"No! I will not!"she shouted, shocking her parents to the core. "How can you do this to me?" she asked in a broken, desperate voice. "Not once did you spare me a glance. Not once have you ever hugged me, comforted me, supported me and now you suddenly shower me with attention? Now you shower me with fake love so you can just marry me off to some family?" she asked yet it was not a question but a statement. Her voice shook with sadness, anger. Her eyes were blazing with anger, her body shaking with fury, her fists clenched and itching to punch something, anything. "I'm nothing to you but a spare for the spare for the spare! No! I will not do it!"she spat, her voice full of defiance.
"Mikado." thundered her father, surprising her for a few seconds, pausing her rant. "How dare you speak to us like that." he boomed, his golden eyes coldly gazing down at his furious daughter. "Do you really believe that we have not thought of you once? Do you really believe we have neglected you? Do you really think that we"-"Cut the crap." she interrupted viciously. "The guilt tripping card. I thought you would be better than that father."she commented sarcastically, glaring with pure hatred at the unaffected man in front of her. "What happened to slapping me every time I went out of line? What happened to the iron wall you used to be? Finally cracked after seeing me finally break down? Are you satisfied?"she screamed, tears finally falling and she did nothing to hide it, nothing to stop it.
"How dare you brat!"seethed her father, taking a step towards his furious daughter. The sound of skin hitting skin echoed around the room. Her father didn't look a bit remorseful. Her mother just shook her head in disappointment and she just chuckled. She couldn't help but laugh like a maniac.
"See. You even slap me, your own flesh and blood without a single bit of remorse!"she screamed hysterically. "All this,"she started, gesturing to herself "is not mine but your fault. You made me like this!"and she paused, taking a deep breath to calm herself down just a bit so she could talk properly. "You keep saying, implying that all those luxurious gifts were your ways of saying that you love me but did you ever ask me what I wanted? You always assumed that I want this or that but you never bothered to ask. All I ever wanted was some praise, a thumbs up, a hug, your love but you gave that all away, not sparing an ounce for me! Do you not know that you're the reason I got depression, anxiety, stress? You gave everything I needed away to the . Yes, I am jealous and full of spite but you know why?"and again, she paused, letting her hurting words sink in. "Because of you, the both of you."she finished with acid dripping in her voice.
Gone was the strong girl that they knew so well and were secretly proud of. Gone was the girl that always looked at them hopefully. Gone was the iron walls she had built around herself, nothing but dying embers remaining. Now, they finally see her true self. Now they finally see how lost, confused, depressed, broken she is. Now they saw what they had created and what they had foolishly believed to be a happy girl.
"To you, I'm nothing but a spare. All your praise you gave to Kosuke. All your encouragement you gave to Mikano. All your kindness you gave to Shiro. All your support you gave to Mika. And what did I get? Nothing but cold glares and harsh words. Do you know how that badly that hurt me?"she asked her silent audience, knowing she would have the final say in the matter. "Every day, I'd watch you have fun with them, smiling happily:the perfect family. And now, you suddenly give me back my lost childhood that I had always longed for. Outrages! Beyond shameful!"she cried out, her voice broken and cracked. "You on,y think about yourself and your stupid *ss business."she said in a small tried voice, turning around so she wouldn't need to see the distraught faces of the people she hates to her very core. "If you think you can fix this relationship, you're years too late."she choked out, starting to walk away. At the door to the room, she stopped just before opening it, looking ever so slightly over her shoulder. "I'll do it."she said in a defeated voice. "I'll do it so I don't need to see your emotionless faces ever again."she finished, leaving behind two shocked and guilty people.
As she walked away, her words, her whole rant hung heavy in the air. The only noise was her sniffles and her shoes clicking on the cold tiled floor, growing fainter and fainter with every step. Just before the door shut, just before the doors to the elevator closed, she said "I hate you with all my heart!"knowing that they would hear and it would hurt. Just like they did all those years till this moment in her life.
She was done faking it. She was done letting them walk over her. She was done with everything. As the elevator made it's long yet short journey down, she promised that she would leave this horrible place and never need, never want to come back.
HEYO! IT'S.....EUCALYPTIS! OR...LILPOTATO!!!!Small author's note.Now, this is what I wrote but purely based on what I think could be happening behind closed doors for rich families,celebrities and families. When an idol makes a mistake, shows that they are human, the public all pick up on it. Not all fans do but most will scrutinizesaid idol and some even commit suicide because of that. Appreciate what idols, singers, actors do for normal people and if they make a mistake, support them instead of pointing out the obvious that they did something that for once wasn't perfect. I'm a kpop fan and I listen to shine. I watched the kdrama OhMy Venus and it had this cool theme tune called Beautiful Lady by the singer Jonghyun from Shinee. I was like: I really like his music and stuff and did some research about him and then found out...he had already died. The cause was suicide because of too much pressure from the public scrutinizing him about mistakes he did or how he felt he wasn't good enough. In the end, he committed suicide and left behind a really sad goodbye letter. It made me cry! ☹☹☹Point is, that is what can happen and happens to many kpop idols, singers, actors, and normal teenagers. I mean, it's our choice to let social media become part of our daily lives but it's also a danger. That's why, if a person makes a mistake, reassure them and give advice to avoid it in the future instead of blatantly point out the obvious: they did something wrong.Man! It's 10pm where I am and I'm still working on this. Have been for the whole day cause I was correcting and stuff.Sorry if you notice and typos and stuff.I hope you sort of like the first chapter, Imean...lot's anger in it but did it catch your attention? Could you imagine the scene actually happening in front of you? That's what I'm aiming for here.Lemme know. I am legit begging you.
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