick today to want to come."
I leaned over and undid my other arm followed by my legs. I slowly took of the monitors and pulled out my I.V. When I stood up on my legs I almost fell, I was clearly week. My hope was falling quickly but feeling the twins move and seeing my rings on my fingers gave me the motivation to move. I needed to move for these two and it was now or never. I had noticed my stuff was in the corner, again Dean and Phillip were not smart. They should have ditched my stuff in the car because inside my bag was my phone. It was dead of course but I only needed it for one thing. I grabbed it and began slowly walking, I could hear voices coming from one end of the warehouse, so I went to the opposite direction.
I could hear three different voices as I walked away but it did not confirm how many others there was on my out of the building. For all I knew there could be more as I moved on. Another wave of cramps came on and I paused for another contraction. Thankfully, they were not close together and super strong, but I read enough to know that it could change any minute. When the contraction passed I began moving again. My heart leapt when I saw a door, there was no alarm on it. I quietly and slowly pushed the door and slipped out. Looking around to make sure no one was around. The coast was clear thankfully, so I pulled out my phone and began removing the back. Months ago, the guys wanted us to all have phones that had removeable batteries. Behind the battery was small placed tracker that could be used in these situations. I pulled out the tracker, pushed that tiny button and placed it into my bra. I put my phone back together and chucked it. If they were going to look for me, might as well make it look like I went another direction and stupidly dropped my phone.
The few trainings I was allowed to do online was paying off. Jax and Chris wanted to make sure that I was capable of taking care of myself and the babies if they were on a mission or just in general. They valued my safety, but they also enjoyed me being alive more. I was able to take in my surroundings to see I could easily hide behind dumpsters or vehicles and kept low. I listened carefully for any indicators someone was near, but I did not hear a thing.
I got away from the warehouse to realize I was at the edge of a town; from the distance I could see a familiar scene. I was still in the metro, that was a relief because it meant Jax would be close. The tracker was set up to be quick and not hesitate on sending the signal. I do not know how far I walked or made it before I could hear shouting from the warehouse area. Finally, they realized I was gone but I was now focused on getting the fuck away from here. It all happened so quickly, I saw a black charger come barreling towards me when a pair of familiar arms grabbed me, and a cold metal object was placed on my neck. My body always recoiled at his touch since the day he raped me.
Jax jumped out armed and decked out, he looked tired but relieved to see me. I do not know what he was saying or what Dean was shouting. Clearly he was trying to do a hostage negotiation with Dean. It was not working well for anyone. I felt another contraction hit. Dean holding me was what kept me up but this one was stronger than the last but still quick, Jax caught my movements and the grip of his gun became stronger. More cars came swarming around, there was no lights, but they were all black. It was Ghost, Jax had must of called them to help or either they were already on the way.
From all the chaos I did not even notice that I was still holding the knife to my wrist. I had a way to end this all, I could feel the courage soaring through me. Maybe it was the fact I was in labor and riding on an adrenalin high, but I had a plan. I locked eyes with Jax and looked down to show him the knife I was still holding. His face clearly read that he was worried, and he gripped his gun harder again, but he only nodded in understanding on what I needed to do. I swiftly took the knife and pointed it towards Dean, Jax nodded and I jammed the knife into his stomach. He let go with a loud agonizing scream and Jax was instantly there protectively holding me. He stroked my hair and kissed my head; it almost felt like he was carrying me. I welcomed his embrace regardless of how tight he had a hold of me
"I've got you love. You're safe now." His voice was enough to relax me and even the twins. Lord, do they love their father already.
I could hear Jax talking with Robin and Layne about what to do next. They wanted me to go to the hospital of course to get checked out but before I could even tell them I was already in labor I bent over in pain with another contraction. This one was even stronger and a tad bit longer. Towards the end of the contraction I could feel warm liquid go down my leg. I looked up at Jax who was trying to hold me up.
"I don't need to get checked out Jax because I can tell you already I am in labor and my water just broke." I was trying to get my breathing under control. Jax's face was blank, I am not sure where my husband's mind was at, but I smacked his face. "Jax! I need you mentally here!"
"I am sorry Amelia" He looked to Layne and tossed his keys. "Take us to the hospital Layne" He only nodded and before I could say anything else Jax was carrying me bridal style to his car. I leaned back into the back seat and rested my head while grabbing my belly. Before I knew it we were moving and apparently this car had emergency lights because it was flashing red, white, and blue.
I looked at Jax and grabbed his hand. He looked right at me, cupping my face with his free hand. "Jax I am so scared." It is all I could get out.
"Shh baby it will be okay, we got this." He caressed my cheek and moved his free hand down to my belly and gently rubbed.
Another contraction hit but this time sooner, I curled forward and let out a primal scream. I could hear Jax instruct me on my breathing, which I did not realize I was holding in. I must have asked about Chris because all Jax said was "let's focus on these babies first."
A tear escaped from my eye, a deep feeling of dread was setting in. I had a feeling our unique family was missing the other piece. In no time we made it to the hospital and was whisked away to a private area. Dr. Navarro was already there waiting for us. He asked me a series of questions, how long I had been in labor, if any drugs were administered to me, when my water broke and how I was feeling. All I could do was laugh at that last question.
I clearly yelled at the doctor. "How do I feel?! I am in pain, tired, swollen and want these kids out of me!!"
Jax came up next to me and smoothed my hair back from my face and kissed my forehead. "Baby, take a couple of deep breaths." I followed his instructions and slightly felt better.
Dr. Navarro was on my other side now, he was looking at the machines and checking my blood pressure. He had a pensive look on his face as he looked through everything multiple times. He turned to the nurse and asked her for something, she left the room and he looked back at me then Jax. "So, I am not liking Amelia's blood pressure and heart rate. It is all over the place which is putting stress on the babies. I have a plan, but you may not be a huge fan of it Amelia, however, I have faith that it will be what's best for the three of you."
Jax was holding my hand but looking straight at the doctor. "Whatever you need to do doc I am okay with. As long as it ensures my wife and kids are safe."
Dr. Navarro broke it down that he was going to give me some medicine to calm me down and slow my contractions. His theory was that I was stressed from all the events that happened and just needed some rest before I delivered these babies. He reassured that they would be coming with in the next twenty-four hours. For now, he wanted me to get rest, I was so out of it that I did not see the nurse administer the medicine. My eyelids became heavy, my body was almost numb, and I looked to Jax.
He stroked my forehead again. "It's okay Amelia, I won't leave your side. Get some rest." He kissed my forehead and I closed my eyes. I did not dream or feel anything, and it scared me even more because I remember a time like this when I did not want to wake up. I was ready to welcome the darkness but now, I would fight tooth and nail to make it out of the darkness.